Hi Bently,
Hello!
I'm new to posting but I'm seeking some guidance so I'll give it a whirl..
I was brought up a christian in the United States. For the last almost 3 years now I've been almost addicted to learning and discovering knowledge from all over.
I study a great deal of philosophy (Alan Watts at the top of my list) I love Hindu philosophy such as Nisargadatta. All these beyond realisations are happening to me.
I can see how we are all one and connected. I see that I simply Am.
With all this being said.. I know the literal biblical description of god is ridiculous and my beliefs have expanded greatly. But I can't escape the fear of "what if I'm wrong?"
To be frank can anyone help me see that I am on the right track and I shouldn't worry about burning in hell??
You will have to come to terms with finding your own way in life, your own right path, my friend. We all do. As someone who has been in your shoes, though, I can assure you that, if you carry on in the direction you feel is right and do not compromise or suppress your intelligence and wisdom, you will, slowly but surely, release and drop this lingering fear. That's all it is when all is said and done, it's just fear. Leaving a fundamentalist religion can have an effect on a person not unlike
Stockholm Syndrome, I've found. But the more you reflect on the horrifying prospects of what eternal hellfire and a deity capable of such abhorrence (yet ironically and entirely incompatibly regarded as "benevolent")
actually says about your old religion, over the years to come, this fear-based pull will gradually weaken and eventually dissipate entirely.
Best wishes!