Hi, Wa Dok. I can't see anything wrong with your membership or settings at this point. Not sure what is causing your difficulties. I will try to ask around, maybe someone else on staff has an idea.
School is over and soon enough. But, I am unsure why this landed here. If you want to feel better about school, read some cases of the Blue Cliff Record. Master this and English won't matter.
Still, I, for my self, prefer not to sexualize God. In my book I refer to God the Law. I do believe this is the way we know God. It is the sum and substance of the rules we must live by while we bear our flesh.
What gift do you have?
In an initial powerful experience faith did not seem necessary. Therefore you are correct. When a person is drawn by God into the experience of knowing Him no faith is evident. A person is in the seat of His power.
Jesus is the head but he welcomes others who can do this in an act of faith.
I read scriptures but then they can be misinterpreted especially if another person is relied on.
I have had some powerful experiences and have one of the gifts, but there must be others who have other gifts. One gift could be to clarify what I am trying to say. English my native tongue was the worst subject at school.