I'm a psychiatric case!

[Eddi]

In a post I made yesterday I announced that I now accept that I am mentally ill:

It's a mental illness

I've been this way for I think eighteen years now but have only just accepted my diagnosis

I had for all that time denied there was anything truly wrong with me and that I was in any way ill or disordered!

I am now coming to terms with the fact that I am Schizophrenic (oh how I hate that word!)

I honestly and erroneously believed that the things I'd experienced were external to me!

Obviously they aren't

I now know that I'm not an asset of the secret service, that I'm not a prophet of God, that I'm not a spokesman of The Computer God, and that I'm not haunted by a demon

None of those things

This has lead me to a further realisation: That I'm a psychiatric case

That's my station in life

That's my social position

I don't have a job and I don't have a career

That's what I am

That's who I am

Everyone thinks I'm a disabled person due to my mental illness

And I am

That is what I am and that is how others perceive me

That is how others treat me, and have been treating me since 2004

But I never realised this!

I never noticed!

I was so caught up in fantasy!

• I'm not an asset of the secret service
• I'm not a prophet
• I'm not a spokesman for The Computer God
• I'm not the victim of demon possession

I'm a rambling schizophrenic

Basically: I am officially insane!

That's both my profession and my occupation: crazy person

This is all new to me even though I've been in the mental health system since 2004

This is a lot for me to take in and starting tomorrow I'm going to take a leave of absence from RF for a few days, although I will still check in every now and then to keep an eye on things

 

[Kenny]

In a post I made yesterday I announced that I now accept that I am mentally ill:

It's a mental illness

I've been this way for I think eighteen years now but have only just accepted my diagnosis

I had for all that time denied there was anything truly wrong with me and that I was in any way ill or disordered!

I am now coming to terms with the fact that I am Schizophrenic (oh how I hate that word!)

I honestly and erroneously believed that the things I'd experienced were external to me!

Obviously they aren't

I now know that I'm not an asset of the secret service, that I'm not a prophet of God, that I'm not a spokesman of The Computer God, and that I'm not haunted by a demon

None of those things

This has lead me to a further realisation: That I'm a psychiatric case

That's my station in life

That's my social position

I don't have a job and I don't have a career

That's what I am

That's who I am

Everyone thinks I'm a disabled person due to my mental illness

And I am

That is what I am and that is how others perceive me

That is how others treat me, and have been treating me since 2004

But I never realised this!

I never noticed!

I was so caught up in fantasy!

• I'm not an asset of the secret service
• I'm not a prophet
• I'm not a spokesman for The Computer God
• I'm not the victim of demon possession

I'm a rambling schizophrenic

Basically: I am officially insane!

That's both my profession and my occupation: crazy person

This is all new to me even though I've been in the mental health system since 2004

This is a lot for me to take in and starting tomorrow Iin 'm going to take a leave of absence from RF for a few days, although I will still check in every now and then to keep an eye on things

In light on my signature,

You are a child of God!
God has not given you a spirit of fear, rather a spirit of power, love and a sound (un-schizophrenic) mind.
His engrafted word will save your mind.

This statement:

• I'm not an asset of the secret service
• I'm not a prophet
• I'm not a spokesman for The Computer God
• I'm not the victim of demon possession

IS PROOF THAT YOU ARE ON THE ROAD TO RECOVERY!

 

[The Sum of Awe]

In a post I made yesterday I announced that I now accept that I am mentally ill:

It's a mental illness

I've been this way for I think eighteen years now but have only just accepted my diagnosis

I had for all that time denied there was anything truly wrong with me and that I was in any way ill or disordered!

I am now coming to terms with the fact that I am Schizophrenic (oh how I hate that word!)

I honestly and erroneously believed that the things I'd experienced were external to me!

Obviously they aren't

I now know that I'm not an asset of the secret service, that I'm not a prophet of God, that I'm not a spokesman of The Computer God, and that I'm not haunted by a demon

None of those things

This has lead me to a further realisation: That I'm a psychiatric case

That's my station in life

That's my social position

I don't have a job and I don't have a career

That's what I am

That's who I am

Everyone thinks I'm a disabled person due to my mental illness

And I am

That is what I am and that is how others perceive me

That is how others treat me, and have been treating me since 2004

But I never realised this!

I never noticed!

I was so caught up in fantasy!

• I'm not an asset of the secret service
• I'm not a prophet
• I'm not a spokesman for The Computer God
• I'm not the victim of demon possession

I'm a rambling schizophrenic

Basically: I am officially insane!

That's both my profession and my occupation: crazy person

This is all new to me even though I've been in the mental health system since 2004

This is a lot for me to take in and starting tomorrow I'm going to take a leave of absence from RF for a few days, although I will still check in every now and then to keep an eye on things

If it makes you feel any better, I think you’re a nice person and enjoy your discussion topics.

 

[JustGeorge]

You are a well valued and cared for member of the RF community, don't forget that one as well.

Wouldn't be the same without you.

 

[Lyndon]

the important thing in your case is to take medication and not try stopping it, medication can help you function mostly normally

 

[Eddi]

the important thing in your case is to take medication and not try stopping it, medication can help you function mostly normally

I've learnt that the hard way

In 2016 I decided to stop taking them.......

A week later and I was detained in a psychiatric hospital

 

[vulcanlogician]

I'm glad you have found some resolution, Eddi. Be sure to take care of yourself.

 

[PureX]

The road to recovery begins when we finally see that we need recovery. And that we can't do it alone.

 

[ChristineM]

I'm glad you are recognising your disability and remember, you are valued here.

 

[Rachel Rugelach]

You are a well valued and cared for member of the RF community, don't forget that one as well.

Wouldn't be the same without you.

Ditto that! I haven't really been here very long, but I've enjoyed reading your posts, @Eddi. You seem to be a kind person. I don't know whether you think of your mental illness as being just another one of life's challenges, but it seems to me that might be a good way of looking at it.

In any case, cheers to you for being who you are, because I think you're a pretty neat individual.

 

[Revoltingest]

I am officially insane!

You're in an enviable & useful position relative
to most people, whose delusions they believe
to be The Truth.

 

[dybmh]

@Eddi,

So much love from me to you, from the very bottom of my heart. You and I have worked together on this. I remember the first time we conversed. At that time it was "butterfly". If you trust me, then trust this: you are much much more than your disability. There is a lot of opportunity still open for you. This period will be difficult, but I'm confident it will be rewarding for you in the long term.

 

[Orbit]

In a post I made yesterday I announced that I now accept that I am mentally ill:

It's a mental illness

I've been this way for I think eighteen years now but have only just accepted my diagnosis

I had for all that time denied there was anything truly wrong with me and that I was in any way ill or disordered!

I am now coming to terms with the fact that I am Schizophrenic (oh how I hate that word!)

I honestly and erroneously believed that the things I'd experienced were external to me!

Obviously they aren't

I now know that I'm not an asset of the secret service, that I'm not a prophet of God, that I'm not a spokesman of The Computer God, and that I'm not haunted by a demon

None of those things

This has lead me to a further realisation: That I'm a psychiatric case

That's my station in life

That's my social position

I don't have a job and I don't have a career

That's what I am

That's who I am

Everyone thinks I'm a disabled person due to my mental illness

And I am

That is what I am and that is how others perceive me

That is how others treat me, and have been treating me since 2004

But I never realised this!

I never noticed!

I was so caught up in fantasy!

• I'm not an asset of the secret service
• I'm not a prophet
• I'm not a spokesman for The Computer God
• I'm not the victim of demon possession

I'm a rambling schizophrenic

Basically: I am officially insane!

That's both my profession and my occupation: crazy person

This is all new to me even though I've been in the mental health system since 2004

This is a lot for me to take in and starting tomorrow I'm going to take a leave of absence from RF for a few days, although I will still check in every now and then to keep an eye on things

It's great that you have had this realization, that you have a mental illness. That's a real breakthrough! Congrats!

 

[Eddi]

@Eddi,

So much love from me to you, from the very bottom of my heart. You and I have worked together on this. I remember the first time we conversed. At that time it was "butterfly". If you trust me, then trust this: you are much much more than your disability. There is a lot of opportunity still open for you. This period will be difficult, but I'm confident it will be rewarding for you in the long term.

Thank you for all the kind help you have given me!

 

[Secret Chief]

@Eddi

Best wishes to one of the good guys.

 

[dybmh]

Thank you for all the kind help you have given me!

You're very welcome.

 

[nPeace]

In a post I made yesterday I announced that I now accept that I am mentally ill:

It's a mental illness

I've been this way for I think eighteen years now but have only just accepted my diagnosis

I had for all that time denied there was anything truly wrong with me and that I was in any way ill or disordered!

I am now coming to terms with the fact that I am Schizophrenic (oh how I hate that word!)

I honestly and erroneously believed that the things I'd experienced were external to me!

Obviously they aren't

I now know that I'm not an asset of the secret service, that I'm not a prophet of God, that I'm not a spokesman of The Computer God, and that I'm not haunted by a demon

None of those things

This has lead me to a further realisation: That I'm a psychiatric case

That's my station in life

That's my social position

I don't have a job and I don't have a career

That's what I am

That's who I am

Everyone thinks I'm a disabled person due to my mental illness

And I am

That is what I am and that is how others perceive me

That is how others treat me, and have been treating me since 2004

But I never realised this!

I never noticed!

I was so caught up in fantasy!

• I'm not an asset of the secret service
• I'm not a prophet
• I'm not a spokesman for The Computer God
• I'm not the victim of demon possession

I'm a rambling schizophrenic

Basically: I am officially insane!

That's both my profession and my occupation: crazy person

This is all new to me even though I've been in the mental health system since 2004

This is a lot for me to take in and starting tomorrow I'm going to take a leave of absence from RF for a few days, although I will still check in every now and then to keep an eye on things

You don't sound crazy to me... or out of your right mind.

 

[The Hammer]

I would say that your diagnosis isn't who or what you are. It's a condition you have, like the flu or asthma, but it doesn't define you.