hey everyone,
I've decided I'm going to be taking a break from RF for a while. I've had depression for nearly seven and a half years now and the way I currently use RF (and the internet) is simply unhealthy and swallows up hours and days as the Internet enables me to escape from my problems. Of course, they won't solve themselves so it is all an illusion and "real life" is still there everytime I log off. It's been a habit I've wanted to kick for some time but it's only now I've found the strength to make that effort.
The past few months I have started to get the sense that I can put depression behind me and have made some very real progress, even if it has been one day at a time. I will probably be on here on and off, just to see how everyone's doing, but I'm expecting that
this break will last until the start of July, when I celebrate my 27th Birthday on the 13th and at least feel I've made a real effort. it's not forever, though it may feel like it.
As much as I feel like **** because of how much I will miss you all, "now" feels like that moment to take that first step and go and make something of myself. hopefully when I get back it will be with a very wide grin on my face and one hell of a life in front of me.
If you could not burn this place down in my absence that would be cool. As we're all responsible adults and I wouldn't want to leave you empty handed, I'm sure I can trust you with
Best Wishes,
Laika.
