Addicted to Depression

[oldbadger]

Is it possible to be addicted to depression?

Hello ....Sum.
Firstly, sometimes depression can be caused by physical (bodily) conditions. Other times depression can be psychological, or connected to a person's unique character. Just to screw it all up and make it really difficult, the two types can interact and cross over with each other!
Just how to find one's way through the fog of depression to any island of positive mental frame of mind can be hard, and doctor's don't often have the charts and compasses to help.
The very best counselors are usually the ones just finishing training, imo, but I could come to that later.

Maybe "addicted" is the wrong word here, but for about 3 years now I've had the same dull feeling of lacking motivation, carelessness, and an off and on sadness for no apparent reason.

Some of the very very best successes started out with young people with no motivation, no drive, no desires, etc....... and then, bang! ..... they saw the goals and set out to accomplish amazing new 'things'. You need a good counsellor here, who, by asking questions can cause answers from you that will initiate new routes to take. Trying to push yourself where your spirit don't want to go does not seem to have worked for you. It wouldn't for me, either.

It led me to failing all classes 2 whole years of high school, and this one is to be a third, giving up on it. It led me to threatening my health for a daily delirium. It led me to losing over half of my money in my savings and now it only slowly builds up 10 dollars a week. I can't help but think that it's already too late to turn around.

I was a real tw-t when I was a teenager, and blew all my savings on stupid ideas and lost causes. Stop worrying about your place on the savings ladder, and start reading folks on this forum who have stoic mindsets. The less you need, the less you'll grieve over what you've spent. The experience will be worth more than the bloody savings....... honest.

I'm not sure how much I messed my future up, and I can't seem to let it go. Like a scar, at first I kept making it deeper, thinking some freedom will come out of it, but now it's to a point where I don't really know if I can treat it, so why not just keep digging? I feel uncomfortable but I'm used to having it.

You haven't messed your future up. Anything can happen...... a 'for instance', you might wake up one morning and say, 'bloody hell, there's a huge gap in the counselling service, it's full of folks who haven't really grasped hpow to do it. With my empathy, etc, I could fill that gap' or whatever.....

I've been to two different counselors for it, but as soon as my parents stopped intervening with my visits I always stopped going. I quit the first time because the guy really pestered me of how he could supposedly relate to everything I said. A while later my parents found out I stopped going and asked if I wanted to go to another. I thought that the second guy would be better but while he was a nice guy, I decided that I had "better things" to do.

These counsellors were not right for you. The right one will do great things....

I also am addicted to diphenhydramine, which is legal so I don't believe it goes against the forum rules to say that.

There's a challenge for you....... however tough........ I don't knpow about thois drug, but you do, so work out how to beatr it. Your very bright..... we on RF know that much

 

[ChristineES]

Depression is misunderstood. It is an illness caused by a chemical imbalance. It is treated by various methods- such as exercise, meds, etc.

I think what you mean is "addicted to misery". And yes, some people are very addicted to misery. They have it in them to be happy, but they decide to be miserable- and sometimes it it is not really conscious effort.

 

[illykitty]

Sometimes depression isn't chemical though. I've seen a psychiatrist who said mine was due to life events and no meds would help. Only therapy, self help, etc.

I do wish it was as simple as an imbalance. I've been like this for over 10 years and nothing's helped so far.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

Sometimes depression isn't chemical though. I've seen a psychiatrist who said mine was due to life events and no meds would help. Only therapy, self help, etc.

I do wish it was as simple as an imbalance. I've been like this for over 10 years and nothing's helped so far.

I suggest that you get a second opinion. Life events are a big cause of my depression, but it's still a chemical issue. You become depressed and it causes changes in your brain. If you're depressed that long, it's time to try medication.