An apology!

[Truth_Faith13]

I would like to apologise to all the LDS on here that have known me since 2007 (when I was Dream Angel - thanks Katz for the reminder of my old name!) especially those of you who have helped me in my many, many questions whether when I first joined the church back in 2007 or when I left or now when I am considering rejoining.

I have worried about my lack of being able to settle into a church for a while now. One of the main reasons for this is I can read "arguments" and "reasoning" for certain issues and see all sides of the equation for example infant baptism vs believers baptism etc. However it hit me today how bad I have been when I went looking at old posts I had made under Dream Angel. I came across a conversation regarding a poster who seemed to change religion daily and while I haven't quite been this bad and I have always remained Christian.... I feel that I have myself changed far too many times the denomination I associate with. Over the past few years I have looked into Catholicism, Evangelical, Baptist, AOG, Pentecostal, Anglican and LDS to name just a few.

Reading back on some of the posts I made when I first joined the church. I completely forgot that I promised Katz I would a) never leave the church and b) visit Utah! I failed on both accounts! I was so enthusiastic back then. I know now I joined far too quickly (for those of you who don't know I was baptised two weeks after meeting the missionaries) and left in 2011 (that surprised me, I thought it was earlier) but I was never active for more than a few weeks at a time!

Therefore I am sorry for the countless "back and forth" or if I have repeated a question etc. I understand that many of you put a great deal of effort into your responses and I am grateful for that.

As for where I am at present... I have no idea! A couple of days ago I could have said I was pretty sure the church was true. Then yesterday, I didn't think it was. Today... Who knows!

I often imagine God with his head in his hands looking at me!

I'm sorry

 

[Katzpur]

I would like to apologise to all the LDS on here that have known me since 2007 (when I was Dream Angel - thanks Katz for the reminder of my old name!) especially those of you who have helped me in my many, many questions whether when I first joined the church back in 2007 or when I left or now when I am considering rejoining.

I have worried about my lack of being able to settle into a church for a while now. One of the main reasons for this is I can read "arguments" and "reasoning" for certain issues and see all sides of the equation for example infant baptism vs believers baptism etc. However it hit me today how bad I have been when I went looking at old posts I had made under Dream Angel. I came across a conversation regarding a poster who seemed to change religion daily and while I haven't quite been this bad and I have always remained Christian.... I feel that I have myself changed far too many times the denomination I associate with. Over the past few years I have looked into Catholicism, Evangelical, Baptist, AOG, Pentecostal, Anglican and LDS to name just a few.

Reading back on some of the posts I made when I first joined the church. I completely forgot that I promised Katz I would a) never leave the church and b) visit Utah! I failed on both accounts! I was so enthusiastic back then. I know now I joined far too quickly (for those of you who don't know I was baptised two weeks after meeting the missionaries) and left in 2011 (that surprised me, I thought it was earlier) but I was never active for more than a few weeks at a time!

Therefore I am sorry for the countless "back and forth" or if I have repeated a question etc. I understand that many of you put a great deal of effort into your responses and I am grateful for that.

As for where I am at present... I have no idea! A couple of days ago I could have said I was pretty sure the church was true. Then yesterday, I didn't think it was. Today... Who knows!

I often imagine God with his head in his hands looking at me!

I'm sorry

First off, you do not owe me or anybody else an apology. You have not harmed anybody in any way. I'll be honest with you. When you left the Church, I was disappointed but not surprised. When you PM'd me a few weeks back, I was so excited to hear from you and to hear how well things are going in your life. Your comment about "God with his head in his hands looking at [you]" made me laugh. I'm sure he does that when looking at all of us -- just for different reasons. He knows what makes you tick and he understands you better than you understand yourself. Don't worry about your inability to commit. As I told you before, it took Brigham Young two years to end up joining.

Don't be too hard on yourself. Read this. I think you'll find it helpful. It's one of my all-time favorite Conference Talks. And consider tuning in to the upcoming General Conference (April 2-3). If it's broadcast to a stake center in your area, you could just show up and watch. You could be completely anonymous if you like. Perhaps something that is said will help you come to your decision. And if it doesn't, well just keep on the path you're on, and keep praying about it. God is far more patient with us than we are with ourselves, and He doesn't love members of the Church any more than He loves anybody else.

 

[DeepShadow]

If anyone needs to apologize, it's those of us who weren't there for you. Here's my promise to come chat here every Sunday!
P.S. Never say "never" in a promise. It's tempting fate.
P.P.S. You can still go to Utah, right?

 

[Truth_Faith13]

If anyone needs to apologize, it's those of us who weren't there for you. Here's my promise to come chat here every Sunday!
P.S. Never say "never" in a promise. It's tempting fate.
P.P.S. You can still go to Utah, right?

Thank-you and yes I can still go to Utah! I was actually showing my husband the other day how beautiful it is (I dont know what tne official term for the arch type structures is)

I also wanted to say, I am still here and doing lots of reading etc just been a bit hectic with a few family medical issues etc

 

[Katzpur]

Thank-you and yes I can still go to Utah! I was actually showing my husband the other day how beautiful it is (I dont know what tne official term for the arch type structures is)

I also wanted to say, I am still here and doing lots of reading etc just been a bit hectic with a few family medical issues etc

It's good to hear from you. You and your husband (and kid/s) would love Utah. We have five of America's most stunningly beautiful national parks, each one vastly different from the others. Oh, and the official name for the arch-type structure is an "arch." One of the national parks is called "The Arches."