My relationship of 4.5 years ended today, one of the worst days in my life. I did and do truly love her, but she wants to have kids and her dreams lay elsewhere, and I do not want children and my dream lay here. What sucks is that it wasn't something that can be worked on, after working on so much. I could never let her give up dreams for me, especially both children and career which are two of the biggest. I do truly hope she goes, meets someone, and gets the children she wants.
Meanwhile it's back home for me, we're halfway through a lease and if worse comes to worse I guess I'll just pay those months. Ate a Disney trip too, but it's all so minor in comparison. I just can't wrap my head around how the right decision can lead to nothing but misery.
But that's how it goes for me, all downhill all the time you know? I'm fully prepared to return to the endless rejection of four years ago, I mean I know what I'm dooming myself to here. It would be easier to just lie to myself, give in, get married, have kids. But I guess that's just not who I am, and that's not real happiness for either of us. At least this way she has a chance at what she wants you know?
I'll be here though, lost in my science and philosophy, a lonely hermit at a young age. Sucks for you guys
Meanwhile it's back home for me, we're halfway through a lease and if worse comes to worse I guess I'll just pay those months. Ate a Disney trip too, but it's all so minor in comparison. I just can't wrap my head around how the right decision can lead to nothing but misery.
But that's how it goes for me, all downhill all the time you know? I'm fully prepared to return to the endless rejection of four years ago, I mean I know what I'm dooming myself to here. It would be easier to just lie to myself, give in, get married, have kids. But I guess that's just not who I am, and that's not real happiness for either of us. At least this way she has a chance at what she wants you know?
I'll be here though, lost in my science and philosophy, a lonely hermit at a young age. Sucks for you guys