Help me find a good Psychiatrist?

[Spiderman]

So,
My current Psychiatrist just sucks! Everyone at RF knows I have some serious mental problems. There is no question I need Psychiatric help! Duh!

But I have a Psychiatrist who insists on keeping me on high dosages of antipsychotics, which have very bad side-effects, and increase the likelihood of relapsing on my drug of choice.

I have done drugs from that family since age 12, so many, and without exception they always make me tired, shake, have a tremor, get the munchies, and fiend for stimulants.

Antipsychotics lower dopamine in the brain. My drug of choice increases dopamine , which is why I am so fond of it. So, common sense is that when my brain has low levels of dopamine, I start craving my drug of choice more.

Also, antipsychotics make me miserable, make it hard to feel joy, increase feelings of guilt, increase depression, feel unpleasant.

My Doctor simply makes no sense and doesn't listen to me. I know from long experience with these medications that I react badly to all of the drugs in that family without exception, and my behavior on them is more worthless. Her answer "Maybe you aren't on a high enough dosage, let's double it".

And that makes sense how??

I caught my Doctor in a total and complete lie and falsehood! My Doctor said, "If you are experiencing a bad side effect on the medication, doubling the dosage will not make the side-effects worse". That is such a lie, she's talking out her ***! I have been on plenty of antipsychotics, and without exception, bad side-effects always get worse when you double and triple the dosage. I'm sorry, this woman is dangerous, and shouldn't even have her license in my opinion.

I'm going to file a grievance against her.

Another thing is, I scared somebody with something I said last May with some unwanted phone calls and emails to someone I knew and met with regularly for about two years in real life. I told a staff where I am at currently, that I was going to write the judge, that I don't resent the victim, I think the victim is a good person, and will abide by the no-contact order, and if I see the victim in public , will avoid saying anything to them.

The judge puts the letter in the court papers, and this could be passed on to the victim, and it could calm some of the fears, because when I was drunk I said some hurtful things, and I also would like to express how sorry I am.

My Doctor said to me "Staff say you want to contact ___ and write them a letter". I proceeded to explain to her that wasn't what I said at all. So, I know I caught my Doctor in another lie, because staff said "we didn't tell your Doctor that you wanted to contact the victim".

After I explained to my Doctor that I didn't ever say that, the Doctor continued stating falsehood , and then again said I was trying to contact the victim. I replied a second time "I'm not trying to contact the victim. It isn't even a temptation. I'm contacting the courts".

My Doctor also believes all the connections I make and my religious beliefs are unhealthy delusions.

I'm sorry, my Doctor is an idiot! If it were not for my convictions that spiritual entities were watching my good and bad deeds that I do in secret, I wouldn't have integrity, and I would go back to being the dishonest, thieving, drug-addicted, violent sociopath that I was back when I didn't pray, and believed 100 years from now it won't matter whether I was good or bad. (because I won't exist, and no one sees what I do in secret to reward and punish good or bad deeds, destroying a lot of motive to be good).

If I followed my Doctors advice, it would destroy me and I would be a threat to society, far worse than I am. And the medications make it worse as well. And my Doctor resists the idea of an anti-depressant or ADHD medication which actually in the past helped me a great deal.

So, anyway,
I live in Minneapolis Saint Paul. I'm looking for a Spiritual, religious, Doctor who is a person of faith, who will not dismiss my religious beliefs as delusions, and someone who will not state total falsehoods, someone who will actually listen to me, someone who thinks rationally.

If anyone can help, that would be great. The Doctor would have to accept UCARE insurance!

I will do some research on my own, but I really don't know how to research these things. Maybe you can teach me how to do research on knowing who doctors are before I meet with them??

 

[Eyes to See]

If you need dopamine release to help you cope a couple of simple things can help. When I worked as a tobacco cessation counselor I also recommend these simple things to help with withdrawal. One is take deep breaths. Really deep breathing can help trigger the release of endorphins. As well as exercise, such as a brisk walk, jogging, or a bike ride. These are very effective and beneficial to your overall health. Withdrawal can happen if you are dependent on a drug and are coming off it but it doesn't last forever. If you find programs like the one I used to work for to help people quit you may find more sound advice. I was never a counselor for hard drugs or alcohol so take it for what it's worth. At the least it won't hurt.

Spiritual healing is necessary. I would recommend talking with a Jehovah's Witness in your area. You can go to JW.ORG and there is a place to leave your contact information and someone will get a hold of you.

https://www.jw.org/en/jehovahs-witnesses/request-a-visit/

It is all done by phone right now as JWs are not engaged in the door to door work because of the pandemic. But JWs are not physicians, and a sick person may need medical attention. So if your illness is grave enough a spiritual routine may not be enough to help you. In such a case you should seek out medical attention, it sounds like you already have. If you don't like the opinion of one doctor you can always seek the opinion of another one. No one is perfect.

But you may want to see if your own illness is making you overly suspicious of their advice. I have a brother who is bi-polar and schizophrenic and dealt with him for many years. A person with such mental disorders can really have reality distorted, and it takes a lot of sense to realize you are sick and you need medical help. And then enough to accept it when it is offered.

 

[Lyndon]

I think you're doctor knows better than you do, you obviously need a higher dose of medication, the present dose is not working enough. Anti psychotics do not do all that stuff you are talking about, you can function quite normally on anti psychotic medication, one of the main delusion of mentally ill people is that their medication is causing the problems when in most cases it is their illness that's causing the symptoms they are blaming on the medication

 

[JustGeorge]

Are you involved with any Catholic groups that may be able to refer you to one? They may know of a psychiatrist that would fit your medical and spiritual needs.

one of the main delusion of mentally ill people is that their medication is causing the problems

As a parent of two autistic kids, I watched my kids get prescribed stuff that made everything worse. When I'd complain, they'd write me(and other concerned adults) off. When you don't feel your medical personnel is serving your needs, its okay to seek a new one.

(Though while searching for a new one, I fully advise you stay on your meds as prescribed, Matt! Don't take this into your own hands!)

 

[Spiderman]

I think you're doctor knows better than you do, you obviously need a higher dose of medication, the present dose is not working enough. Anti psychotics do not do all that stuff you are talking about, you can function quite normally on anti psychotic medication, one of the main delusion of mentally ill people is that their medication is causing the problems when in most cases it is their illness that's causing the symptoms they are blaming on the medication

That is absolute falsehood!

Antipsychotics actually are proven to cause shakiness, tremors, lower dopamine levels, block dopamine, cause chronic sleepiness, obesity, and tartive dyskinesia that can be permanent, even after you stop taking the medication.

When I quit taking abilify, the tremors immediately stopped. When I stopped taking Seroquel, chronic sleepiness stopped!

And no, a Doctor doesn't necessarily know better than the patient. I know with certainty that antipsychotics have left me with very extremely bad side effects that immediately stop when the medication is discontinued.

So your statement is simply ignorant, because I know it is simply false. My Doctor gave more than one blatantly obvious falsehood statement as well.

Not all Doctors know what they are doing. It's why there are so many lawsuits against them.

I had a doctor prescribe me ten miligrams of Xanax a day. I ran out two days before refill and had a grand Mal siezure in public. The Doctor had very poor judgement!

 

[Spiderman]

I think you're doctor knows better than you do, you obviously need a higher dose of medication, the present dose is not working enough. Anti psychotics do not do all that stuff you are talking about, you can function quite normally on anti psychotic medication, one of the main delusion of mentally ill people is that their medication is causing the problems when in most cases it is their illness that's causing the symptoms they are blaming on the medication

No, not everyone can function well on antipsychotics. Your statement is ignorant and false!

Some people on over 1000 miligrams of Seroquel a day can function just fine.

I take one tenth of that and I am bedridden all day, and extremely miserable, and it is NOT the placebo effect either. I take many medications that do not do that to me, which eliminates the idea that it is all placebo.

I have also seen skinny people become obese after a year on antipsychotics and shake and tremor like they have parkinson's disease.

I have seen it enough, plenty examples actually!

 

[Nakosis]

So,
My current Psychiatrist just sucks! Everyone at RF knows I have some serious mental problems. There is no question I need Psychiatric help! Duh!

But I have a Psychiatrist who insists on keeping me on high dosages of antipsychotics, which have very bad side-effects, and increase the likelihood of relapsing on my drug of choice.

I have done drugs from that family since age 12, so many, and without exception they always make me tired, shake, have a tremor, get the munchies, and fiend for stimulants.

Antipsychotics lower dopamine in the brain. My drug of choice increases dopamine , which is why I am so fond of it. So, common sense is that when my brain has low levels of dopamine, I start craving my drug of choice more.

Also, antipsychotics make me miserable, make it hard to feel joy, increase feelings of guilt, increase depression, feel unpleasant.

My Doctor simply makes no sense and doesn't listen to me. I know from long experience with these medications that I react badly to all of the drugs in that family without exception, and my behavior on them is more worthless. Her answer "Maybe you aren't on a high enough dosage, let's double it".

And that makes sense how??

I caught my Doctor in a total and complete lie and falsehood! My Doctor said, "If you are experiencing a bad side effect on the medication, doubling the dosage will not make the side-effects worse". That is such a lie, she's talking out her ***! I have been on plenty of antipsychotics, and without exception, bad side-effects always get worse when you double and triple the dosage. I'm sorry, this woman is dangerous, and shouldn't even have her license in my opinion.

I'm going to file a grievance against her.

Another thing is, I scared somebody with something I said last May with some unwanted phone calls and emails to someone I knew and met with regularly for about two years in real life. I told a staff where I am at currently, that I was going to write the judge, that I don't resent the victim, I think the victim is a good person, and will abide by the no-contact order, and if I see the victim in public , will avoid saying anything to them.

The judge puts the letter in the court papers, and this could be passed on to the victim, and it could calm some of the fears, because when I was drunk I said some hurtful things, and I also would like to express how sorry I am.

My Doctor said to me "Staff say you want to contact ___ and write them a letter". I proceeded to explain to her that wasn't what I said at all. So, I know I caught my Doctor in another lie, because staff said "we didn't tell your Doctor that you wanted to contact the victim".

After I explained to my Doctor that I didn't ever say that, the Doctor continued stating falsehood , and then again said I was trying to contact the victim. I replied a second time "I'm not trying to contact the victim. It isn't even a temptation. I'm contacting the courts".

My Doctor also believes all the connections I make and my religious beliefs are unhealthy delusions.

I'm sorry, my Doctor is an idiot! If it were not for my convictions that spiritual entities were watching my good and bad deeds that I do in secret, I wouldn't have integrity, and I would go back to being the dishonest, thieving, drug-addicted, violent sociopath that I was back when I didn't pray, and believed 100 years from now it won't matter whether I was good or bad. (because I won't exist, and no one sees what I do in secret to reward and punish good or bad deeds, destroying a lot of motive to be good).

If I followed my Doctors advice, it would destroy me and I would be a threat to society, far worse than I am. And the medications make it worse as well. And my Doctor resists the idea of an anti-depressant or ADHD medication which actually in the past helped me a great deal.

So, anyway,
I live in Minneapolis Saint Paul. I'm looking for a Spiritual, religious, Doctor who is a person of faith, who will not dismiss my religious beliefs as delusions, and someone who will not state total falsehoods, someone who will actually listen to me, someone who thinks rationally.

If anyone can help, that would be great. The Doctor would have to accept UCARE insurance!

I will do some research on my own, but I really don't know how to research these things. Maybe you can teach me how to do research on knowing who doctors are before I meet with them??

I wish you well but I don't think you should be getting mental health advise online.

However, for my physical health, I've had to go through several doctors to find one I'm comfortable with.
If you have the option to try out different psychiatrists try going to different ones to find someone you are comfortable with.
It may take a few tries.

 

[Spiderman]

Are you involved with any Catholic groups that may be able to refer you to one? They may know of a psychiatrist that would fit your medical and spiritual needs.



As a parent of two autistic kids, I watched my kids get prescribed stuff that made everything worse. When I'd complain, they'd write me(and other concerned adults) off. When you don't feel your medical personnel is serving your needs, its okay to seek a new one.

(Though while searching for a new one, I fully advise you stay on your meds as prescribed, Matt! Don't take this into your own hands!)

At this time i lost my contact info to the Catholic friend I had who might help with that.

He attended legion of Mary in Minneapolis , and I Know his first name, so maybe I can reconnect with him that way

 

[JustGeorge]

At this time i lost my contact info to the Catholic friend I had who might help with that.

He attended legion of Mary in Minneapolis , and I Know his first name, so maybe I can reconnect with him that way

If you can't locate him, try any Catholic church. Maybe someone can advise you.

 

[Spiderman]

If you can't locate him, try any Catholic church. Maybe someone can advise you.

That's actually a great idea I simply never thought of.

 

[Lyndon]

I believe his doctor is court ordered from his programme, he has no option to change doctors

 

[Psalm23]

So,
My current Psychiatrist just sucks! Everyone at RF knows I have some serious mental problems. There is no question I need Psychiatric help! Duh!

But I have a Psychiatrist who insists on keeping me on high dosages of antipsychotics, which have very bad side-effects, and increase the likelihood of relapsing on my drug of choice.

I have done drugs from that family since age 12, so many, and without exception they always make me tired, shake, have a tremor, get the munchies, and fiend for stimulants.

Antipsychotics lower dopamine in the brain. My drug of choice increases dopamine , which is why I am so fond of it. So, common sense is that when my brain has low levels of dopamine, I start craving my drug of choice more.

Also, antipsychotics make me miserable, make it hard to feel joy, increase feelings of guilt, increase depression, feel unpleasant.

My Doctor simply makes no sense and doesn't listen to me. I know from long experience with these medications that I react badly to all of the drugs in that family without exception, and my behavior on them is more worthless. Her answer "Maybe you aren't on a high enough dosage, let's double it".

And that makes sense how??

I caught my Doctor in a total and complete lie and falsehood! My Doctor said, "If you are experiencing a bad side effect on the medication, doubling the dosage will not make the side-effects worse". That is such a lie, she's talking out her ***! I have been on plenty of antipsychotics, and without exception, bad side-effects always get worse when you double and triple the dosage. I'm sorry, this woman is dangerous, and shouldn't even have her license in my opinion.

I'm going to file a grievance against her.

Another thing is, I scared somebody with something I said last May with some unwanted phone calls and emails to someone I knew and met with regularly for about two years in real life. I told a staff where I am at currently, that I was going to write the judge, that I don't resent the victim, I think the victim is a good person, and will abide by the no-contact order, and if I see the victim in public , will avoid saying anything to them.

The judge puts the letter in the court papers, and this could be passed on to the victim, and it could calm some of the fears, because when I was drunk I said some hurtful things, and I also would like to express how sorry I am.

My Doctor said to me "Staff say you want to contact ___ and write them a letter". I proceeded to explain to her that wasn't what I said at all. So, I know I caught my Doctor in another lie, because staff said "we didn't tell your Doctor that you wanted to contact the victim".

After I explained to my Doctor that I didn't ever say that, the Doctor continued stating falsehood , and then again said I was trying to contact the victim. I replied a second time "I'm not trying to contact the victim. It isn't even a temptation. I'm contacting the courts".

My Doctor also believes all the connections I make and my religious beliefs are unhealthy delusions.

I'm sorry, my Doctor is an idiot! If it were not for my convictions that spiritual entities were watching my good and bad deeds that I do in secret, I wouldn't have integrity, and I would go back to being the dishonest, thieving, drug-addicted, violent sociopath that I was back when I didn't pray, and believed 100 years from now it won't matter whether I was good or bad. (because I won't exist, and no one sees what I do in secret to reward and punish good or bad deeds, destroying a lot of motive to be good).

If I followed my Doctors advice, it would destroy me and I would be a threat to society, far worse than I am. And the medications make it worse as well. And my Doctor resists the idea of an anti-depressant or ADHD medication which actually in the past helped me a great deal.

So, anyway,
I live in Minneapolis Saint Paul. I'm looking for a Spiritual, religious, Doctor who is a person of faith, who will not dismiss my religious beliefs as delusions, and someone who will not state total falsehoods, someone who will actually listen to me, someone who thinks rationally.

If anyone can help, that would be great. The Doctor would have to accept UCARE insurance!

I will do some research on my own, but I really don't know how to research these things. Maybe you can teach me how to do research on knowing who doctors are before I meet with them??

If you call your insurance, they might be able to tell you who takes your insurance. If you call Psychiatrict offices, they should be able to tell you if they take your insurance.

 

[Lyndon]

You're certainly not going to find a psychiatrist that treats schizophrenia without anti psychotic meds

 

[JustGeorge]

You're certainly not going to find a psychiatrist that treats schizophrenia without anti psychotic meds

There are different ones to try.

My son takes them. He's had some that simply knock his aggression down(he's on them now), and some that have made him a staring non responsive zombie.

A good doctor/psychiatrist can try different meds in the same family to find a desired result.

 

[Spiderman]

You're certainly not going to find a psychiatrist that treats schizophrenia without anti psychotic meds

Not entirely true actually!

There are in fact anticonvulsants that treat schizoaffective disorder very well. I'm actually not schizophrenic.

I'm schizoaffective depressed drug addict, who gets psychotic on drugs.

When sober, I am primarily depressed, which leads to drug abuse, which leads to psychosis.

Treating the depression with an antidepressant could stop me from abusing drugs, and my doctor resists that idea.

I take depakote, which prevents psychotic mania just fine , without making me feel like ****!

I have never once taken a single antipsychotic that did one positive thing for me! They make me tired and uncomfortable and miserable at high dosages!

 

[Spirit of Light]

So,
My current Psychiatrist just sucks! Everyone at RF knows I have some serious mental problems. There is no question I need Psychiatric help! Duh!

But I have a Psychiatrist who insists on keeping me on high dosages of antipsychotics, which have very bad side-effects, and increase the likelihood of relapsing on my drug of choice.

I have done drugs from that family since age 12, so many, and without exception they always make me tired, shake, have a tremor, get the munchies, and fiend for stimulants.

Antipsychotics lower dopamine in the brain. My drug of choice increases dopamine , which is why I am so fond of it. So, common sense is that when my brain has low levels of dopamine, I start craving my drug of choice more.

Also, antipsychotics make me miserable, make it hard to feel joy, increase feelings of guilt, increase depression, feel unpleasant.

My Doctor simply makes no sense and doesn't listen to me. I know from long experience with these medications that I react badly to all of the drugs in that family without exception, and my behavior on them is more worthless. Her answer "Maybe you aren't on a high enough dosage, let's double it".

And that makes sense how??

I caught my Doctor in a total and complete lie and falsehood! My Doctor said, "If you are experiencing a bad side effect on the medication, doubling the dosage will not make the side-effects worse". That is such a lie, she's talking out her ***! I have been on plenty of antipsychotics, and without exception, bad side-effects always get worse when you double and triple the dosage. I'm sorry, this woman is dangerous, and shouldn't even have her license in my opinion.

I'm going to file a grievance against her.

Another thing is, I scared somebody with something I said last May with some unwanted phone calls and emails to someone I knew and met with regularly for about two years in real life. I told a staff where I am at currently, that I was going to write the judge, that I don't resent the victim, I think the victim is a good person, and will abide by the no-contact order, and if I see the victim in public , will avoid saying anything to them.

The judge puts the letter in the court papers, and this could be passed on to the victim, and it could calm some of the fears, because when I was drunk I said some hurtful things, and I also would like to express how sorry I am.

My Doctor said to me "Staff say you want to contact ___ and write them a letter". I proceeded to explain to her that wasn't what I said at all. So, I know I caught my Doctor in another lie, because staff said "we didn't tell your Doctor that you wanted to contact the victim".

After I explained to my Doctor that I didn't ever say that, the Doctor continued stating falsehood , and then again said I was trying to contact the victim. I replied a second time "I'm not trying to contact the victim. It isn't even a temptation. I'm contacting the courts".

My Doctor also believes all the connections I make and my religious beliefs are unhealthy delusions.

I'm sorry, my Doctor is an idiot! If it were not for my convictions that spiritual entities were watching my good and bad deeds that I do in secret, I wouldn't have integrity, and I would go back to being the dishonest, thieving, drug-addicted, violent sociopath that I was back when I didn't pray, and believed 100 years from now it won't matter whether I was good or bad. (because I won't exist, and no one sees what I do in secret to reward and punish good or bad deeds, destroying a lot of motive to be good).

If I followed my Doctors advice, it would destroy me and I would be a threat to society, far worse than I am. And the medications make it worse as well. And my Doctor resists the idea of an anti-depressant or ADHD medication which actually in the past helped me a great deal.

So, anyway,
I live in Minneapolis Saint Paul. I'm looking for a Spiritual, religious, Doctor who is a person of faith, who will not dismiss my religious beliefs as delusions, and someone who will not state total falsehoods, someone who will actually listen to me, someone who thinks rationally.

If anyone can help, that would be great. The Doctor would have to accept UCARE insurance!

I will do some research on my own, but I really don't know how to research these things. Maybe you can teach me how to do research on knowing who doctors are before I meet with them??

To be in a situation where you don't trust those who should help you heal, can never lead to your well being, unfortunately.

Often when you describe your feeling from the prescribed drug, the doctor will just add an other drug to reduce the "feeling" from the first drug, so many people end up with 4-5 different prescribed drugs but only one of them would actually be about what first lead you to the psychriatic doctor

Only those who have experienced what you speak of here could understand the aweful feeling those drugs give you.
I have used anti psycotic drugs my self ( I am currently not using any)

@Spiderman i hope and pray your situation improve this year, you seems like a very nice person when you are sober and drug free

You can always PM me if you need to get trouble off your mind , but I can not promise i can be to good help. As you know i am not a medical expert.

 

[Lyndon]

Your posting strikes me as consistently psychotic, only anti psychotic medication is ever going to help you get better, as long as you are non med compliant your life will continue to be miserable IMHO, It would be a much better idea to accept that you need anti psychotic meds and argue with your doctor about which one works and which ones don't rather than get the absolutely crazy idea that you can function well without them

 

[Spirit of Light]

Your posting strikes me as consistently psychotic, only anti psychotic medication is ever going to help you get better, as long as you are non med compliant your life will continue to be miserable IMHO, It would be a much better idea to accept that you need anti psychotic meds and argue with your doctor about which one works and which ones don't rather than get the absolutely crazy idea that you can function well without them

Are you a medical trained psychriatic doctor?

 

[JustGeorge]

get the absolutely crazy idea that you can function well without them

I don't think he's suggested that he should be without meds, just that he is unhappy with his current care and would prefer a psychiatrist he can work better with.

@Seeker of White Light says here:

To be in a situation where you don't trust those who should help you heal, can never lead to your well being, unfortunately.

and I agree with that. Regardless of what any of us here feel, if @Spiderman is uncomfortable with his current medical staff, it will be more difficult for him to properly be treated.

 

[Sand Dancer]

So,
My current Psychiatrist just sucks! Everyone at RF knows I have some serious mental problems. There is no question I need Psychiatric help! Duh!

But I have a Psychiatrist who insists on keeping me on high dosages of antipsychotics, which have very bad side-effects, and increase the likelihood of relapsing on my drug of choice.

I have done drugs from that family since age 12, so many, and without exception they always make me tired, shake, have a tremor, get the munchies, and fiend for stimulants.

Antipsychotics lower dopamine in the brain. My drug of choice increases dopamine , which is why I am so fond of it. So, common sense is that when my brain has low levels of dopamine, I start craving my drug of choice more.

Also, antipsychotics make me miserable, make it hard to feel joy, increase feelings of guilt, increase depression, feel unpleasant.

My Doctor simply makes no sense and doesn't listen to me. I know from long experience with these medications that I react badly to all of the drugs in that family without exception, and my behavior on them is more worthless. Her answer "Maybe you aren't on a high enough dosage, let's double it".

And that makes sense how??

I caught my Doctor in a total and complete lie and falsehood! My Doctor said, "If you are experiencing a bad side effect on the medication, doubling the dosage will not make the side-effects worse". That is such a lie, she's talking out her ***! I have been on plenty of antipsychotics, and without exception, bad side-effects always get worse when you double and triple the dosage. I'm sorry, this woman is dangerous, and shouldn't even have her license in my opinion.

I'm going to file a grievance against her.

Another thing is, I scared somebody with something I said last May with some unwanted phone calls and emails to someone I knew and met with regularly for about two years in real life. I told a staff where I am at currently, that I was going to write the judge, that I don't resent the victim, I think the victim is a good person, and will abide by the no-contact order, and if I see the victim in public , will avoid saying anything to them.

The judge puts the letter in the court papers, and this could be passed on to the victim, and it could calm some of the fears, because when I was drunk I said some hurtful things, and I also would like to express how sorry I am.

My Doctor said to me "Staff say you want to contact ___ and write them a letter". I proceeded to explain to her that wasn't what I said at all. So, I know I caught my Doctor in another lie, because staff said "we didn't tell your Doctor that you wanted to contact the victim".

After I explained to my Doctor that I didn't ever say that, the Doctor continued stating falsehood , and then again said I was trying to contact the victim. I replied a second time "I'm not trying to contact the victim. It isn't even a temptation. I'm contacting the courts".

My Doctor also believes all the connections I make and my religious beliefs are unhealthy delusions.

I'm sorry, my Doctor is an idiot! If it were not for my convictions that spiritual entities were watching my good and bad deeds that I do in secret, I wouldn't have integrity, and I would go back to being the dishonest, thieving, drug-addicted, violent sociopath that I was back when I didn't pray, and believed 100 years from now it won't matter whether I was good or bad. (because I won't exist, and no one sees what I do in secret to reward and punish good or bad deeds, destroying a lot of motive to be good).

If I followed my Doctors advice, it would destroy me and I would be a threat to society, far worse than I am. And the medications make it worse as well. And my Doctor resists the idea of an anti-depressant or ADHD medication which actually in the past helped me a great deal.

So, anyway,
I live in Minneapolis Saint Paul. I'm looking for a Spiritual, religious, Doctor who is a person of faith, who will not dismiss my religious beliefs as delusions, and someone who will not state total falsehoods, someone who will actually listen to me, someone who thinks rationally.

If anyone can help, that would be great. The Doctor would have to accept UCARE insurance!

I will do some research on my own, but I really don't know how to research these things. Maybe you can teach me how to do research on knowing who doctors are before I meet with them??

There is so much involved and the fact that I don't know you gives me pause before I want to give any kind of medical/psychiatric advice. It's sad that many meds are prescribed to offset side effects from other meds and in psychotropics there can be lots of side effects. I will say that when you mentioned the low dopamine, it made me think of the possible link between low dopamine levels and an increased risk of Parkinson's Disease. I am so sorry that your doctor dismissed your religious beliefs. I hope someone can help you find the info you need.