Appreciation thread for Satanism

[LittlePinky82]

I was raised in a Christian home. Conservative but not over bearing or anything extreme like that. My parents were generally pretty chilled and encouraged me to have friends and be out with them and all that good ****. I did have abuse though and it really hurt a lot. I also am the type of person who really has a hard time, for some reason or another, of not doing nice things for myself. Even simple things like taking a relaxing bath, doing my nails. Whatever it is. If it's pleasure to me I used to feel so horrible and guilty for being happy with whatever I was doing in the moment. I don't know why and I don't think it was my up bringing in Christianity. I actually had it pretty decently in Christianity and was raised in a COC.

But still I had this mental issue, I guess you can say, where I couldn't let myself be happy and have true pleasure in the sense. Getting away from Christianity and reading more about Satanism and about embracing pleasure and just feeling good about yourself and making your own destiny and all of that really opened my eyes a lot. It really clicked with me and my own journey here. So, I slowly started listening to that and embracing my own pleasure in life and it's really helped me a lot heal from past wounds and other life troubles that people have.

I really owe a lot to Satanism to help me heal. In Christianity, at least my experiences, you're often told that you aren't a good Christian unless you're being persecuted, you have to sacrifice for God, pleasure in life is bad. The only time you should really feel pleasure is worshiping God.

While I still am a wounded person I've come a long way from the person I used to be before Satanism. I practice the occult and with being in Satanism I've come to be able to be selfish and to take care of myself and my own needs emotionally and every other way in life. I've been able to heal and find peace.

I'd love to hear your stories.

 

[Adramelek]

Hi 82, I was raised in early childhood in a Christian back ground, but it didn't stick. My interest in haunted houses led me to the realms of Satanism which is where I eventually found my true Self at the age of 15, and I have been exploring the Path of Darkness ever since. I have always found happiness and inspiration in the dark caverns of the Left-Hand Path, it is my way and will for ever be.

 

[LittlePinky82]

Hi 82, I was raised in early childhood in a Christian back ground, but it didn't stick. My interest in haunted houses led me to the realms of Satanism which is where I eventually found my true Self at the age of 15, and I have been exploring the Path of Darkness ever since. I have always found happiness and inspiration in the dark caverns of the Left-Hand Path, it is my way and will for ever be.

Lol I love horror movies but never been into haunted houses. Too close to home so to speak? Lol.

 

[Aštra’el]

Satanism is one of many areas of spirituality and religion where I have found great strength and beauty and power.




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[LittlePinky82]

Satanism is one of many areas of spirituality and religion where I have found great strength and beauty and power.




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You definitely can open yourself more to possibilities and not limit yourself.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

I have flip-flopped between Satanism/Luciferianism and Catholicism a good bit over the last few years. I believe I'm more naturally attuned to Satanism, but Catholicism had a strong emotional pull on me. It's like a drug. However, it's psychologically unhealthy.

Satanism encourages me to have pride in myself and not have to credit that to some deity, or to beg a deity or praise them. I am released from having to feel shame or guilt for just being who I am and imposing crushing repression on myself. There's no fear in asking questions and now I'm comfortable that the answers won't destroy me, no matter what they are, because I am my own and I have no stagnant, static worldview and belief system to uphold. I can be dynamic and ever-changing, ever-shaping my Self. Strength, joy, irreverence, curiousity and acquiring knowledge are celebrated. There are no rules except that which I personally choose to recognize.

Satanism is liberation.

 

[LittlePinky82]

I have flip-flopped between Satanism/Luciferianism and Catholicism a good bit over the last few years. I believe I'm more naturally attuned to Satanism, but Catholicism had a strong emotional pull on me. It's like a drug. However, it's psychologically unhealthy.

Satanism encourages me to have pride in myself and not have to credit that to some deity, or to beg a deity or praise them. I am released from having to feel shame or guilt for just being who I am and imposing crushing repression on myself. There's no fear in asking questions and now I'm comfortable that the answers won't destroy me, no matter what they are, because I am my own and I have no stagnant, static worldview and belief system to uphold. I can be dynamic and ever-changing, ever-shaping my Self. Strength, joy, irreverence, curiousity and acquiring knowledge are celebrated. There are no rules except that which I personally choose to recognize.

Satanism is liberation.

Good for you and I hope soon you'll be posting about being a recovering Catholic lol.

And I agree. It is liberating and like seeing the world through a different view.

 

[Adramelek]

I remember when I first became a Satanist, it was officially on December 26, 1985, I was 15. I had been reading about Satanism and was really intrigued by a chapter on the Church of Satan in a book about haunted houses, I also had started getting into the music of Slayer and Mercyful Fate. After quite some time of contemplation, on that morning of the day after Christmas 1985 I awoke feeling inspired, renewed, revitalized and I held up my hands in the sign of the horns and declared "I Am a Satanist"! I had become changed forever. The second time I felt this kind of awesome change within my self was some years later on the night I first invoked Set in a working of Greater Black Magick and became Setian, that experience was even more powerful.

 

[LittlePinky82]

How ironic it was Christmas.

And I love Slayer. Good choice!

 

[Adramelek]

How ironic it was Christmas.

And I love Slayer. Good choice!

Yeah I know, I always thought it was ironic too. Slayer, Mercyful Fate, King Diamond, Bathory, Venom, Dark Funeral, Dimmu Borgir are some of my all time favorite metal bands.

 

[Mindmaster]

Strangely as time goes on I feel less and less a Satanist. I mean, it's part of my origin but I am not really a rigid adherent of that path... Aka, the title "Enigma" Anyway, there are many things that go bump in the night and The Devil is just one of them, but not the only one. I'm probably just getting older and all my intuitions are getting the best of me.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

Yeah I know, I always thought it was ironic too. Slayer, Mercyful Fate, King Diamond, Bathory, Venom, Dark Funeral, Dimmu Borgir are some of my all time favorite metal bands.

I think it when it comes to bands that have inspired me along an Infernal path, Marilyn Manson's old albums, visual artwork, interviews and writings had the biggest impact on me - everything up to Holy Wood era (which was his creative zenith). It may sound cliche, but I'm not looking at it from a high school "gawth" kid viewpoint. The social criticism and aesthetic terrorism, along with the esoteric symbolism had a huge impact on me and still serves as a huge inspiration to me. He sucks now and his brain has been fried from all the drug abuse, but he once was great. There's really nothing like that now in the mainstream and it's very sad. Culture has really deteriorated and most don't have anything to say. There's nothing shocking or scary right now, and that's exactly what we need.

Nine Inch Nails, especially Trent's work in the '80s and '90s, also had a huge impact on me that was similar.

I also love Slayer, Behemoth, Dissection and I Am Heresy, which are also inspiring to me along the same lines.

 

[Aštra’el]

For me it is Opeth. Opeth is my soundtrack to "witchcraft"/ magick and religion/ spirituality

And adventure, exploring the desert, working out/ training, etc

And everything ​

 

[LittlePinky82]

I think it when it comes to bands that have inspired me along an Infernal path, Marilyn Manson's old albums, visual artwork, interviews and writings had the biggest impact on me - everything up to Holy Wood era (which was his creative zenith). It may sound cliche, but I'm not looking at it from a high school "gawth" kid viewpoint. The social criticism and aesthetic terrorism, along with the esoteric symbolism had a huge impact on me and still serves as a huge inspiration to me. He sucks now and his brain has been fried from all the drug abuse, but he once was great. There's really nothing like that now in the mainstream and it's very sad. Culture has really deteriorated and most don't have anything to say. There's nothing shocking or scary right now, and that's exactly what we need.

Nine Inch Nails, especially Trent's work in the '80s and '90s, also had a huge impact on me that was similar.

I also love Slayer, Behemoth, Dissection and I Am Heresy, which are also inspiring to me along the same lines.

I agree about Manson. I guess what happens with age. Look at Ozzy too.

I remember watching Manson speak about what happened in Columbine with Michael Moore's movie about it and he really was so intelligent and empathetic and all that. Not just with the community and the victims but the kids too. Just everyone. I think that's when I really started to admire him I think. I started to relate and respect him when I heard the story about how he got out of the Church. I could relate to it so much because it happened to me too. Even today people who were supposed to be my Church friends barely talk to me. ;( When I was having a rough time during that period I'd turn to him because he just got it.

I never got into Nine Inch Nails. Only one I like out of your other list is Slayer. I love them.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

I agree about Manson. I guess what happens with age. Look at Ozzy too.

I remember watching Manson speak about what happened in Columbine with Michael Moore's movie about it and he really was so intelligent and empathetic and all that. Not just with the community and the victims but the kids too. Just everyone. I think that's when I really started to admire him I think. I started to relate and respect him when I heard the story about how he got out of the Church. I could relate to it so much because it happened to me too. Even today people who were supposed to be my Church friends barely talk to me. ;( When I was having a rough time during that period I'd turn to him because he just got it.

I never got into Nine Inch Nails. Only one I like out of your other list is Slayer. I love them.

What?! How could you never get into NIN?! :O

Especially with classics like these:

(Should be the campaign song of pretty much every politician ever.)

 

[Adramelek]

Strangely as time goes on I feel less and less a Satanist. I mean, it's part of my origin but I am not really a rigid adherent of that path... Aka, the title "Enigma" Anyway, there are many things that go bump in the night and The Devil is just one of them, but not the only one. I'm probably just getting older and all my intuitions are getting the best of me.

This happened to me when I became Setian, sure Satanism will always be a part of my heritage and I will always embrace it, but I am a Setian first and foremost. The Temple of Set's religion and philosophy is so liberating, it embraces not just ancient Egyptian myth and symbolism but all avenues of the Left Hand Path be it Satanism, Luciferianism, Western traditions and Eastern, Lovecraftian metaphysics, Norse magic and Germanic traditions, Druid traditions, etc., and so forth. It is eclectic, individualist, and reconstructionist.

 

[Mindmaster]

This happened to me when I became Setian, sure Satanism will always be a part of my heritage and I will always embrace it, but I am a Setian first and foremost. The Temple of Set's religion and philosophy is so liberating, it embraces not just ancient Egyptian myth and symbolism but all avenues of the Left Hand Path be it Satanism, Luciferianism, Western traditions and Eastern, Lovecraftian metaphysics, Norse magic and Germanic traditions, Druid traditions, etc., and so forth. It is eclectic, individualist, and reconstructionist.

Mostly, it is just the contextual implications of Satanist at this point for me... I think it is confusing to use the term at all... Are you a reverse Christian, LaVey, or Theistic? Polytheistic, soft-poly, pantheistic? It gets crazy...

My current interests lie in traditional witchcraft, shamanism, and folk magic which is largely dogma-free.... and has nothing to do with Wicca - or any of the largely useless ceremonial/neo-pagan paths... My interests in the otherworldly subjects tend to bring out the natural animist in me -- a problem that creates all sorts of LHP conflict.... Esh, the world was so much simpler when I was completely numb to the machinations of the universe... I could pick a team and just go with it; now I just immediately aware of the bull**** factory attached to every path. Ultimately, I've just divorced myself from all of the names. There are lies present in every path that can sell a book on Amazon... and, I am sick of it...

Anyway, I'm at the crossroads -- Hecate hopefully will sort me out.

 

[Oiboy562]

Ive been struggling in my life for a long time with drugs and other problems as a troublex youth. Dont want to get to much into it and i felt like i needed some kind of higher power but christianity wasnt working. Probally all the judgemental bull****. But since getting back into satanism recently ive felt better and like i found something where i can be who i want to be without worrying about judgement and a punishing god who wants u to worship him as a slave. And i really enjoy the spiritual and meditation parts of it to. Like i said im recently getting back into it but its already seems like its helping me alot with the messed up place ive been in recently.
Cheers