My Final Prayer

[Little Joe Gould]

I won't go into detail with the background here, but all you need to know is that I drifted so far away from God in these past couple months that I felt as if I was forsaken forever and there was no coming back. But I came back tonight in a balling mess of tears repeating over and over again, "Forgive me God, please forgive me." I felt love like I've never felt in my entire life wash over me in ways that words cannot describe. I then wrote this prayer...

[FONT=&quot]My Final Prayer…[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot] Dear Most Heavenly Father, words cannot express the sorrow and regret I feel for harboring such deep hatred in my soul. I am truly sorry and have learned my lesson. It is time for me to grow up and be a man. You have truly given me a massive cross to carry and I am truly honored as well. I will show you God. I will show you righteousness that will make you cry. I will show you compassion that will make everything worthwhile. You know I am a slow learner God, but I am getting there. I cannot hate anyone anymore. I cannot hate a single thing. I will be love itself for you God. I will be everything you’ve ever intended me to be become. I will save souls, God, for it is the greatest of all works that a human can do. I will bring souls to you by the barrel full God. I will do everything in my power to show people the light of your Most Holy Son. I have so much to learn and so much evil to conquer within my own soul, but for You, I will do it and never give up. There will be trials and tribulations, this I know, but I will prepare myself like never before. I want to show you, my dear God, that I can do it! I want to show you that your Son can take the most evil of creations and turn them into truly good, loving, compassionate, people. I want to be the greatest testimony of the love of Jesus Christ to ever walk the face of the Earth. I will cleanse myself of all negative emotions and be more Holy than I ever thought I would become. If you bless me, God, with whatever it is you choose to bless me with I will use it to produce wonderfully powerful good things in this world as a testimony of holiness. I promise you, God, that this it. I am prepared. The date today is February 24, 2009, and I am having one last night of doing things I shouldn’t be doing. But tomorrow it all changes. There is love in my soul still, I just need to dig it out. I will shine for you God, I will shine.[/FONT]

God bless everyone on this forum. I will never succumb to the evils of hatred again. I have been to places that I would never wish upon anyone. I will say a prayer for all of you tonight. Much love

 

[Jordan St. Francis]

Hey Joe, I will keep you in my prayers tonight and from now on, that the Holy Spirit might give you strength to ward off whatever temptations you struggle with.

I would suggest that telling God "one more last night of revelry in sin" is a potentialy dangerous spiritual route to take, but I am certainly not judging as I sympathize with you well. I remember that Saint Augustine famously prayed "Lord make me chaste- but not yet!".

I have my own personal prayer of repentance that I could forward to you if you would like it.

In Christ,

Jordan.

 

[ukMethodist]

God bless you brother.

 

[S-word]

I won't go into detail with the background here, but all you need to know is that I drifted so far away from God in these past couple months that I felt as if I was forsaken forever and there was no coming back. But I came back tonight in a balling mess of tears repeating over and over again, "Forgive me God, please forgive me." I felt love like I've never felt in my entire life wash over me in ways that words cannot describe. I then wrote this prayer...

[FONT=&quot]My Final Prayer…[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]Dear Most Heavenly Father, words cannot express the sorrow and regret I feel for harboring such deep hatred in my soul. I am truly sorry and have learned my lesson. It is time for me to grow up and be a man. You have truly given me a massive cross to carry and I am truly honored as well. I will show you God. I will show you righteousness that will make you cry. I will show you compassion that will make everything worthwhile. You know I am a slow learner God, but I am getting there. I cannot hate anyone anymore. I cannot hate a single thing. I will be love itself for you God. I will be everything you’ve ever intended me to be become. I will save souls, God, for it is the greatest of all works that a human can do. I will bring souls to you by the barrel full God. I will do everything in my power to show people the light of your Most Holy Son. I have so much to learn and so much evil to conquer within my own soul, but for You, I will do it and never give up. There will be trials and tribulations, this I know, but I will prepare myself like never before. I want to show you, my dear God, that I can do it! I want to show you that your Son can take the most evil of creations and turn them into truly good, loving, compassionate, people. I want to be the greatest testimony of the love of Jesus Christ to ever walk the face of the Earth. I will cleanse myself of all negative emotions and be more Holy than I ever thought I would become. If you bless me, God, with whatever it is you choose to bless me with I will use it to produce wonderfully powerful good things in this world as a testimony of holiness. I promise you, God, that this it. I am prepared. The date today is February 24, 2009, and I am having one last night of doing things I shouldn’t be doing. But tomorrow it all changes. There is love in my soul still, I just need to dig it out. I will shine for you God, I will shine.[/FONT]

God bless everyone on this forum. I will never succumb to the evils of hatred again. I have been to places that I would never wish upon anyone. I will say a prayer for all of you tonight. Much love

Indeed, Indeed, repentance oft before
I swore--but was I sober when I swore?
And then and then came spring, and rose-in-hand
My thread-bare Penitence apieces tore......Omar Khayyam.

May all things work toward strengthening your resolve, but should you fall away once more, don't be discouraged, He will not forge on without you, but will wait for you to get up again and continue to follow him.

 

[CaptainBritain]

Between God, the host of heaven and a billion plus strong family on earth you can make it, a quiet place with a Bible and you and you creator would be my prescription.
It provides the inner peace so many on earth refuse to accept, and its free, no hassle there to be had.

Joe look to the word, the Lord and you brethren, all will be well.
Best wishes and PM me if there is ever the need for a friend, I have lit you a candle and God has heard our prayers for you.
Be well and keep in touch on it.

 

[Bucket]

I hope you are well. I understand your journey from my experiences. Take care.