Last night in my sleep I was tortured by something resembling the head of a dog, sinking it's fangs in my flesh, and I felt my brain leaping around in my skull (which reminded me of John the Baptist leaping in Elizabeth
's womb) , and I knew I was dreaming, trying to awake, and somewhere in the dream, I was asking the exorcist from the Diocese of Helena (who I used to meet with) for an exorcism!
I tried my greatest to wake up from the dream, knowing well aware it was a dream, but while regaining consciousness, I could still feel teeth marks in my flesh!
I jumped out of bed when I could, to go use the restroom, and my roommate immediately jumped out of bed shrieking like he had a malevolent Spirit too!
I don't get frightened by hardly anything these days (I mean, being a lover and handler of spiders , which were my greatest phobia, taught me love and embrace fear) but the experience was disturbing and mildly traumatic, especially the way my roommate jumped out of bed shrieking like he was haunted by some diabolical entity right after awaking from it.
I'm well aware that Psychosis and mental illness is a thing, but no antipsychotics or medication would help stop this (and other manifestations I have experienced).
Also, mental illness and psychosis has a much different feeling to it, different symptoms, and it seemed like the person in my room was afflicted by the same attack or something, which also gives suspicion something more than a nightmare was taking place.
I was also tossing and turning in my bed , well aware it was a dream, trying to awaken. Because I wasn't conscious, I was even aware while unconscious , that I was going to be far less vulnerable to the attack when awake. (Scripture gives many examples of spirits, Angels, or God influencing people more when they are unconscious! The same is true of enemy spirits).
Also, I find that there are things which have been mentioned countless times at RF, following inner locutions of Spiritual influence, that sometimes eliminate the possibility of mental health conditions and psychosis alone (for such an experience).
Plus, I think mental illness and psychosis can be a direct cause of Spiritual influence or entities, or leave a person more vulnerable to them, so it can be a complex combination and mix of both.
I don't think modern Psychiatry or medication is treating the whole person. That is not to say a seasoned exorcist is usually the answer to such afflictions.
But I fear, in an age where we no longer believe much in spiritual entities influencing us, it can empower and make such malevolent spirits more rampant in the destruction they cause, and their influence over us.
The lack of faith in such entities influencing us , is a rather recent "Johnny Come Lately" for humanity, in that it dismisses an extremely common conviction that was believed by the vast majority of people, regardless of whether they be primitive faiths, pagans, Hindus, Shamans, Shinto, Christians, Muslims, Pantheists, Taoists, Jews, and beyond, so our "enlightened age" might not be as "enlightened" as we think, and causing mental illness, suicide, break up of families, school shootings, and all sorts of crime to increase!
It seems to be one of the "Errors of Russia" that Mary warned at Fatima would spread throughout the world!
It didn't seem to be a strong or so common a belief that Spiritual entities rarely cause mental or emotional problems, (or never cause them at all) prior to the rise of Communism and it's spread!
I'm not promoting Christianity so much (as I don't qualify as Christian) , but as America grows more and more fond on average of secularization of everything, the crime rate has gone way up, we didn't used to have these school shootings and random shootings, homicide gone way up, unwanted pregnancies, (sexual transmitted diseases allegedly will afflict one in five Americans. Myself experienced curable ones, but for many there is no cure), the amount of people harmed through sexual vices, drug addiction gone way up, division, fatherless children, and America has become extremely heavily medicated on Psychotropic drugs.
The list of disorders that have increased with our "Enlightenment", sexual revolutions, secularization of everything, and moral relativism, goes on, to the point it isn't enlightenment or liberation, but weakening society and enslaving us to vice (from what the evidence shows).
Mockery of morality, faith, noble mindedness, wisdom, and prudence, and glorification of immorality in the media and entertainment industry does indeed create vicious hearts, which I experienced first-hand!
Most people can probably have offensive, immoral, violent music playing, and it doesn't make them bad, or watch it glorified on videos, or from peers, or view hardcore porn without it causing severe corruption, but that wasn't my experience as a child.
What I was listening to, the blatant wickedness glorified, and the virtues I saw mocked in the media and entertainment, made me actually intentionally want to remove every ounce of human decency from my mind, heart, and soul, fueled a hatred for God, Religion, purity, innocence, nobility, chivalry, and other high moral standards, and choosing the opposite!
I'm sure that isn't what happens as a general rule, but to a lesser extreme degree, a toxic effect, especially on young developing minds, is going to take place, which will weaken society, relationships, and break up the nuclear family, create bad habits, send harmful messages to the subconscious, condition a person to be more selfish and less considerate to others.
At any rate, your thoughts are appreciated, and have you ever thought or felt like a Spiritual entity was attacking you?