Hey Hannah, it is the same way with me, if that makes you feel any better to know. Not to say that I would ever give up my belief in God, but at times I feel so lost and feel that I will never truly "find" Him. I have come to believe that that is His way of bringing us closer to Him, a way to test our spirit. We can be spritually strong and remain faithful unto God, alowing Him to refine us as only He can, or we can lose all faith in Him. Remember that even Jesus, in the flesh, felt despair, for He called out unto God, "Father, why hast thou forsaken me?" And we know that when all was said and done, God most certainly had not fosaken His beloved Son, for He rose again on the third day.:yes: