You are different from the average atheist I have encountered on forums. What most atheists say is they do not believe in God because there is no evidence that God exists.
What questions do you have that you think that God would not have an answer to? I believe that God is all-knowing so God has all the answers. Some of these answers are revealed to us by the Messengers of God whereas some are not, and there is a reason for that; we would be overwhelmed if the Messenger of God revealed
everything He knew, everything that God revealed to Him
“Oh, would that the world could believe Me! Were all the things that lie enshrined within the heart of Bahá, and which the Lord, His God, the Lord of all names, hath taught Him, to be unveiled to mankind, every man on earth would be dumbfounded.
How great the multitude of truths which the garment of words can never contain! How vast the number of such verities as no expression can adequately describe, whose significance can never be unfolded, and to which not even the remotest allusions can be made! How manifold are the truths which must remain unuttered until the appointed time is come! Even as it hath been said: “Not everything that a man knoweth can be disclosed, nor can everything that he can disclose be regarded as timely, nor can every timely utterance be considered as suited to the capacity of those who hear it.”
Of these truths some can be disclosed only to the extent of the capacity of the repositories of the light of Our knowledge, and the recipients of Our hidden grace.” Gleanings From the Writings of Bahá’u’lláh, p. 176
Scientific and religious Truth are both
relative to the times in which they are discovered/revealed by God. In science, as new discoveries are made they will often replace what was previously considered factual. In religion, Truth from God is additive, and is revealed in stages as humanity is able to understand more and as humanity needs more. God is all-knowing so God knows everything, but if All of God’s Truth was revealed to us all at once, we would not be able to understand it would be of little use to us. We would simply be overwhelmed with too much information. Truth needs to be suited to the capacity of the recipients living at the time.
You are a lot like me in many ways although not like me in other ways. I have always been very self-sufficient and I still am. I do not require assistance from God. I seek certainty but I do not seek comfort or a sense of belonging and that is one reason why I am not active in my religion. I do recognize the spiritual authority of the Messenger of God as superseding any other human authority because I believe that the Messenger is not only human but also divine by nature. I do see the need to invoke the Messenger of God to explain spiritual and moral things, but I believe that science and other disciplines are perfectly adequate to explain anything related to the material world.
You said that you are the ultimate lost cause as far as theism goes, a devout atheist. Is that for all the reasons you stated above or are you also an atheist because you do not see any evidence for God? Would you reconsider if you saw evidence for God, or are you simply disinterested in believing in God?
Please forgive me all the questions. Psychology is my academic background so I am very curious about people, how they think and feel and why they think and feel that way.