Hi
I just came across this discussion on Google search and was wondering...
I consider myself to be a very Eclectic UU...I believe all religions have truth, wisdom and knowledge and I enjoy exploring the different cultures and traditions and especially the celebrations found in all of them.
I have my own random ritual days where I may spend the day reading devotionals from Wicca, Christianity, Taoism, Humanism or whatever subject I can get my hands on really, I meditate, practice Yoga, spirit dance, do trance and Visualizations, I practice candle Magic, do cleansings etc, I do this as a way to connect better to myself mainly...
However, I have been informed on more than one occasion that one cannot be spiritual as I am and be an Atheist so I have been looking for the term that correctly describes me - I have explored Pantheism but I dont believe that The Universe is God, Yes I believe it is sacred to a degree and should be treated better but the term doesnt quite fit for me....Wicca is a beautiful and wonderful religion and I agree with the tenants it espouses but I just dont believe in a God and Goddess...I want to but find that want and actual belief are two very different animals...No matter what I do I find myself exploring different spiritualities and ceremonies and loving every moment of them, I love my ritual days, I love attending my church but...I remain an Atheist :/
Does the term Spiritual Atheist make sense or is there a better term out there that I am missing?
People-Friends and family ask me what it is that I believe and I tell them I am an Atheist-I dont believe in God, Gods, etc, I am not superstitious and I dont believe in supernaturalism and Yet I would say I am DEEPLY spiritual...They think I am crazy, I am starting to wonder myself to be honest!
Wow. This is similar to what I have experienced -- I just posted about it under Freedom and Ritual. However, unlike you, I have yet to develop regular ritual practices, and I really feel like I need that for my path, something to center myself in, and that is what I am still seeking.
It's so interesting that you mentioned your atheism. I am an atheist, too. I can deal with the word "God" (or god/goddess/deity) in a ritual or liturgy -- for instance, I sometimes do neo-pagan rituals and celebrate neo-pagan holy days with my friends, but it is only a metaphor to me: I remain an atheist, really.
And yet I don't think most Humanists would understand my need to find some ritual, some type of mythology, something, to help center my spiritual path. I don't think it would take away from my Humanism at all -- I still don't believe in anything supernatural or any supernatural god concepts.
Sometimes I borrow prayers from different paths and try them out. One that I have been using -- and I don't think I would ever tell this to another atheist -- is the Rosary. I omit the creed and replace it with another prayer, and I have to stretch the prayers a lot metaphorically, which some might think of as dishonest, but I really have been finding that it works somehow. I contemplate each mystery, which are often similar to Greek mythology and other religions I've read about, and when I look at it metaphorically, the way I look at Greek mythology when I read that, I connect to it somehow.
When I pray the Rosary or celebrate a pagan holy day or do a neo-pagan ritual, my rational side sometimes bothers me, yet I know that I am a human being, not an ultra-rational robot. I have emotions and needs that transcend pure logic. I love poetry, literature, music, and yes, religious ritual, mythology, language, and prayers, too, even some of the theistic ones.
Yet I have not found a particular mythology or set or rituals to ground my spiritual path, so my religious label for now is UU - Humanist/Atheist. That describes my worldview and ethics, but I am still seeking some sort of path centered in some type of practice or mythology, and that continues to elude me.
One thing about me that I know sets me apart from most other Humanists and atheists I have known is that I have had at least one experience that qualifies, under many definitions, as mystical or spiritual. I know Storm has mentioned a theophany. I do not know the content of her experience, but she has mentioned neurotheology, which I have also read about to try to understand my own experience. Perhaps this is part of why I feel myself drawn in a much more spiritual direction than many other Humanists. I don't look to the supernatural to explain my experience, but it is an experience nevertheless, something that will always be a part of me, something that goes beyond the rational. I don't really feel like I have the means right now to integrate it into my path other than reflecting on it, but I do seek that.
As for you, religious humanist or spiritual atheist both sound like good terms to me. Spirit is connected to the word "breath," if I remember correctly. We draw breath from the oxygen surrounding us, beyond us, we draw it inside of us, we exhale it, we are immersed in it, and yet as long as we live, we draw it inside of us. This is how I tend to think of the word "spiritual" rather than associating it with spirits or the supernatural -- connecting with something larger than ourselves. That something doesn't have to be a deity.