Vasilisa Jade
Formerly Saint Tigeress
Yesterday something horrible happened here. There was a fire warning due to the dryness in the weather, and someones house caught on fire. I do not know the whole story, just bits of it from a relative of the homeowner. I do not know if she was inside when the fire initially happened or outside, but I know that her house was on fire, her three girls were inside, a 5 yr old, 3 yr old, and an infant, and she was in... what I pray to be shock/ fear, and not cowardice, screaming and going frantic in her front yard watching while her children were being burned alive inside the home. Her neighbor tore across the yard and ran into the house after the kids. He got the infant first, then got the 3 yr old, but they did not get the 5 yr old in time. The infant is in critical condition I believe, and the 3 yr old is suffering bad burns.
This is such a horrible disaster and heartbreak. i cannot imagine myself in the mothers shoes... and I have been bothered because why do I find myself critisizing her? I keep thinking, why did she waste all that time being stupid?! Why did she wait for the neighbor?! She could have gotten them all if she would have acted first and with the neighbor! There obviosly was not severe structural danger at that point and before he got there. Then I feel like a *&$#%^ because that is just SO horrible. Then I start wondering if I would freeze in a situation like that. And then I just pray that I wouldn't, and then I start feeling like a stupid #@$%^ agian for thinking stuff like that regarding the poor woman's situation. It is like a viscous cycle.
I have never been one to be "timid." I did rescue my friend from a rip tide or undertow at the beach.... (and I am TERRIFIED of the ocean/sharks/water I can't see the bottom of). But that's the extent of testing my bravery. I do get adrenaline dumps pretty easy I guess. But with something like this, it cannot be simulated, you don't know what you are going to do, and how your flight/ fight/ freeze somethin er another response is going to respond.
This also freaks me out cause for YEARS now i have periodically had nightmares about my house catching on fire, my family would always be okay, but in my dream I wouldnt be able to get to all my animals, which are like my children. I would break through a window or something and get some of them, but becuase of the building falling apart I would get cut off from some of them. I really would hope that I would be the crazy s.o.b. to be able to plow through a burning house just to rescue my cat, succeed without killing myself, and deal with the pain later... but then agian we all do, right? Especially with our children.
I had a friend I used to work with who tried to rescue an old lady from a burning house. He tried to go in after her but she was blocked off. And he stayed there trying to find a way to get to her until she died. Everyone was so
atrocious to him. The torture he got mentally from all the idiots around here almost made him commit suicide. People made things up, like, he would have been able to rescue her but he just sat there and watched... and all kinds of horrible things. He had nightmares about it like, every single night. If you ever hear me talk negatively about the people in my small little town, trust me that it is usually an understatement, and reality is scarier than fiction. I don't know how this poor lady is going to cope, or what is going to happen to her. There are too many people here who do not know how to keep their opinions to themselves, and do not know the meaning of respect or discretion. This whole thing just really disturbs me to the core in so many different ways...:sad4:
This is such a horrible disaster and heartbreak. i cannot imagine myself in the mothers shoes... and I have been bothered because why do I find myself critisizing her? I keep thinking, why did she waste all that time being stupid?! Why did she wait for the neighbor?! She could have gotten them all if she would have acted first and with the neighbor! There obviosly was not severe structural danger at that point and before he got there. Then I feel like a *&$#%^ because that is just SO horrible. Then I start wondering if I would freeze in a situation like that. And then I just pray that I wouldn't, and then I start feeling like a stupid #@$%^ agian for thinking stuff like that regarding the poor woman's situation. It is like a viscous cycle.
I have never been one to be "timid." I did rescue my friend from a rip tide or undertow at the beach.... (and I am TERRIFIED of the ocean/sharks/water I can't see the bottom of). But that's the extent of testing my bravery. I do get adrenaline dumps pretty easy I guess. But with something like this, it cannot be simulated, you don't know what you are going to do, and how your flight/ fight/ freeze somethin er another response is going to respond.
This also freaks me out cause for YEARS now i have periodically had nightmares about my house catching on fire, my family would always be okay, but in my dream I wouldnt be able to get to all my animals, which are like my children. I would break through a window or something and get some of them, but becuase of the building falling apart I would get cut off from some of them. I really would hope that I would be the crazy s.o.b. to be able to plow through a burning house just to rescue my cat, succeed without killing myself, and deal with the pain later... but then agian we all do, right? Especially with our children.
I had a friend I used to work with who tried to rescue an old lady from a burning house. He tried to go in after her but she was blocked off. And he stayed there trying to find a way to get to her until she died. Everyone was so
atrocious to him. The torture he got mentally from all the idiots around here almost made him commit suicide. People made things up, like, he would have been able to rescue her but he just sat there and watched... and all kinds of horrible things. He had nightmares about it like, every single night. If you ever hear me talk negatively about the people in my small little town, trust me that it is usually an understatement, and reality is scarier than fiction. I don't know how this poor lady is going to cope, or what is going to happen to her. There are too many people here who do not know how to keep their opinions to themselves, and do not know the meaning of respect or discretion. This whole thing just really disturbs me to the core in so many different ways...:sad4: