Hard time thinking and talking

[VoidCat]

I'm sorry guys if I've seemed a little off wording things lately and such. My thinking has been off. I think it's from starting my job and working for 6 hours a day M-F. I havent been working long but I'm having a hard time translating my thoughts into words. My ability to speak has also been affected slightly I've been forcing myself to talk instead of using my aac app when I really should be using it. Like I haven't been completely nonverbal but neither am I entirely verbal. Nonverbal and verbalness is a spectrum. I just dont want my job thinking I'm less capable cuz of my speaking issues. I am just as capable of helping with the kids at the daycare. I also ain't been on here often after work cuz i dont have the energy to talk. Right now im trying to force myself to do my classwork since i dont have work today but am having trouble convincing myself to. It's not that I dont want to
do it it's just I legit cant take in any of the info at the moment.

 

[The Hammer]

Outside of the non-verbal, verbalness. I can empathize. Work can be very draining mentally, on top of also physically. So, there are times I'm not talking much here or elsewhere either, just due to mental drain.

 

[VoidCat]

Outside of the non-verbal, verbalness. I can empathize. Work can be very draining mentally, on top of also physically. So, there are times I'm not talking much here or elsewhere either, just due to mental drain.

Especially draining after running after 18 two year olds all day

 

[VoidCat]

Im also sick one the kids seems to have given me a cold and I got a headache

 

[Shadow Wolf]

Im also sick one the kids seems to have given me a cold and I got a headache

Unfortunately that's a common thing when you work with kids and having dealings in schools. You do get used to it though, sometimes too comfortable.
The last weekend I drove rideshare before everything shut down, those working with kids were a good part of those who were out and not worried to much because working with germs is just part the lifestyle of such professions.

 

[VoidCat]

Unfortunately that's a common thing when you work with kids and having dealings in schools. You do get used to it though, sometimes too comfortable.
The last weekend I drove rideshare before everything shut down, those working with kids were a good part of those who were out and not worried to much because working with germs is just part the lifestyle of such professions.

Oh I know its a big part of working with kids don't worry. I'll be alright. Just not helping with the whole trying to think clearly thing

 

[ChristineM]

I'm sorry guys if I've seemed a little off wording things lately and such. My thinking has been off. I think it's from starting my job and working for 6 hours a day M-F. I havent been working long but I'm having a hard time translating my thoughts into words. My ability to speak has also been affected slightly I've been forcing myself to talk instead of using my aac app when I really should be using it. Like I haven't been completely nonverbal but neither am I entirely verbal. Nonverbal and verbalness is a spectrum. I just dont want my job thinking I'm less capable cuz of my speaking issues. I am just as capable of helping with the kids at the daycare. I also ain't been on here often after work cuz i dont have the energy to talk. Right now im trying to force myself to do my classwork since i dont have work today but am having trouble convincing myself to. It's not that I dont want to
do it it's just I legit cant take in any of the info at the moment.

You are in a new job learning the ropes, it's bound to take it out of you. Don't worry about it.

 

[Kenny]

I'm sorry guys if I've seemed a little off wording things lately and such. My thinking has been off. I think it's from starting my job and working for 6 hours a day M-F. I havent been working long but I'm having a hard time translating my thoughts into words. My ability to speak has also been affected slightly I've been forcing myself to talk instead of using my aac app when I really should be using it. Like I haven't been completely nonverbal but neither am I entirely verbal. Nonverbal and verbalness is a spectrum. I just dont want my job thinking I'm less capable cuz of my speaking issues. I am just as capable of helping with the kids at the daycare. I also ain't been on here often after work cuz i dont have the energy to talk. Right now im trying to force myself to do my classwork since i dont have work today but am having trouble convincing myself to. It's not that I dont want to
do it it's just I legit cant take in any of the info at the moment.

I know you can make it.

It is because you have broken through a barrier and you are still feeling the vibration of it. Give yourself a few weeks and you will find your rhythm IMO.

Your RF family is cheering you on!

 

[Brian2]

I'm sorry guys if I've seemed a little off wording things lately and such. My thinking has been off. I think it's from starting my job and working for 6 hours a day M-F. I havent been working long but I'm having a hard time translating my thoughts into words. My ability to speak has also been affected slightly I've been forcing myself to talk instead of using my aac app when I really should be using it. Like I haven't been completely nonverbal but neither am I entirely verbal. Nonverbal and verbalness is a spectrum. I just dont want my job thinking I'm less capable cuz of my speaking issues. I am just as capable of helping with the kids at the daycare. I also ain't been on here often after work cuz i dont have the energy to talk. Right now im trying to force myself to do my classwork since i dont have work today but am having trouble convincing myself to. It's not that I dont want to
do it it's just I legit cant take in any of the info at the moment.

Sounds like you need to rest, and that would mean to be in a place that is quiet and still. The world is pretty hectic and a lifestyle that is more quiet sounds best for you.
When you have the energy, do the important stuff first, such as classwork, so that you don't get behind in anything.
Possibly finding someone at work to speak to about what is happening might take some pressure off so that you don't feel that you are in danger of losing the job because of it.
OR even better, as Jayhawker Soule said, if there has been a marked change, talk to a doctor.

 

[Jayhawker Soule]

If there has been a marked chance, talk to a doctor.

 

[VoidCat]

If there has been a marked chance, talk to a doctor.

Im disabled I already know what the issues are of why I'm struggling. This is just in part my autism combining with a few other mental health issues and stress. That's why I'm having issues I'm stressed out over the new job. At least I aint gone catatonic or had a shutdown/meltdown. That has happened in the past due to stress. What I need to recover is time. And maybe not try to mask my autism so much at work. I need to use my aac app and stop forcing myself to talk during moments when it's almost impossible for me to that'll take a butt load of stress off but im worried my boss will see that as lesser communication and try to say I shouldn't work with kids cuz I am a partial mute even tho i have alternative ways to communicate with said kids.

 

[sun rise]

Im also sick one the kids seems to have given me a cold and I got a headache

That goes with the territory.

One thing from my working life was the utter necessity of having 'recharge' time. If you have any choice in the matter, I would prioritize that.

 

[Brian2]

Im disabled I already know what the issues are of why I'm struggling. This is just in part my autism combining with a few other mental health issues and stress. That's why I'm having issues I'm stressed out over the new job. At least I aint gone catatonic or had a shutdown/meltdown. That has happened in the past due to stress. What I need to recover is time. And maybe not try to mask my autism so much at work. I need to use my aac app and stop forcing myself to talk during moments when it's almost impossible for me to that'll take a butt load of stress off but im worried my boss will see that as lesser communication and try to say I shouldn't work with kids cuz I am a partial mute even tho i have alternative ways to communicate with said kids.

I hope you have an understanding boss and can communicate with him/her as to what the issues are.

 

[Jayhawker Soule]

Im disabled I already know what the issues are of why I'm struggling. This is just in part my autism combining with a few other mental health issues and stress. That's why I'm having issues I'm stressed out over the new job. At least I aint gone catatonic or had a shutdown/meltdown. That has happened in the past due to stress. What I need to recover is time. And maybe not try to mask my autism so much at work. I need to use my aac app and stop forcing myself to talk during moments when it's almost impossible for me to that'll take a butt load of stress off but im worried my boss will see that as lesser communication and try to say I shouldn't work with kids cuz I am a partial mute even tho i have alternative ways to communicate with said kids.

Thanks for the explanation and perspective. I wish you the best.