Spiderman
Veteran Member
So, my favorite Jewish author (of those who are currently living) and linked to the levitical priesthood, and the tribe of Levi happened to lose his daughter to a very tragic way that is hard to forgive multiple people who contributed to it.
Her Father wrote a book about it and has said multiple things that I find inspiring. At a time people were blaming Donald Trump's administration for such violence, her Father wore a Donald Trump shirt to the sight of where his daughter died , (she was heroically using herself to shield the body of someone else).
He is a rather influential writer and speaker who said the Trump administration actually had plenty policies , procedures, and ideas, that could have prevented such incidents from taking place, and also contributes American moral depravity and decadence to such increase in these problems , and the suffering that results for countless people.
I don't think Donald Trump is a nice person. The Father of this victim seems to have a much higher IQ than Trump, and does give rational examples of why the Trump administration can offer something better for lowering homicide in America than what we currently have. Last I checked, homicide went up after Trump left the White House!
At any rate, I love this author dearly, and we did have a brief exchange once where he told me "thank you" and told me his links to the Levitical priesthood.
Levi, is another name for my first name, and I just happened to have the first name alternative for Levi (Matthew).
Another person I pray to who died tragically in that same state, who I keep a picture of that tombstone near my bed, with Menorah candles, and star of David on it, has surname Levy, which means "Levi".
I moved into a room number of a shelter, that was the same number of lives lost in the incident that very day of the incident, which in Roman numerals the number suggests a Spirit that was once with us physically, that is now only with us in Spirit.
The number is on many tombstones in Italy, and often Italians don't have that number of floors on buildings, because if it's association with ghosts and spirits.
It lead me to enshrine pictures of those who lost their lives in that incident, but the only reason I moved into that room, and investigated the incident, and contacted the Father of the victim, was because I jumped off a building months prior, having proposed marriage to someone who has an alternative name, for the victim mentioned, which is a name for the first bride of Jacob, mother of Levi, in Scripture.
Well, it was a long time ago, but her Father never said anything to suggest he was bothered by what I said. He thanked me and and shared some vital information about the tribe and priesthood he has links to.
It was actually very helpful for me to know that personally.
But where I think I went wrong was I shared with him afterwards that I have been very deeply troubled since childhood , and prayers to his daughter have raised me to higher moral standards, deeds of virtue, and have been healing mentally, emotionally, and spirituality. I also asked him if he was able to forgive the person responsible.
He stopped responding to me.
I have only had sustainable sobriety for less than a year and just wasn't in my right mind telling him my inner struggles and darkness, (which you really shouldn't tell anyone but God, a close friend, a priest in a confession booth, or a licensed professional), or that a relative of his who died suddenly and tragically, is in Heaven interceding for me, helping myself be a better person, and praying for and blessing this country.
He doesn't know me from Adam
It very well may be he is a busy celebrity, who cannot converse with me and wasn't offended. Idk.
But I was going to try and reconnect, and downstairs they were playing "Apples to Apples", the topic card was "SENSITIVE" and the card I threw in my hand that I drew, was the name of the state the victim died in and her Father lived in.
I left and returned to the table , and the topic was "Manly" the meaning of her Father's name "Andrew".
I took it as a warning "sensitive topic, don't contact Andrew".
Earlier on RF, I wrote in the journal, the victim telling me "let it go". I went to RF and the top most recent thread was titled "let it go".
Seems like blatantly clear signs to me along with an interior conviction.
But had I been further along in my sobriety, and I contacted her Father, and been prudent with what I said, maybe I could have helped with the healing, ( and occasionally interacted with one of my favorite people in the world).
There was a woman who said I helped her more than anyone, including immediate family members, with her healing after her son's suicide.
She held onto me and wept the day after her son's suicide, and after burying him, I asked her to drop me off near the tombstone where he was buried, where I prayed a Rosary for his soul.
Multiple signs and coincidences involving what I attributed to him, made her weep tears of joy and send me a letter in the mail (around last Christmas actually, so very recent) saying she no longer worries that her son is in hell, and she prays to him every morning as a direct result of things I experienced and shared with her. It worked with her!
I was hoping I could have a similar effect in Andrew's life, possibly reunite him with his loved one, help him heal, console him.
But I just feel I made the trauma worse, opened a wound, accomplished the opposite of my good compassionate intentions.
It is mildly heartbreaking
. But on the same token, I don't actually know if I disturbed or bothered him, because he did say "thank you".
I will pray for him, and this incident has made me more aware of how much more sensitive and considerate I need to be of others.
It's a dark dark depressing disturbing world out there for a lot of people. Especially if someone takes your child's life. It is with great fear, trembling, and caution, anointing, and experience , that you should attempt to be the "wounded healer" in a situation like that, or try to reunite someone you never met with their departed loved one.
Not my place at all! I meant well
Your thoughts are appreciated!
Her Father wrote a book about it and has said multiple things that I find inspiring. At a time people were blaming Donald Trump's administration for such violence, her Father wore a Donald Trump shirt to the sight of where his daughter died , (she was heroically using herself to shield the body of someone else).
He is a rather influential writer and speaker who said the Trump administration actually had plenty policies , procedures, and ideas, that could have prevented such incidents from taking place, and also contributes American moral depravity and decadence to such increase in these problems , and the suffering that results for countless people.
I don't think Donald Trump is a nice person. The Father of this victim seems to have a much higher IQ than Trump, and does give rational examples of why the Trump administration can offer something better for lowering homicide in America than what we currently have. Last I checked, homicide went up after Trump left the White House!
At any rate, I love this author dearly, and we did have a brief exchange once where he told me "thank you" and told me his links to the Levitical priesthood.
Levi, is another name for my first name, and I just happened to have the first name alternative for Levi (Matthew).
Another person I pray to who died tragically in that same state, who I keep a picture of that tombstone near my bed, with Menorah candles, and star of David on it, has surname Levy, which means "Levi".
I moved into a room number of a shelter, that was the same number of lives lost in the incident that very day of the incident, which in Roman numerals the number suggests a Spirit that was once with us physically, that is now only with us in Spirit.
The number is on many tombstones in Italy, and often Italians don't have that number of floors on buildings, because if it's association with ghosts and spirits.
It lead me to enshrine pictures of those who lost their lives in that incident, but the only reason I moved into that room, and investigated the incident, and contacted the Father of the victim, was because I jumped off a building months prior, having proposed marriage to someone who has an alternative name, for the victim mentioned, which is a name for the first bride of Jacob, mother of Levi, in Scripture.
Well, it was a long time ago, but her Father never said anything to suggest he was bothered by what I said. He thanked me and and shared some vital information about the tribe and priesthood he has links to.
It was actually very helpful for me to know that personally.
But where I think I went wrong was I shared with him afterwards that I have been very deeply troubled since childhood , and prayers to his daughter have raised me to higher moral standards, deeds of virtue, and have been healing mentally, emotionally, and spirituality. I also asked him if he was able to forgive the person responsible.
He stopped responding to me.
I have only had sustainable sobriety for less than a year and just wasn't in my right mind telling him my inner struggles and darkness, (which you really shouldn't tell anyone but God, a close friend, a priest in a confession booth, or a licensed professional), or that a relative of his who died suddenly and tragically, is in Heaven interceding for me, helping myself be a better person, and praying for and blessing this country.
He doesn't know me from Adam
It very well may be he is a busy celebrity, who cannot converse with me and wasn't offended. Idk.
But I was going to try and reconnect, and downstairs they were playing "Apples to Apples", the topic card was "SENSITIVE" and the card I threw in my hand that I drew, was the name of the state the victim died in and her Father lived in.
I left and returned to the table , and the topic was "Manly" the meaning of her Father's name "Andrew".
I took it as a warning "sensitive topic, don't contact Andrew".
Earlier on RF, I wrote in the journal, the victim telling me "let it go". I went to RF and the top most recent thread was titled "let it go".
Seems like blatantly clear signs to me along with an interior conviction.
But had I been further along in my sobriety, and I contacted her Father, and been prudent with what I said, maybe I could have helped with the healing, ( and occasionally interacted with one of my favorite people in the world).
There was a woman who said I helped her more than anyone, including immediate family members, with her healing after her son's suicide.
She held onto me and wept the day after her son's suicide, and after burying him, I asked her to drop me off near the tombstone where he was buried, where I prayed a Rosary for his soul.
Multiple signs and coincidences involving what I attributed to him, made her weep tears of joy and send me a letter in the mail (around last Christmas actually, so very recent) saying she no longer worries that her son is in hell, and she prays to him every morning as a direct result of things I experienced and shared with her. It worked with her!
I was hoping I could have a similar effect in Andrew's life, possibly reunite him with his loved one, help him heal, console him.
But I just feel I made the trauma worse, opened a wound, accomplished the opposite of my good compassionate intentions.
It is mildly heartbreaking
. But on the same token, I don't actually know if I disturbed or bothered him, because he did say "thank you".I will pray for him, and this incident has made me more aware of how much more sensitive and considerate I need to be of others.
It's a dark dark depressing disturbing world out there for a lot of people. Especially if someone takes your child's life. It is with great fear, trembling, and caution, anointing, and experience , that you should attempt to be the "wounded healer" in a situation like that, or try to reunite someone you never met with their departed loved one.
Not my place at all! I meant well
Your thoughts are appreciated!
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