Okay, I feel like I've hijacked this thread for my own general ranting but... right now I'm just asking if everyone could just pray for me, keep me in their thoughts, light a candle, do a happy naked Pagan dance, anything. Please. I need support, I can't get through this on my own.
I think we've discovered one disease that can explain... just about everything that is wrong with me, from my back to my irregular mensutral cycles to my kidney stone to my mental health. I've spent the last day since I found out about this just... crying. I have an appointment with the Health Center on campus, hopefully on Monday- it depends on how fast they can fit me in, with an advice nurse who can send me referrals in the right directions.
I'm just so scared and so hopeful that this will be end of this medical circus that my entire life has been.
I think that what really just... really got through through to me is that if this is what this is... I could be cured. I won't be in pain all the time. I won't be in a wheelchair in a few years. I won't go from these exteme euphorias to having a panic attack from just leaving the house and missing class to lay under my bed and cry. I could have children.
I could be cured.