All sounds interesting but all still confusing. Perhaps its the questions that keep us from the answers. I read a quote from an old teacher; "what I can tell you may be worth a shekel; but what I do not tell you will be worth two" Acceptance is what gives one the truth not question.
I understand exactly how it was with me. I purchased a tape on Yoga Nidra (from most specialist shops). Perservere with these and you will soon be able to walk and talk with a peaceful mind. Good hunting