My only reason for living

[The Transcended Omniverse]

The only thing that makes my life worth living is me being happy and enjoying my life and my hobbies. This happiness and enjoyment is a brain faculty that always needs to be fully intact so that I can be motivated (driven), inspired, happy, and enjoy my life and hobbies. This brain faculty is what is known as the 'reward system.' The Nucleus Accumbens is a brain region that gives a person these experiences.

This reward system is what animals rely and depend upon in order to make their lives and their goals/pursuits worth living for and worth pursuing. When you have two sets of mice in a laboratory: one set being anhedonic and depressed while the other set having a fully functional and healthy reward system, then you can see how the former set of mice give up on everything and don't engage much in activities while the other set is fully engaged in activities.

The reward system is vital and I need it fully functional and intact to make my life worth living just like how those mice need it to make their lives worth living. If this area of my brain becomes damaged due to something such as an autoimmune disease attacking my brain, a stroke, or some other type of brain defect to where I am depressed/anhedonic and can no longer experience any happiness, enjoyment, and motivation, then that is it for me. If this damage is permanent and I can never get those experiences of happiness, enjoyment, and motivation back to me, then I am done living and I would take myself out of this life.

You must understand here that those experiences are the very source of making everything in my life worth living for. If you take away that source, then I have nothing left to make my life worth living. Things alone in of themselves cannot make my life worth living; I need my experiences of happiness, enjoyment, and motivation to make those things in my life worth living for. Unpleasant feelings of motivation such as fear will not make my life worth living. They are awful experiences and will do me no good.

Lastly, it would be complete and utter nonsense for any person out there to frown upon me and call me names such as selfish simply because I would give up living without my happiness and enjoyment. I do care about my family and others. If I didn't, then I would be someone like a psychopath who would harm and torture others. But I help my mom out when she asks me to, I display a kind attitude towards her and others, and I help her out when she is sick.

So I clearly do care. But when you go and take away what makes my personal life worth living which would be my happiness and enjoyment and expect me to live such a life that isn't worth living to me at all, then that is when you have gone too far. It would be the most inconsiderate thing for anyone to tell me in such a situation:

"Just deal with it and stop being so selfish."

I know that nobody in my family would say that to me since they do care and are considerate of me. But as I was saying, for anybody else out there to frown upon me and call me names for not wanting to live in such a situation would be no different than if I went into a dentist center, was recruited as a dentist, and I then replied to these dentists and said:

"I don't want to be a dentist. I have no interest and no value in this career. So I am just going to leave now."

For these dentists to become angry at me would be complete nonsense since they should understand that this is a career that I have no value or interest in. Therefore, me living a life without my happiness and enjoyment is no different. It would be complete and utter nonsense for anybody to frown upon me and call me selfish or any other name. They should understand that any other way of life that excludes my happiness and enjoyment is a life of no value to me. It is the most empty and miserable life to me and I would give up and leave such a life.

This reward system is the only thing that can give me the experience of happiness, drive, and enjoyment. Nothing else can. So I have to make sure that I don't develop clinical depression to where you are depressed for no reason throughout the day, I have to make sure that my brain is healthy so that my reward system does not get damaged or harmed, and I always have to make sure that my reward system is fully functional and healthy since this is the only way my life can be worth living.

 

[Spiderman]

My only reason for living is I believe God is gonna guide me and make sure I accomplish his plan.

Hurry up Mr. God. Quit being a poor Shepherd. I know you're reading this!

If I knew there was no God or that He wouldn't guide me, I'd kill myself. I'm sorry, it's just how my brain is wired.

 

[Father Heathen]

If I knew there was no God or that He wouldn't guide me, I'd kill myself. I'm sorry, it's just how my brain is wired.

"If Smokey the Bear isn't real, I see no reason to prevent wild fires."

 

[Spiderman]

"If Smokey the Bear isn't real, I see no reason to prevent wild fires."

I have found life to be repulsive and suicide appeals to me. To alleviate suffering costs money and effort I just don't have or care to put forth.

I find life and this world disgusting and want out. I've received many signs that there is a God and he/she is to a certain extent guiding me, and there is potential he/she will transform me and better guide me in the future. That gives me sufficient reason to go on living.

If I knew there was no God I'd try to kill myself again. I'm currently in a mental health facility for laying down on the train tracks at night in front of an oncoming train.

The conductor stopped the train and had me arrested. It is faith in God that my hope lies. Nothing else makes me happy at this time. That's just the way it is

 

[Brickjectivity]

I have found life to be repulsive and suicide appeals to me. To alleviate suffering costs money and effort I just don't have or care to put forth.

I find life and this world disgusting and want out. I've received many signs that there is a God and he/she is to a certain extent guiding me, and there is potential he/she will transform me and better guide me in the future. That gives me sufficient reason to go on living.

If I knew there was no God I'd try to kill myself again. I'm currently in a mental health facility for laying down on the train tracks at night in front of an oncoming train.

The conductor stopped the train and had me arrested. It is faith in God that my hope lies. Nothing else makes me happy at this time. That's just the way it is

I'm sorry to hear that you have been so sad. I believe that you may feel worthy and better.

I still don't get the 'Amish Taliban' thing, but its at least interesting. It makes me think you are some Amish fellow. I don't know if you really are, but those guys are legendary in the construction trades. I hear stories about how they makes their cuts so carefully that from one end of a house to the other there is very little variance.

 

[Spiderman]

I'm sorry to hear that you have been so sad. I believe that you may feel worthy and better.

I still don't get the 'Amish Taliban' thing, but its at least interesting. It makes me think you are some Amish fellow. I don't know if you really are, but those guys are legendary in the construction trades. I hear stories about how they makes their cuts so carefully that from one end of a house to the other there is very little variance.

Lol, I'm not Amish but admire their simplicity.
I experience joy in life but it is joy in prayer to God, Angels, and friends in Heaven.

If that is removed and I become an atheist, my entire source of peace and joy is gone.

I enjoy skiing but no longer can afford it. Everything in this life is complicated and costs money. I need to keep things simple or I go crazy.

 

[Brickjectivity]

Lol, I'm not Amish but admire their simplicity.
I experience joy in life but it is joy in prayer to God, Angels, and friends in Heaven.

If that is removed and I become an atheist, my entire source of peace and joy is gone.

I enjoy skiing but no longer can afford it. Everything in this life is complicated and costs money. I need to keep things simple or I go crazy.

My two skiing experiences were terrible, so I understand how that would make you pray. I prayed constantly that I wouldn't accidentally go down the wrong slope. Also I was using terrible rental ski boots which were painful and caused my knees to be in constant stress. All of this was my own fault, and I should have at least taken ski lessons.

 

[Father Heathen]

I have found life to be repulsive and suicide appeals to me. To alleviate suffering costs money and effort I just don't have or care to put forth.

I find life and this world disgusting and want out. I've received many signs that there is a God and he/she is to a certain extent guiding me, and there is potential he/she will transform me and better guide me in the future. That gives me sufficient reason to go on living.

If I knew there was no God I'd try to kill myself again. I'm currently in a mental health facility for laying down on the train tracks at night in front of an oncoming train.

The conductor stopped the train and had me arrested. It is faith in God that my hope lies. Nothing else makes me happy at this time. That's just the way it is

 

[Spiderman]

That's a funny YouTube...but I find that I get more grace when I pray the rosary and pray to murdered girls than when I pray to Jesus...but that's just me

 

[psychoslice]

My reason is that I am an living organism, that has senses, and when tickled by whatever means, I feel good, so as long as I am being tickled, life is good.

 

[2X4]

The only thing that makes my life worth living is me being happy and enjoying my life and my hobbies. This happiness and enjoyment is a brain faculty that always needs to be fully intact so that I can be motivated (driven), inspired, happy, and enjoy my life and hobbies. This brain faculty is what is known as the 'reward system.' The Nucleus Accumbens is a brain region that gives a person these experiences.

This reward system is what animals rely and depend upon in order to make their lives and their goals/pursuits worth living for and worth pursuing. When you have two sets of mice in a laboratory: one set being anhedonic and depressed while the other set having a fully functional and healthy reward system, then you can see how the former set of mice give up on everything and don't engage much in activities while the other set is fully engaged in activities.

The reward system is vital and I need it fully functional and intact to make my life worth living just like how those mice need it to make their lives worth living. If this area of my brain becomes damaged due to something such as an autoimmune disease attacking my brain, a stroke, or some other type of brain defect to where I am depressed/anhedonic and can no longer experience any happiness, enjoyment, and motivation, then that is it for me. If this damage is permanent and I can never get those experiences of happiness, enjoyment, and motivation back to me, then I am done living and I would take myself out of this life.

You must understand here that those experiences are the very source of making everything in my life worth living for. If you take away that source, then I have nothing left to make my life worth living. Things alone in of themselves cannot make my life worth living; I need my experiences of happiness, enjoyment, and motivation to make those things in my life worth living for. Unpleasant feelings of motivation such as fear will not make my life worth living. They are awful experiences and will do me no good.

Lastly, it would be complete and utter nonsense for any person out there to frown upon me and call me names such as selfish simply because I would give up living without my happiness and enjoyment. I do care about my family and others. If I didn't, then I would be someone like a psychopath who would harm and torture others. But I help my mom out when she asks me to, I display a kind attitude towards her and others, and I help her out when she is sick.

So I clearly do care. But when you go and take away what makes my personal life worth living which would be my happiness and enjoyment and expect me to live such a life that isn't worth living to me at all, then that is when you have gone too far. It would be the most inconsiderate thing for anyone to tell me in such a situation:

"Just deal with it and stop being so selfish."

I know that nobody in my family would say that to me since they do care and are considerate of me. But as I was saying, for anybody else out there to frown upon me and call me names for not wanting to live in such a situation would be no different than if I went into a dentist center, was recruited as a dentist, and I then replied to these dentists and said:

"I don't want to be a dentist. I have no interest and no value in this career. So I am just going to leave now."

For these dentists to become angry at me would be complete nonsense since they should understand that this is a career that I have no value or interest in. Therefore, me living a life without my happiness and enjoyment is no different. It would be complete and utter nonsense for anybody to frown upon me and call me selfish or any other name. They should understand that any other way of life that excludes my happiness and enjoyment is a life of no value to me. It is the most empty and miserable life to me and I would give up and leave such a life.

This reward system is the only thing that can give me the experience of happiness, drive, and enjoyment. Nothing else can. So I have to make sure that I don't develop clinical depression to where you are depressed for no reason throughout the day, I have to make sure that my brain is healthy so that my reward system does not get damaged or harmed, and I always have to make sure that my reward system is fully functional and healthy since this is the only way my life can be worth living.

I know how you feel. I have to constantly engage in some sort of activity as those thoughts just keep rolling in to make me do so. I can't imagine what it's like not to have your thoughts go along with your body. Some people can just sit on the couch all day long and wonder about the future as they stare at the TV.

 

[Straw Dog]

The only thing that makes my life worth living is realizing that it's not really 'my' life to begin with. It doesn't belong to me. Life is not a possession. Life is an act of participation within a precious vast magnitude. We share it and, ultimately, pay it forward.