I have thought of that. I'm always going to have depressive episodes, I'll always have anxiety. But I do actively participate in treatment, and I already know that once I get moved and get insured, I didn't want to start going back to a therapist but there may likely come a day when I'm on edge--just because it happens--and I'll need that channel to help me safely through and help make the journey back not so rough.
I'm also finding that getting permission to just be myself and finding some confidence has been eroding a "censor gate" in my head, like I also inadvertently let go of exerting such effort into controlling my emotions. It's a weird good thing/bad thing because I'm getting my wish of not having so much control and being able to let someone know I don't like them, they pissed me off, and I'm pissed about it.