It's like looking in a mirror at my prior self...
Jesus Christ saved from from Luciferianism and the LHP. I walked that way for many years and it only brought me ruin; ruin dressed up as sucesss. I always had another rung to climb on the ladder, another stone to step on in order to get to the big prize. It was always a little more, a bit longer, after this lesson or after this milestone, and you know what? It was all a big con, a game, a ruse. There was indeed an end destination but it was destruction and not in the gnostic sense either. It was destruction, lifeless, empty, mindless... destruction.
I recall the dogma. Yes, light was the invader, darkness was true and it came first. Darkness was alive, sentient, and light was false. It was always about reversal; the darkness was the true light, Lucifer was the only god who mattered, and pain became pleasure the mundane were too weak to understand. Morality became a stumbling block, invented to placate the masses. It was a world in reverse. Bad was good, good was stifling and sterile. Everything was permitted (not really) and my mind descend into a lawless realm where the height of human experience and endeavor was reduced to every foul lust and depravity around the sun.