trablano
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Hello there,
I am a christopagan, that is I believe in Jesus but I also recognize, acknowledge and sometimes seek other gods. Recently I had a trouble with a bad spirit and read a book on Hinduism that mentioned Durga can help against bad spirits. So I prayed to Durga. She helped me and did something with my mind, I soon felt better. But then I heard her speak in my mind, "I expect a sacrifice". I was completely estranged by this, because I was used to Jesus demanding no sacrifices and even speaking against them. But I also heard in my mind, just sacrifice a cigarette and pledge new love to humans. I also heard I should sacrifice 3 bottles of oil. I am afraid of this sacrifice culture and only want to sacrifice love. Even the old crap came back from my evangelical past that indian gods are only demons who want to ensnare me. I prayed to Jehovah and got the illumination that it was not Durga who spoke to me there but an angel doing service for Durga, and she wouldn't have understood me right (I have schizophrenia and was suffering much lately). I also heard I shouldn't take serious the 3 bottles of oil demand.
What do you think? Can I forego on sacrificing food and oil and just sacrifice love for other people? I gave a friend some good coffee yesterday and had a good feeling then. But it's confusing. I am new to polytheism and don't understand hinduism so well. Odin demands no sacrifices either. In the past few days I prayed to ancient hindu god Lord Varuna and he was much gentler with me. I also saw images of that Durga angel with a big tail and monster like body. But she helped me against that demon.
What would you do now?
I am a christopagan, that is I believe in Jesus but I also recognize, acknowledge and sometimes seek other gods. Recently I had a trouble with a bad spirit and read a book on Hinduism that mentioned Durga can help against bad spirits. So I prayed to Durga. She helped me and did something with my mind, I soon felt better. But then I heard her speak in my mind, "I expect a sacrifice". I was completely estranged by this, because I was used to Jesus demanding no sacrifices and even speaking against them. But I also heard in my mind, just sacrifice a cigarette and pledge new love to humans. I also heard I should sacrifice 3 bottles of oil. I am afraid of this sacrifice culture and only want to sacrifice love. Even the old crap came back from my evangelical past that indian gods are only demons who want to ensnare me. I prayed to Jehovah and got the illumination that it was not Durga who spoke to me there but an angel doing service for Durga, and she wouldn't have understood me right (I have schizophrenia and was suffering much lately). I also heard I shouldn't take serious the 3 bottles of oil demand.
What do you think? Can I forego on sacrificing food and oil and just sacrifice love for other people? I gave a friend some good coffee yesterday and had a good feeling then. But it's confusing. I am new to polytheism and don't understand hinduism so well. Odin demands no sacrifices either. In the past few days I prayed to ancient hindu god Lord Varuna and he was much gentler with me. I also saw images of that Durga angel with a big tail and monster like body. But she helped me against that demon.
What would you do now?