That wasn't addressed to me, but I'll answer, too. My answer is the same as @Kfox. The topic never comes up in my conversations or my thinking except here on RF or when I am discussing what I do here with others. But in this context, it is a word that comes in handy. FWIW, I almost never refer to "God" using that word capitalized. I generally write deity, a god or gods, or if I am referring to the specific deity most mean with that word, it is the god of Abraham. Here's a month's worth of those:like lots of atheists, you speak of God a great deal.
It seems that believers like to try to imply that "God" is on our mind and that that is due to a hole in ourselves where a god ought to be, as if we understand that something is missing and are drawn to the concept for that reason. They ask what draws atheists to a site for religious people, the implication being that it is due to that same hole. But they flatter themselves when they do that. If we were drawn to religion, we'd be in one. If we had a need that could be filled with a god belief, we'd be theists.
What I am drawn to is how people think and process information. Belief by faith is an interesting topic to me. I also enjoy seeing how people attempt to rationalize away the contradictions between what they believe by faith and what is actually the case. I like the just-so reasons for why this deity never presents itself. And as a result, references to gods are commonplace in such discussions. But that shouldn't be misunderstood for some kind of attraction to theism.
Also not asked of me, but a question I'll answer. I agree with @Kfox again. I'm generally referring to whatever the theist means by that word. My definition for a god like the god of Abraham is a sentient universe creator. I understand that the word is also used to refer to other entities by polytheists, and metaphorically.what do you mean, when you speak of God?
I think he meant that the topic is unusual in his thinking on any given day. You seem to want to equate the number of times he uses the word with his degree of interest in gods. Here are the ten times he used the word today. The first two quotes are him repeating himself about when he speaks of "God" and the third a reference to when others use the word. And these two thoughts are exactly the same two answers I gave you - I rarely use the word when not on RF, and when I am and do, I mean whatever god the theist I'm in discussion with believes in:you must have typed the word God a dozen times today alone. I wouldn’t call that “extremely rare”.
- "I speak of God when on this forum because that is a popular subject. It is when I'm with my friends and family does it rarely come up. But to answer your question; the vast majority of times I speak of God on this forum it is reference to the God of Christianity, due to..."
- "The only time I speak of God is when I am on this forum. When I'm with my family, friends, even my theistic friends, I never speak of God unless they do; which is extremely rare. Again; if someone brings up the subject of God, it's in reference..."
- "When people speak of God, they're speaking of what God means to THEM not me. My reference to God is based strictly on what other people have said about him; I've never created a concept of God for myself."
They all center around how people decide what's true about the world, and the mental gymnastics they employ to try to justify their beliefs. You might mistake interest in such topics for interest in the topics per se rather than interest in how people come to their beliefs and how they defend them. That is not to say that I don't have interest in the topics like climate change or vaccines per se, but that has nothing to do with these discussions, which are settled matters for me, and I don't go to the faithful for their knowledge.
Consider the flat-earthers. They're fascinating. How in the world did they come to be flat earthers? What perverse need is being satisfied. I'm assuming that it's a form of trolling and not a belief sincerely held in good faith, but if it were, that would be interesting as well. All of this is so foreign to me that I have difficulty understanding how it could happen to people, and THAT's the appeal of those conversations, not the subject matter per se.
Your situation is a little more comprehensible to me than most others. Three of the theists on RF have confided that they have had problems with impulse control that they have gained control over through a god belief. And I don't begrudge you that. If theism makes your life better, then go for it.
But it would degrade my life. Not that it's an option for me this side of despair or dementia - something that radically changed my cognitive or affective status. If such ever befell me, theism might become an option and might become a source of comfort, but here and now, it would not be a positive change.