I realized there has been twice I've been in a group where a Christian presence or even just a prayer was warned about and required group approval.
Amd that it might probably just be the reason 1984 freaks me out like it does because I myself was abused and traumatized by a cult (Southern Baptist) with doublethink, thoughtcrime, a crude amd self inflicted form of Newspeak, amd centralized totalitarian who sees all, is the sole arbiter of reality and what's right and wrong, has a n extremely strict and impossible list of rules, and is quick to accuse, eager to abuse, demamds death for petty and trivial "crimes," takes the slightest transgression as a personal offense, and despite the abuses and authoritarian nature this central figure loves you, wants you to love him, amd peacefully coexist for all eternity but only if you render yourself incapable of independent thought. Amd while Jehovah may not have the thugs and goons to enforce his way like most cults, he has the instructive threat to not fear those who can destroy the body but fear the one who can destroy the body amd soul in Hell.