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Avatar= Joe Strummer
After looking at some of the forums, I was hoping for some insight from you as to what my religious beliefs would be and to some of your views about religion in general. First a little background information and sorry about the long post.
I am 28, male, married. Was raised Christian, Baptzied, Christian Wedding, Married a Christian wife, etc. Native American/Irish heritage on my mothers side not sure about my biological father (left before I was born). Some where between 12-14 I began questioning my beliefs, not whether there was a God or if Jesus was the savior because I still believe in God fully and believe Christ died for my sins, but questioning why Christianity was the only correct religion and why others went to Hell and then what if I was wrong about my beliefs and what if I end up in damnation for eternity because I chose wrong. For a while now I have also been questioning religion in general, not God, but organized religion, because it seems people put too much stock in books created by man that are used mostly to control the masses.
Later in life 19-21 somewhere in there I began having dreams that terrified me about a witch in the basment of my parents home. I would continue to have these dreams regularly until 26 when I became friends with a guy who was wiccan. When I told him about my dream he told me she represented knowledge, and thats what I was fearing. Once he told me this, the dreams continued but I was no longer afraid of going into the basement, in my dream. Once in the basement, in my dream, I was faced with Copperhead snakes, which I tried to smash with a weight from my weight bench but failed. The snakes break the weight everytime. Copperheads have been a totem that has stuck with me since then, occassionally biting me in my dreams. My friend told me the reason I am trying to destroy them is that I am afraid of what they are trying to teach and the reason the are appearing over and over is that their message is very important, especially since they are biting. They are not the last though, Bears and Whales, have appeared more than once and spoke to me which he said is very powerful and I sould really pay attention when they appear. Other animals include, sharks, dolphins, jellyfish, otters, panthers, and haws to name a few. For a brief moment I considered becomming pagan but decided against it due to my Christian up bringing and fear of hell. Since then I had a dream where I was in a crowd of witches who were dancing and practicing, when a red haired female in a red robe turned to me and said isn't it beautiful, pointing to a pentagram in the sky and then she said that ot was okay to believe what I want. This made me more confused, on one hand I had my traditional belief and on the other I had myself telling me to make my own decision. My friend told me that my dream was right and that it was okay to mak emy own decision. My friend and I have parted ways since then with little chance of a reunion so discussing religions with him anymore is out of the question.
A couple years ago I began trying astral projection with no success. (Unable to focus) One night while attempting this, a Native american came to me in my head and told me to be patient, it comes with time. He was very real and was there clear as day. I believe he was my spirit guide and chose the form of a native American because of my ancestory. He only appeared this one time and has never been back. Recently I have been trying to contact them with no luck.
last year, my final class for school was a Eastern Religions course. I found after this course that I could relate to Eastern Beliefs, especially Buddhism and hinduism. This newfound knowledge did not help in my confusion.
Now, What I do believe. I believe in God, one God. I believe the Christian God is the same as the Jewish God, Pagan Gods/Goddess, native American Gods, etc. I believe that Jesus died for my sins and that he was the Son of God. I believe that Jesus could have been Buddha, Muhammed, or any other religious figure. This comes from the belief in one God. I believe the Bible is full of good stories and can teach great lessions, but it is not the direct word of God but more a written testament created by men seeking power. I do not believe that Christianity is the only belief that is right but believe that all beliefs are right to their believers. I am still confused about my own beliefs and still fear damnation if I am wrong.
Now for the questions:
Am I the only one who is this confused or have you been just as confused?
How did you make your decision about your belief?
If you are a Christian, do you believe I am going to Hell?
What would my belief be classified as?
Please offer any insight and do not worry, you are not going to offend me at all.\
Thanks for any help and sorry for the long post and any typos/grammatical errors, i am very tired.
*Edit*
Essentially, I can relate to Christianity, Paganism, Shamanism, Buddhism, Hinduism, Judaism, as well as others.
I am 28, male, married. Was raised Christian, Baptzied, Christian Wedding, Married a Christian wife, etc. Native American/Irish heritage on my mothers side not sure about my biological father (left before I was born). Some where between 12-14 I began questioning my beliefs, not whether there was a God or if Jesus was the savior because I still believe in God fully and believe Christ died for my sins, but questioning why Christianity was the only correct religion and why others went to Hell and then what if I was wrong about my beliefs and what if I end up in damnation for eternity because I chose wrong. For a while now I have also been questioning religion in general, not God, but organized religion, because it seems people put too much stock in books created by man that are used mostly to control the masses.
Later in life 19-21 somewhere in there I began having dreams that terrified me about a witch in the basment of my parents home. I would continue to have these dreams regularly until 26 when I became friends with a guy who was wiccan. When I told him about my dream he told me she represented knowledge, and thats what I was fearing. Once he told me this, the dreams continued but I was no longer afraid of going into the basement, in my dream. Once in the basement, in my dream, I was faced with Copperhead snakes, which I tried to smash with a weight from my weight bench but failed. The snakes break the weight everytime. Copperheads have been a totem that has stuck with me since then, occassionally biting me in my dreams. My friend told me the reason I am trying to destroy them is that I am afraid of what they are trying to teach and the reason the are appearing over and over is that their message is very important, especially since they are biting. They are not the last though, Bears and Whales, have appeared more than once and spoke to me which he said is very powerful and I sould really pay attention when they appear. Other animals include, sharks, dolphins, jellyfish, otters, panthers, and haws to name a few. For a brief moment I considered becomming pagan but decided against it due to my Christian up bringing and fear of hell. Since then I had a dream where I was in a crowd of witches who were dancing and practicing, when a red haired female in a red robe turned to me and said isn't it beautiful, pointing to a pentagram in the sky and then she said that ot was okay to believe what I want. This made me more confused, on one hand I had my traditional belief and on the other I had myself telling me to make my own decision. My friend told me that my dream was right and that it was okay to mak emy own decision. My friend and I have parted ways since then with little chance of a reunion so discussing religions with him anymore is out of the question.
A couple years ago I began trying astral projection with no success. (Unable to focus) One night while attempting this, a Native american came to me in my head and told me to be patient, it comes with time. He was very real and was there clear as day. I believe he was my spirit guide and chose the form of a native American because of my ancestory. He only appeared this one time and has never been back. Recently I have been trying to contact them with no luck.
last year, my final class for school was a Eastern Religions course. I found after this course that I could relate to Eastern Beliefs, especially Buddhism and hinduism. This newfound knowledge did not help in my confusion.
Now, What I do believe. I believe in God, one God. I believe the Christian God is the same as the Jewish God, Pagan Gods/Goddess, native American Gods, etc. I believe that Jesus died for my sins and that he was the Son of God. I believe that Jesus could have been Buddha, Muhammed, or any other religious figure. This comes from the belief in one God. I believe the Bible is full of good stories and can teach great lessions, but it is not the direct word of God but more a written testament created by men seeking power. I do not believe that Christianity is the only belief that is right but believe that all beliefs are right to their believers. I am still confused about my own beliefs and still fear damnation if I am wrong.
Now for the questions:
Am I the only one who is this confused or have you been just as confused?
How did you make your decision about your belief?
If you are a Christian, do you believe I am going to Hell?
What would my belief be classified as?
Please offer any insight and do not worry, you are not going to offend me at all.\
Thanks for any help and sorry for the long post and any typos/grammatical errors, i am very tired.
*Edit*
Essentially, I can relate to Christianity, Paganism, Shamanism, Buddhism, Hinduism, Judaism, as well as others.
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