I didnt realise you were divorced FFH - sorry to hear that - you have always mentioned your wife to me so I just assumed you were still together. Thats two things about you, I had completely wrong now! The other one being that you didnt attend Church.
Both of my wife's parents died, and left her with a lot of money, but she had no access to that money unless she was divorced. Her mother was not too happy with me I guess. So my wife said, I'll divorce, get the money and then we'll remarry. That was the plan, then she got scared, that if she remarried, the money would be taken back from her, so she said, I don't want to remarry. What a shocker that was.
She still lives with me though and we're still sealed. She doesn't want to break that sealing, but does not want to remarry, cuz she thinks they'll take back her money, it's a lot of money, I don't blame her, we didn't get along anyway.
She still lives with me, but in a seperate room. The Lord told me to continue taking care of her, she's not well spritually, she's a wreck and would not survive well on her own, she has no relatives to turn to, she's from Massachusetts and has just two relatives that she knows of there, a brother and an aunt, but they are not willing to help her out, they have estranged her. She's on her own.
The Lord told me clearly that if I didn't take care of her I would be severely punished. The Lord let me feel the pains of hell for one day, to let me know that if I told her to leave or left her I would be in a living hell. literally, and it would not let up until I did what he said to do.
Anyway, I did what the LORD told me to do, so she still lives here and I take care of her, She's not well, I just say she's my wife because really this is too hard to explain to everyone that asks, so I've been in the habit of telling everyone that she's my wife, and she is, cuz we are still sealed to each other in the temple, but legally we are divorced.
If she gets strong enough, I'll leave, maybe, but for now the LORD has EXPRESSLY forbidden me to do that. I won't disobey the LORD cuz he's already had me FEEL the consequences of disobeying him.
My wife, is not strong enough to take care of herself. She's spiritually crippled. Mentally she's probably stable enough to survive on her own, but not quite there yet.
I may have to take care of her the rest of my life, but I was shown that there is another person that I will most likely be with in the eternities.
It's very personal and may sound a bit strange, but I've been shown that the person I married was not necessarily the person in my patriarchal blessing, but there was a reason for our marriage. I was supposed to take care of her, help her out in this life, help her get through this life, but there is another whom I have always loved, throughout the eternities, whom the LORD has shown me. I heard her voice and saw her face, it was very clear. There is no such thing as time and space in prayer, all is revealed, if you really get into it.
Again, I see how plural marriage can be a righteous part of heaven. There are MANY who want to be sealed to someone, but maybe not necessarily want to be with that person, there seems to be some sort of dynamic where some are closer to us than others. It's not like earth, it's spiritual, no lusts, no tears, no sorrows, no sufferings, no jealousies, only joy and sharing one another in love. Lust is NOT a part of heaven, but ONLY love, joy, peace, happiness. All is shared in heaven, we gain strength from others and what they have to offer us, because they bring so much joy into our lives.
The Lord will give us the desires of our heart. He will work everything out for our good, if we love him by keeping his commandments,
I don't know how to explain it any further. I've just been shown and have felt so much joy in the last month.
I wondered if I was imagining it and as soon as I thought that VERY thought, and expressed it to another, a HORRIBLE headache came over me and I was told to never think that or say that to anyone ever again, and as soon as I agreed to that in my mind, peace came back into my mind and the headache left.
I've actually seen another wife, and have been shown who it is. It was a miraculous thing, something that most will not understand or believe. I was also shown my first wife, before I met her. I was shown the details of her hair (dark, thin) and a general outline/size of her face, so I would positively recognize her when I saw her. We were married for 15 years, it's just been in the last few years that we legally divorced.
I am to stay with her most likely until I leave this life. I haven't been shown or told to do otherwise, but I have been shown that if I leave her it would not be the right choice. I was told to keep taking care of her, because she cannot properly take care of herself.
I was also CLEARLY shown in prayer, that there is another "waiting" for me on the other side, yet she is still living too, but when Christ returns, she will be waiting for me. I was shown that VERY CLEARLY, absolutely NO DOUBT in my mind whatsoever.
It's strange I know, but I have seen her. The LORD shows us people before we meet them, so that we will recognize them when we see them, and know why they have been brought into our lives. I've had this confirmed to me over and over and over through other experiences. One time the LORD showed me a girl in a BRIGHT PINK shirt, then the very next day a BEAUTIFUL girl in a BRIGHT PINK shirt came into where I worked. She looked like an angel really. She just smiled and I smiled back, she didn't say a word. It made my day, just to know that the LORD has shown me how powerful he was through that experience. It happened another time, but I was shown more details about the person, another beautiful girl. I saw her face, I wondered what was going on. I saw details. saw her the VERY next day. Also if I'm going to see someone I haven't seen in years, the LORD will show that person to me and soon after that and sometimes the next day I will see them, so I'm prepared to see them and look forward to it.
My parents would never kick me out the house. She has threatened in the past (not related to the Church) but when I turned around and said "Ok then I will go...(interestingly I have a friend who said I can move in with them)"...she suddenly changes her mind...I often wonder if she thinks I cant cope on my own..I am still "her little girl" who cant be independent...and she thinks it will scare me, then when she realises actually I could cope - she gets scared
My parents used similar tactics on me, it worked for a while, then I got married and left, I felt so free. I've been married since then, but now we are divorced, it's a sad situation really. I don't think the Lord is upset with Jane (my wife) for doing what she did. Again, he's shown me that there is another. I don't know if I'll be with my wife throughout the eternities or not, I was just shown that I was NOT TO WORRY, there is another and was CLEARLY shown her in prayer and told that this other person would be waiting for me in the next life SO NOT TO WORRY about what has happened to me in this life, just keep taking care of Jane (my wife), she needs help. It was such a real experience that I was filled with JOY all day long, my heart was filled with joy so full that I could hardly contain it, it felt like it would physically burst. I was like, I can't take this any longer, it's too much, but it felt great, but one day of that was enough. We could never contain the joy that awaits us in this life, in our mortal bodies, it would knock us out, it's too much for our physical bodies to handle. The Lord is good and will give us the desires of our hearts, but we must SERVE others in this life, it's not about us, it's about serving others, that's why I say, Dream Angel, do not forsake your friend who is disabled, or anyone else who may need your help. They are the key to your happiness. What we do for others in serving them and loving them is eternal, it will be eternally recorded in heaven to our credit.
Jesus said, "whatever ye do the least of these my bretheren, ye have done it unto me".
It's as if we are SERVING JESUS when we help out the most helpless individuals.
MY WIFE IS ONE OF THEM. Even though she divorced me, which really hurt, I was told to keep taking care of her, because I don't know the whole situation/eternal picture. I don't know the mind of the LORD and should NEVER doubt him, and I was told NEVER to break our sealing, and to keep taking care of her.
She is not well spiritually and mentally, she does have some challenges, she's not up to speed with the rest of society, but could survive on her own, if she had to, but not very well, and I would be responsible if I didn't take care of her. I want to take care of her though, it's not a burden, it's a blessing, it ensures that I will always be blessed.
See why I just say she's my wife, I don't want to have to explain this to everyone I meet in real life or talk to on the internet, it's just too much of a hastle and if I say I'm single or divorced, it looks like I'm available, which I'm not.
We are to forsake our own lives in the service of others. Forgive others, serve them, love them, take care of them.
My life is not my own.
As much as I love my parents and family dearly. I think I am at the point, where I need to live in my own place. I dont have a deposit to buy a place, but I am going to save up over the next couple of years (hopefully year!)...
The Lord has always taken care of whatever I wanted or needed, all I did was pay tithing, then I realize I wanted more money so I started paying an offering and the money came in fast.
). He told me not to judge my Mum and there may be something stopping her from accepting religion full stop which I am unaware of. He also asked me to clarify my position with the Church ie if I loved the people of the Church, but didnt agree with it or If I knew the Church was true and for one reason or the other was struggling to following the covenants I made at baptism. I explained to him it was the latter and mentioned that I struggled with Tithing (I still have some concerns..getting there though!). I did say that I wasnt putting the full blame on my family for my leaving twice - I did have some part to play (obviously). One thing I liked which he said, was dont listen to anyone (including himself) but the Heavenly Father as to what to do..as everyone will say different things...
