A few years ago, way back in '10 and '11 I think, maybe even a little earlier, I wrote down dreams that I remember well of and that I find significant. I stopped doing this for a couple years now, I simply started to just get lazy with it and it was during the time I approached the black hole in philosophy, Nihilism, and perhaps I haven't gotten to the event horizon of Nihilism because even though I am convinced it is the only sensible philosophy, I am escaping it, mostly involuntarily since I can't help but see Nihilism as a goal one should seek instead of how it is commonly viewed as a thing we should avoid falling into.
Since around March of this year I have been having experiences where I will completely space out and it feels like my mind scans through thoughts automatically and quickly, somehow I contemplate a thought but I only observe the contemplation instead of actually thinking about it myself. It's very strange and I'd be very interested to know what these are, if anyone has ever experienced the same thing, and if these trains of thoughts moving in cruise control actually have significance. These usually happen when I am alone and I have time to clear my mind and rest, when I'm not concentrated on much at all.
It has been helping me build some kind of spiritual element to existence I used to see as dull and meaningless, and instead is now brightened and having meaning in their own way - their meaning is whatever it accomplishes during its existence, even if it is not an intended meaning, it is a created meaning.
These experiences seem awfully close to dreams. I do not notice that what is happening is odd until I snap out of it, it seems to be out of my control I can only observe it, and that they are processing information.
So I am curious if anyone knows what these contemplations are, if they have any significance, and if anyone else has these. Also I'd like to know what causes them so I can have better control over it. There are times when I wish it to happen but it doesn't and there are times when I wish it not to happen but it does.
Since around March of this year I have been having experiences where I will completely space out and it feels like my mind scans through thoughts automatically and quickly, somehow I contemplate a thought but I only observe the contemplation instead of actually thinking about it myself. It's very strange and I'd be very interested to know what these are, if anyone has ever experienced the same thing, and if these trains of thoughts moving in cruise control actually have significance. These usually happen when I am alone and I have time to clear my mind and rest, when I'm not concentrated on much at all.
It has been helping me build some kind of spiritual element to existence I used to see as dull and meaningless, and instead is now brightened and having meaning in their own way - their meaning is whatever it accomplishes during its existence, even if it is not an intended meaning, it is a created meaning.
These experiences seem awfully close to dreams. I do not notice that what is happening is odd until I snap out of it, it seems to be out of my control I can only observe it, and that they are processing information.
So I am curious if anyone knows what these contemplations are, if they have any significance, and if anyone else has these. Also I'd like to know what causes them so I can have better control over it. There are times when I wish it to happen but it doesn't and there are times when I wish it not to happen but it does.