Why did you reject christ after having a genuine personal relationship with and his god?
1 . I was raised christian , my family went to church when I was little . However they weren't really religious if you know what I mean . My family didn't follow a specific denomination , however where we were there was only one church which was baptist . ( Btw what i'm about to say is not to offend anyone that's baptist this is just my personal experience . ) I had horrible experiences there , I was very young . Despite this the bible classes had very heavy subjects like hell , and in all stories that shouldn't be taught to kids about the bible . But of course at the young age I was even though the stories were terrible I believed them , because adults were saying they were true . I was religious when I was a child and prayed every night , and felt as though I had a genuine relationship with that God . However when I grew older the subject of Hell became the main point of why I was still christian . And i felt the weight of the world on my shoulders to make sure no one went to hell . It ruined my mental health at a very young age . Around the same time I started to read bible stories and realized I could write an entire book on things that didn't make since to me , and the questions I had . So I left and that's really it .
Did you have a conversation with him (if you had a genuine relationship with christ before) and told me hey, see ya? or had a deep talk of departure?
2 . Kind of I said Goodbye , I felt to do so since it was a huge part of my life , and was very important to me for a long time . Also It would help me move on , and work on myself .
( Christ, I can kinda understand, because he was a human flesh and blood.) I personally believe that ''christ'' could have been a real person . Just not the son of God , possibly a wise man . I believe his teachings were abused for power and control over society .
( The more I worshiped, the less I worshiped. It was an intense feeling of "this isn't right for you.)
I understand I went through the same thing after a while , I just had this inner voice that was like , Why am I even doing this anymore .
( I can't believe in human sacrifice. ) -This was a huge thing for me and why I left , I simply could not except that God needed blood shed for forgiveness ,