It sound like you were not really transformed. You just continued to do what you were doing before.
Yes, I could have lived that lifestyle alone, the Guru said that singles should in the ashram because that meant you were dedicating your life to him and his mission. By no means did all singles go into the ashram, not everyone listened to his every word or followed his agya(commands). People got off on 'the vibe'.
Is this part of the Hindu Tradition? Did you have Scriptures to compare what the Guru was teaching? What would you say was the Ultimate Purpose the Disciples were following the Guru?
It sounds like you are not sure. Given that the Guru was False, it means that you were not really drawing closer and closer to Elohim/God, as you supposed.
Well, obviously at that time I didn't believe the Guru was false. His agya reigned supreme in my mind.
However, in the meditation I was having deep experiences, which I believed was the Guru's grace.
It was only in the latter years, that meditation helped me realize that I was wrong to attribute my inner experiences with anyone else.
The meditation helped me draw closer to my own being not anyone else's or any god. Anyone can meditate and look within, with or without any beliefs.
Is this the Guru–shishya tradition?
Guru–shishya tradition
The guru–shishya tradition, or parampara ("lineage"), denotes a succession of teachers and disciples in Indian-origin religions such as Hinduism, Jainism, Sikhism and Buddhism (including Tibetan and Zen traditions). Each parampara belongs to a specific sampradaya, and may have its own gurukulas for teaching, which might be based at akharas, gompas, mathas, viharas or temples. It is the tradition of spiritual relationship and mentoring where teachings are transmitted from a guru, teacher, (Sanskrit: गुरु) or lama, to a śiṣya (Sanskrit: शिष्य, disciple), shramana (seeker), or chela (follower), after the formal diksha (initiation). Such knowledge, whether agamic, spiritual, scriptural, architectural, musical, arts or martial arts, is imparted through the developing relationship between the guru and the disciple.
It is considered that this relationship, based on the genuineness of the guru and the respect, commitment, devotion and obedience of the student, is the best way for subtle or advanced knowledge to be conveyed. The student eventually masters the knowledge that the guru embodies.
Guru–shishya tradition - Wikipedia
Therefore, are you saying that the purpose of the Ascetic Lifestyle and total Obedience to the Guru was not to Seek Elohim/God and draw closer to Elohim/God?
Real Asceticism is not dependent on a Man to keep it going. Real Asceticism is Inner and not External as you are describing.
Call it what you will. It is true that I have not dealt with my inner experiences here to any depth, because they are personal to my own life journey. Anyone can meditate & look within for themselves.
As I said above
The meditation helped me draw closer to my own being not anyone else's or any god. Anyone can meditate and look within, with or without any beliefs.
Yes, anyone can meditate and look within. The Purpose for doing so is All-Important. Did you have the concept of Sin in the Ashram? Did the Guru teach about Sin?