I'm new and not sure if I posted in the right place if not I'm sorry.
I want to believe so bad! I want and need god in my life.
I'm skeptical sometimes bc some of religion seems like a tall tale based on geography.
How do I find faith? What justifies stuff like creation of mankind?
It's actually very simple.
1. Realize that none of us has the capacity to verify the nature or existence of God. That just isn't possible for we mere humans.
2. Realize that the origin, sustenance and purpose of existence are a profound mystery to us. We have these questions, but we do not have their answers. And that INCLUDES all the religions. Their various creation myths were not intended to be taken as actual events, but as metaphors and allegories meant to convey religious and cultural ideals.
3. Religion is not God, and God is not a religion. You don't have to adopt any religious ideology to develop your own conception of what God might be, and what you would prefer to believe God to be. In fact, I would recommend developing your own idea of God rather than trying to adopt someone else's. It will be more effective in the long run.
4. Because there is no evidence or proof that your idea of God is not an accurate conception of an actual god, it would not be dishonest or irrational of you to integrate that idea of God into your reality.
5. Once you've developed your own conception of God, and integrated it into your conception of reality, you will begin to 'live as if' your God were real. And in so doing you will begin to gain results from this new God-based paradigm. If these results are positive, then your new faith in God has been a success. If your results are not positive, or not completely positive, you can alter your concept of God and try again, or, you could become an atheist and try placing your faith in materialism, hedonism, scientism, or some other atheistic philosophy. But millions of people have found that faith in their own God-concept works well for them, and I see no reason why you couldn't be one of them if you so desired.
Note: If you do choose a religion, please be very wary, as many of them, nowadays, have become authoritarian cults, using the ideal of God to control and manipulate people.