*Cupid shuffles back into the forums*

[Ashoka]

So I couldn't wait until December 5th to come back here. That says something about my patience lol.

But I have changed a lot. And I wanted to share with you all some of the things I learned about myself.

1. I have the 'tism. Actually, I've suspected that I might be Autistic for a while, and the more I research, the more I talk to my psychiatrist and other neurodivergent friends (they were like "yeah we know you are") the more I am convinced. I am going to try to get officially tested sometime in February. But now I'm like, "Oh, that's why I do that/did that."

2. Apparantly I am an atheist. Or at least a pantheist. And I think the reason I skipped from one religion to another is because I felt like I needed a religion, or to believe in something. But I feel quite content in believing in the Universe, believing that all life is sacred, without the need of a personal God. I don't know about an afterlife or what happens after death, but honestly? I am not worried about that right now. I'm living my best life in the present and honestly, I've never felt more free.

3. I came out as nonbinary. Well, not to my parents. I'm not ready to tell them. But I identify as a nonbinary demigirl (partially a female, maybe partially agender? Not sure yet).

4. I'm not sure I want to be a therapist anymore. I know that sounds horrible, but it has nothing to do with my clients, whom I love very much, and everything to do with the politics and paperwork involved. *shrug*).

But yeah, a lot can change in 2 months. I missed you guys. Glad to be back!

 

[Revoltingest]

Good for you.

 

[Secret Chief]

So I couldn't wait until December 5th to come back here. That says something about my patience lol.

But I have changed a lot. And I wanted to share with you all some of the things I learned about myself.

1. I have the 'tism. Actually, I've suspected that I might be Autistic for a while, and the more I research, the more I talk to my psychiatrist and other neurodivergent friends (they were like "yeah we know you are") the more I am convinced. I am going to try to get officially tested sometime in February. But now I'm like, "Oh, that's why I do that/did that."

2. Apparantly I am an atheist. Or at least a pantheist. And I think the reason I skipped from one religion to another is because I felt like I needed a religion, or to believe in something. But I feel quite content in believing in the Universe, believing that all life is sacred, without the need of a personal God. I don't know about an afterlife or what happens after death, but honestly? I am not worried about that right now. I'm living my best life in the present and honestly, I've never felt more free.

3. I came out as nonbinary. Well, not to my parents. I'm not ready to tell them. But I identify as a nonbinary demigirl (partially a female, maybe partially agender? Not sure yet).

4. I'm not sure I want to be a therapist anymore. I know that sounds horrible, but it has nothing to do with my clients, whom I love very much, and everything to do with the politics and paperwork involved. *shrug*).

But yeah, a lot can change in 2 months. I missed you guys. Glad to be back!

Crumbs, I've barely changed my socks!
Actually, I've gone from retired to full-time work (How did that happen?). I work in a school in the department that assists pupils with additional needs, such as visual impairment, autism, ADHD and dyslexia.

 

[It Aint Necessarily So]

Congratulations.

I feel quite content in believing in the Universe, believing that all life is sacred, without the need of a personal God

This is growth - gratitude without an object and a direct connection to nature. Gods deflect from that. People become grateful to somebody rather than just grateful to be able to participate in conscious life as a human being, and their connection often becomes redirected from nature to that god. Also, nature won't judge you immoral because of your sexuality or try to change or guilt you.

 

[VoidCat]

Apparantly I am an atheist. Or at least a pantheist. And I think the reason I skipped from one religion to another is because I felt like I needed a religion, or to believe in something. But I feel quite content in believing in the Universe, believing that all life is sacred, without the need of a personal God. I don't know about an afterlife or what happens after death, but honestly? I am not worried about that right now. I'm living my best life in the present and honestly, I've never felt more free

Secular paganism is a thing if you ever want to explore that. Not saying you should just I remember you being interested paganism even having been a pagan. Just letting you know you can be a pagan without a belief in a God or gods in case you didnt know that.

3. I came out as nonbinary. Well, not to my parents. I'm not ready to tell them. But I identify as a nonbinary demigirl (partially a female, maybe partially agender? Not sure yet)

What are your pronouns? Still she/her or have they changed?

4. I'm not sure I want to be a therapist anymore. I know that sounds horrible, but it has nothing to do with my clients, whom I love very much, and everything to do with the politics and paperwork involved. *shrug*)

I get that. Do what you feel is best for you.

 

[Ashoka]

What are your pronouns? Still she/her or have they changed?

She/they

 

[VoidCat]

She/they

I'll use both then.

 

[JustGeorge]

Crumbs, I've barely changed my socks!

Explains the smell...

Just waiting for the one's I've sent, I'm sure.

 

[Debater Slayer]

Congratulations on the self-exploration! Welcome back.

 

[Secret Chief]

So I couldn't wait until December 5th to come back here. That says something about my patience lol.

But I have changed a lot. And I wanted to share with you all some of the things I learned about myself.

1. I have the 'tism. Actually, I've suspected that I might be Autistic for a while, and the more I research, the more I talk to my psychiatrist and other neurodivergent friends (they were like "yeah we know you are") the more I am convinced. I am going to try to get officially tested sometime in February. But now I'm like, "Oh, that's why I do that/did that."

2. Apparantly I am an atheist. Or at least a pantheist. And I think the reason I skipped from one religion to another is because I felt like I needed a religion, or to believe in something. But I feel quite content in believing in the Universe, believing that all life is sacred, without the need of a personal God. I don't know about an afterlife or what happens after death, but honestly? I am not worried about that right now. I'm living my best life in the present and honestly, I've never felt more free.

3. I came out as nonbinary. Well, not to my parents. I'm not ready to tell them. But I identify as a nonbinary demigirl (partially a female, maybe partially agender? Not sure yet).

4. I'm not sure I want to be a therapist anymore. I know that sounds horrible, but it has nothing to do with my clients, whom I love very much, and everything to do with the politics and paperwork involved. *shrug*).

But yeah, a lot can change in 2 months. I missed you guys. Glad to be back!

Can I ask what is it that makes you think you have autism? And how old are you?
Feel free to say bugger off.

 

[England my lionheart]

Welcome back,looks like you grabbed the Bill by the horns and owning it.

 

[Ashoka]

Can I ask what is it that makes you think you have autism? And how old are you?
Feel free to say bugger off.

I'd never say something like that. No worries.

I think I was just curious about the whys and hows of the way in which I act and behave. I had no idea, but apparently, I mask A lot (i.e., I suppress my autistic behaviors and responses and try to act neurotypical/allistic). There are times I go nonverbal, though it isn't for very long. I stim (self-stimulate, like hand flapping, pacing, wringing my hands, etc) and I experience (and actually had a doozy very recently) autistic burnout and meltdowns. I remember telling my friend, who is also autistic, that I thought I might be. Her response was "yeah I knew all along." It's interesting to see how people react to the news. Allistics (people who are not autistic) are usually like, "but you don't LOOK/SOUND autistic! But you look me in the eye!" (Yeah because that's part of masking, and I HATE eye contact). But other people with autism are like "yeah we know." That kind of confirms it for me.

I'd rather not say my age.

 

[Secret Chief]

I'd never say something like that. No worries.

I think I was just curious about the whys and hows of the way in which I act and behave. I had no idea, but apparently, I mask A lot (i.e., I suppress my autistic behaviors and responses and try to act neurotypical/allistic). There are times I go nonverbal, though it isn't for very long. I stim (self-stimulate, like hand flapping, pacing, wringing my hands, etc) and I experience (and actually had a doozy very recently) autistic burnout and meltdowns. I remember telling my friend, who is also autistic, that I thought I might be. Her response was "yeah I knew all along." It's interesting to see how people react to the news. Allistics (people who are not autistic) are usually like, "but you don't LOOK/SOUND autistic! But you look me in the eye!" (Yeah because that's part of masking, and I HATE eye contact). But other people with autism are like "yeah we know." That kind of confirms it for me.

I'd rather not say my age.

Thank you.