I have to disagree with you. Deciding to entertain a notion to see if it resonates with you is not the same thing as just choosing to believe. I was raised learning Christianity, my mother's side of the family is quite Catholic actually. No one could say I didn't give it a fair shake. However, I had my own experiences, my own ideas, that just didn't mesh with it. Made it impossible for that belief structure to exist for me. I had found something else that was "truth" for me and Christianity, by comparison, was false, lies, made up. It just cannot be. I cannot simply "learn to accept" that which I find myself allergic to. And that is about what it is. It so repels me, I find it so counter to what I have experienced and know for myself, that it would be like being deathly allergic to peanuts and forcing myself to eat a huge jar of Jif.