The debate I wish to have is one that tries to convince me that Christianity and all other condemning religions are false
Name three things about any religious view that you KNOW to be true... If you can't do that then you have a problem, without anyone having to tell you anything at all.
People shouldn't have to convince you that something is true or false. We humans impart value onto things based on our preferences and biases. There's a reason that people worship trees, believe in sasquatch, ancient aliens, and magic healing hand powers... We are a delusional lot of weirdos. None of those things have any real validity to them, but that doesn't stop millions of people from basing their lives around them... Christianity, Buddhism, Islam, Jainism, Tai Chi, Yoga, Crystal Healing, Chakras, Wiccans, Jews, Scientologists, Raelians... all of these people believe in things that are not based in reality at all. But so what? If you want to believe in a personal god who only wants what's best for you, and doesn't limit you actions in a condemning way, then do it. Create your own brand of Christianity and roll with it. How else do you think it came to pass that so many denominations exist? You won't be the first person to create their own personal version of a religion - and you certainly won't be the last.
I would prefer to have that personal God I mentioned because I obviously don't want to die.
I hate to break it to you, but you're going to die anyway. We're all going to die one day. You might as well accept that and come to terms with it so you can finally start living.
I want to live on happy for eternity. But at the same time, I wish to not believe in the Christian God or any other condemning God.
Name one historical figure who has lived for eternity...
You can't do that, can you? Since there's no evidence than eternal life is even a thing, don't you think it's a little silly to hold out hope for it?
These things aren't real, man... You're essentially saying that you want an eternal life (something that doesn't exist) and that you want to achieve it by believing in a god that you find more appealing. (There's also no good evidence that gods exist at all...) So this whole thought process is really irrelevant, don't you think?
Any other way of living that does not allow me to be happy, have a wonderful time, and live as I want is simply a life not worth living to me at all.
So live however you want... What's the dilemma?
It is a detestable life I would wish to have nothing to do with.
Then have nothing to do with it...
You do realize that it's you who is keeping you from this supposed dream life of yours, right? No one is stopping you from doing anything. There's no god who reaches down and tugs your shirt in the opposite direction when you start to "go down the wrong path." All trepidations and anxieties and hesitations on your part are entirely of your own creation.