Spiderman
Veteran Member
I prayed a prayer to God last spring that he send me as much suffering as is good for me. Be careful when you ask for something like that. Shortly after, I had a near death experience, became handicapped, the worse suffering of my life by far, and almost three months in the hospital.
However, time is flying and we all suffer, die, get old, fall apart. Getting old will bring much humiliation, pain, sorrow, frustration, sickness, disabilities, loss of loved ones, and trials. I'm thinking I want to increase my tolerance to suffering now, so that when I get old, fall apart, and die, it will be more bearable. The main way I can see that tolerance to suffering can increase is by suffering.
So, when suffering, rather than want it to go away, im changing my attitude about it. Be happy that the suffering is present because my tolerance to it will grow. Also, as I've mentioned before, suffering makes me more humble, charitable, wise, strong, and considerate of others.
So, bring it on suffering! You are my teacher. You put me through boot camp. By making me stronger and wiser, you open up new doors, new opportunities. Because of you I had more empathy and could better reach out and help others and understand what they're going through. I don't like you, I wish you would go away, but I love you for helping me on my journey and making me more humble and charitable. May I always accept and embrace the cross. The cross is the tree of life!
However, time is flying and we all suffer, die, get old, fall apart. Getting old will bring much humiliation, pain, sorrow, frustration, sickness, disabilities, loss of loved ones, and trials. I'm thinking I want to increase my tolerance to suffering now, so that when I get old, fall apart, and die, it will be more bearable. The main way I can see that tolerance to suffering can increase is by suffering.
So, when suffering, rather than want it to go away, im changing my attitude about it. Be happy that the suffering is present because my tolerance to it will grow. Also, as I've mentioned before, suffering makes me more humble, charitable, wise, strong, and considerate of others.
So, bring it on suffering! You are my teacher. You put me through boot camp. By making me stronger and wiser, you open up new doors, new opportunities. Because of you I had more empathy and could better reach out and help others and understand what they're going through. I don't like you, I wish you would go away, but I love you for helping me on my journey and making me more humble and charitable. May I always accept and embrace the cross. The cross is the tree of life!