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I was a nominal Christian at best, although as a young teen I did go to church and was confirmed a Lutheran; all pretty much at the insistence of my mother. After that I seldom went again; however, when I went into the military, for some unremembered reason I decided there was some truth to Christianity and took it up again, and even more earnestly. That lasted until I was discharged, came back home, and was given a book by my cousin called
Why I Am NOT A Christian, by the philosopher Bertrand Russell. Russell very convincingly explains why god and immortality are bankrupt ideas, and why he doesn't think Jesus was such a neat guy or even all that wise. I read it, dropped Christianity like a hot coal from Hell, and never looked back.
My reading suggestion for the coronavirus sequestering. . . . . . If you dare.
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