Mailliw
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I grew up Roman Catholic with a family whom feverishly believed in the word of the Lord. I went to Catholic School until I was 14 years old, at which point I moved across country and began attending a public school.
Growing up, I was religious and admittedly naive. Once I was in high school, I began to truly evaluate Catholicism and how it related to my personal beliefs. I had never questioned this prior to high school as I did not want to be the so called "cafeteria Catholic", where you pick and chose what suits your beliefs best. I understand accepting a religion is accepting it in its entirety and because of this I cannot remain under the wing of the Catholic faith. After 18 years of mass, I felt that I was just repeating the motions and going about without any true connection to faith. Furthermore, the homily's had started to infuriate me rather than inspire me.
In college, I took a world religions class to hopefully expose myself to new possibilities. Instead, I have since been utterly confused. I have searched and searched and tried various churches in my area, but it seems my "logic" not longer let's me blindly believe in faith. Weirdly enough though, I have what my sibling and I refer to as Catholic guilt in the sense that even though I do not practice Catholicism, I feel extremely guilty and almost blasphemous for even considering anything different. Yet, I consistently doubt the existence or validity of the religion which makes my guilt all the more perplexing.
Here are somethings I believe:
I believe in a higher being
I believe in an afterlife
I believe in maintaining morality
I believe that a higher being would not discriminate
I believe everyone sins and everyone's sins can be forgiven through true repentance (yes, everyone)
I believe in the big bang theory and scientific evolution
I believe the Bible has many interpretations, but I do not believe it quoted literally for political gain.
I do not know if I belief in Jesus Christ as accepting his super natural existence defies logic.There are days where I can see this and days where I wonder if his deeds were grossly misinterpreted.
Now, my mother is currently practicing with a non-denominational Christian church. My husband, who also grew up Catholic, has been "worn out" by a religion that used money as a driving force and scolded the congregation weekly. My brother, is an agnostic atheist. As for me, I am not quite sure what to do; I am a confused individual. I am 24 and have been searching for religion for what seems like ages. Any suggestions on which route to take, I am all ears.
Growing up, I was religious and admittedly naive. Once I was in high school, I began to truly evaluate Catholicism and how it related to my personal beliefs. I had never questioned this prior to high school as I did not want to be the so called "cafeteria Catholic", where you pick and chose what suits your beliefs best. I understand accepting a religion is accepting it in its entirety and because of this I cannot remain under the wing of the Catholic faith. After 18 years of mass, I felt that I was just repeating the motions and going about without any true connection to faith. Furthermore, the homily's had started to infuriate me rather than inspire me.
In college, I took a world religions class to hopefully expose myself to new possibilities. Instead, I have since been utterly confused. I have searched and searched and tried various churches in my area, but it seems my "logic" not longer let's me blindly believe in faith. Weirdly enough though, I have what my sibling and I refer to as Catholic guilt in the sense that even though I do not practice Catholicism, I feel extremely guilty and almost blasphemous for even considering anything different. Yet, I consistently doubt the existence or validity of the religion which makes my guilt all the more perplexing.
Here are somethings I believe:
I believe in a higher being
I believe in an afterlife
I believe in maintaining morality
I believe that a higher being would not discriminate
I believe everyone sins and everyone's sins can be forgiven through true repentance (yes, everyone)
I believe in the big bang theory and scientific evolution
I believe the Bible has many interpretations, but I do not believe it quoted literally for political gain.
I do not know if I belief in Jesus Christ as accepting his super natural existence defies logic.There are days where I can see this and days where I wonder if his deeds were grossly misinterpreted.
Now, my mother is currently practicing with a non-denominational Christian church. My husband, who also grew up Catholic, has been "worn out" by a religion that used money as a driving force and scolded the congregation weekly. My brother, is an agnostic atheist. As for me, I am not quite sure what to do; I am a confused individual. I am 24 and have been searching for religion for what seems like ages. Any suggestions on which route to take, I am all ears.
