The dude called conscious thoughts who may or may not exist.

[Spirit of Light]

It does not feel as existence..it does not "feels" like anything.

Hearing sounds, seeing activity but not reactiting to it any more. It is not part of Conscious thoughts.

Body is not mine...it is only borrowed for the physical life.

Being but not being living but not living

To many questions and so few answers.

To explain it? Not possible at the moment.

Maybe I am going crazy

Split personality the conscious thoughts who thinking of the conscious thoughts that isnt a conscious thought any more...oh ohhhh

 

[Gargovic Malkav]

Depersonalization?

 

[Spirit of Light]

Depersonalization?

To degree, yes.
Except has not lost control over actions i do. In that part i am still in control.
But I do more often see situations as if "the I" is outside of the body

 

[Spirit of Light]

To degree, yes.
Except has not lost control over actions i do. In that part i am still in control.
But I do more often see situations as if "the I" is outside of the body

Just to add to my own answer, to make it clear

I have not gotten the diagnose of depersonalization ( yes that is a real diagnosis) and yes I do go to a team of experts just to rule out any mental disorder

 

[Gargovic Malkav]

Are you content with your meat puppet, and the movie he plays in?

 

[Spirit of Light]

Are you content with your meat puppet, and the movie he plays in?

WUT that one need an explanation me do not understand

The body you mean...it does what I think

 

[ChristineM]

It does not feel as existence..it does not "feels" like anything.

Hearing sounds, seeing activity but not reactiting to it any more. It is not part of Conscious thoughts.

Body is not mine...it is only borrowed for the physical life.

Being but not being living but not living

To many questions and so few answers.

To explain it? Not possible at the moment.

Maybe I am going crazy

Split personality the conscious thoughts who thinking of the conscious thoughts that isnt a conscious thought any more...oh ohhhh

Take a pin, sterilise it, jab it in your butt. If you shout "ouch" you are real and the rest is just your mind having fun with reality.

P.s. Not recommended for real people

 

[Spirit of Light]

Take a pin, sterilise it, jab it in your but. If you shout "ouch" you are real and the rest is just your mind having fun with reality

is the pain "mine"...No pain is only caused by the pin.

 

[Gargovic Malkav]

WUT that one need an explanation me do not understand

The body you mean...it does what I think

What I basically said was: "How's (worldly) life?"

 

[Spirit of Light]

What I basically said was: "How's (worldly) life?"

A struggle

 

[ChristineM]

is the pain "mine"...No pain is only caused by the pin.

I can assure you, if you feel physical pain (been there, done that) then yes it is your pain to own

 

[RestlessSoul]

Eckhart Tolle described as an epiphany, a moment when he despaired and thought "I can't live with myself anymore". He then began to wonder, "Who is this 'I', that cannot live with this 'self'?" and began to un peal the layers of consciousness that were illusory, from that which is real and enduring.

He describes the process in more detail in The Power of Now.

 

[RestlessSoul]

I can assure you, if you feel physical pain (been there, done that) then yes it is your pain to own

You can, nonetheless, detach from pain, both emotional and physical.

 

[Nimos]

To degree, yes.
Except has not lost control over actions i do. In that part i am still in control.
But I do more often see situations as if "the I" is outside of the body

If you are outside the body, then who are you? That doesn't really seem to make logical sense.

Also shouldn't this be true for everyone?

 

[ChristineM]

You can, nonetheless, detach from pain, both emotional and physical.

Have you tried it?

I have, both emotional and physical. With emotional pain it drains your personality into deep depression. And physical pain just doesn't go away no matter what people tell you

 

[Spirit of Light]

If you are outside the body, then who are you? That doesn't really seem to make logical sense.

Also shouldn't this be true for everyone?

It does not make sensev to me too

 

[VoidCat]

Have you tried it?

I have, both emotional and physical. With emotional pain it drains your personality into deep depression. And physical pain just doesn't go away no matter what people tell you

I don't know about @RestlessSoul but I have issues with disassocation and derealization. When I disassociate and there's pain most the time the pain doesn't go away but I do feel detached from it. Other times im so lost disassocating I don't notice it at all. Sometimes when it comes to emotional pain I just feel nothing and that I don't really exist that it's not really happening. I also disassociate in other situations everyday ones that I shouldn't disassociate with. Like while I'm walking near the road and about to cross sometimes I disassociate and don't realize im about to walk into traffic.

 

[Gargovic Malkav]

I don't know about @RestlessSoul but I have issues with disassocation and derealization. When I disassociate and there's pain most the time the pain doesn't go away but I do feel detached from it. Other times im so lost disassocating I don't notice it at all. Sometones when it comes to emotional pain I just feel nothing and that I don't really exist that it's not really happening. I also disassociate in other situations everyday ones that I shouldn't disassociate with. Like while I'm walking near the road and about to cross sometimes I disassociate and don't realize im about to walk into traffic.

Do you have a tendency to daydream or get too focused on certain details causing you to lose sense of other stimuli?

 

[VoidCat]

Do you have a tendency to daydream or get too focused on certain details causing you to lose sense of other stimuli?

Not exactly daydream. Rather my brain just shuts off. Like it just shuts off Or it just starts floating and being foggy. Sometimes I do get too focus on certain details and go away into my mind. I have a lot of trauma. If a memory gets triggered say bye bye to me. And I'm autistic so sometimes I have to disassociate so not to get sensory overload. But also I just do it quite often for no reason that I can think of.

 

[VoidCat]

Not exactly daydream. Rather my brain just shuts off. Like it just shuts off Or it just starts floating and being foggy. Sometimes I do get too focus on certain details and go away into my mind. I have a lot of trauma. If a memory gets triggered say bye bye to me. And I'm autistic so sometimes I have to disassociate so not to get sensory overload. But also I just do it quite often for no reason that I can think of.

Oh and I have large gaps in my memory. Just in general. I think it's due to disassociation.