Keeping in mind you don't like long posts....This is a long post, but not all of it is for you.
I live in Saint Paul. Who was called Saul....like King Saul. Paul is the Latin equivalent for Saul. Saint Paul was from the tribe of Benjamin, as was King Saul.
King David was actually never supposed to be King. The Prophet Sam was supposed to pick a king, and the Dynasty had to be with the tribe of Benjamin, the son of Jacob's right hand. It was suppossed to be an eternal dynasty from the tribe of Benjamin.
The Sin of Saul, destroyed that, but David, Man after God's own heart, did things worse in my opinion. In ways that killed a very holy man to avoid him finding out he got his wife pregnant. And pestilence that killed tens of thousands, and civil wars in his kingdom, it seemed like a bigger disaster than Saul. But David had noble qualities as well, repented very well, had virtues that Saul did not.
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Queen Esther descended from the unfit King Saul, (tribe of Benjamin, wolf, Jacob's right hand) whose failure caused the eternal Kingdom to be replaced by a king from the Lion tribe of Judah (David...man after God's own heart).
However, the suicide , King Saul, gave us a Messiah as well.
A
female , Queen Esther, his descendent. She converted a King with Dictator power, who was as antisemetic as Adolf Hitler. He was going to have a more thorough holocaust than Nazi Germany. He didn't want them fed or taken to camps, just every Jewish/Hebrew man, woman , and child , was to be put to the sword , the gallows, fed to lions, or other execution....(a thorough, quick, 100% extermination).
Queen Esther, after fasting and doing harsh penances, humbling herself to the dust, went forth to greet the King at a time she was not permitted, told him that she had been deceiving him, that the name Esther was to hide her Hebrew identity , that she was an orphan essentially selling herself to him for political power.
Still, he admired her courage, loved her more than any Iranian woman, made her Queen of Iran, hung her enemy Haman ( hanged
Haman on the
gallows that he had prepared for Mordecai.), and the King gave the
Queen possession of the military and government, to kill as many Iranians as she felt were a threat to her people. His desire for killing every Jew in the Persian Empire, switched to the extreme opposite, by the love, the courage, the priceless treasure he saw in one Hebrew woman (Savior).... an orphan, not following God's laws, rewarded for breaking them, to stop an extermination, and vanquish antisemetism. In the region by law and in many hearts.
More than 2,000 years later, today, Iran is the biggest threat to Israel, but the only first world, wealthy, Muslim theocracy, where the law is supposed to protect synagogues and houses of prayer, + Persian Jewish communities , only because of Queen Esther. There would be as many Synagogues in Iran as there are in Saudi Arabia, (none) were it not for Queen Esther, and the love that many Iranian Muslims still have for her.
She inspired a man from her country (Iran) named Cyrus, to conquer Babylon, and build the temple, end captivity of Jews in all the lands he occupied, in the biggest Empire that had existed up until then. In Isaiah 45, Yahweh calls Cyrus "My messiah, the anointed one (christ), "although you do not know me, I will give you knowledge, hiden secrets, powers, and victories that I have never given to anyone".
But there would have never been any Cyrus , the Messiah the Jews accepted, that Yahweh verified as Messiah (who fulfilled prophecies about what the Messiah is supposed to do, that even Jesus did not fulfill), without Queen Esther. So, she truly was a Messiah, from the tribe of Benjamin.
I can share with you why I feel the Messiah actually would more resemble Cyrus than Jesus, even if Jesus did fulfill prophecy, and Cyrus was not a lamb of God , suffering servant, whose blood atoned for sin....but the other prophecies of the Messiah, my reasonings for Queen Esther and Cyrus being far greater peacemakers, something the average person would be drawn to more than Jesus. My hope comes more from them, and the tribe of Benjamin over Judah.
@RabbiO wonders if I should be in a straight jacket
, but I have faith one day Rabbi, maybe 100 years from now, you will believe, know, any doubts you have in my sincerety, are false (even if you don't care) truth will come out in a way that it is total clarity, obvious, and people can read my soul for , know what my intentions are.... that it is out of compassion I say these things, that it is love for Israel and the Jewish People, my interactions with the tribes,....
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Rachel's tears Jeremiah 31:15 Thus saith the Lord: “A voice was heard in Ramah, lamentation and bitter weeping;
Rachel, weeping for her children, refused to be comforted for her children, because they were no more.” Rachel is depicted , in the world of the dead, in art work she is surrounded by martyrs, criticisizing yahweh as having less virtue than herself (and most people).....Rachel died giving birth to Benjamin. God multiplied women's labor pains so it was very common
.... and more .....that tells me there is very toxic, abusive words , crimes against Israel, and the lord expressing desire to exterminate over 99% of his people (worse than third reich) for not trusting, fear, lack of faith....right after he told them how much he loved them, and killed a bunch of Egyptian children and babies to show it ....
I believe I have encountered Jacob, Israel, Rebecca, Queen Esther, living in spirit, weaving destiny, interceding, fighting to get control of heaven, restrain the wrath of a monster.... many heroes from scripture, and that salvation is from the Jews...
(But Israel means "Contender with God, and that will be how they save the world)....
after my Dad's kidnap of us to raise us illegally in another country, my mom got custody, we were raised in a Jewish household, stars of David, Menorah candles, ceremonies and songs in hebrew, the greetings for hello, good by, peace be with you, wasView attachment 93598Shalom! etc. Mom and my sister and step dad primarily kept Shabbot. I admire the lighting of the candles friday night, and the hebrew , very musical moments , celebrations for times in biblical history where Yahweh was faithful....I was sometimes....argumentative....
But, I do not believe Israel (Jacob) or ancient spirits that love Israel would want Jews to follow the God who inspired some of those abusive , harsh, violent words, threats, terror, or killing 70,000 of them with pestilence, because David took a census God didn't like.
ANd Yahweh caused civil wars for David's sin. David said "why don't you just kill me? Why do you punnish these people who are not guilty. I am the guilty one"!
Many verses in Scripture have made it unsafe to be a Jew, difficult to assimilate, fuel terrorist organizations ( century after century), scriptures mostly in the Old Testament fuel antisemitism, act like the killing of the prophets is something more likely among Jews.
It hurts more to be accused of antisemitism from those I love and would most like to see help Jacob and Rebecca offer them the world the true God. I can see, it's hard to explain, Jacob / Israel, in his devotion to the right woman, in his defeating the enemy God.... had it.
"And I shall bless
those blessing you, and those cursing you I shall curse, and in you and in your seed all the generations of the Earth shall be
blessed." Genesis 12:3
I obviously fervently believe that. And I have studied Jacob "Contender, fighter with God". I have insight about it. I see a false God leading Jacob's descendants , claiming to be the one who loves them, with behavior that shows the extreme opposite.
I thank Israel for my faith. It's what I live by. Altruism. I thank Rebecca, Queen Esther, and many of the females who died tragically that I buy flowers for, votive candles, try to avoid sin to please them...they are certified Rebeccas. My surname is an alternative for Jack, Jacob. I am in debt. They speak through coincidence, locution, dreams, pentecostal moments....
I would be dead without it. And I want Yahweh happy and non abusive, not tempted with genocide , pride, jealousy, or bullying someday. Much of scripture is breathed by a good spirit. Jerusalem is mentioned roughly 600 times...a woman with abundant breasts, milk of comfort, who will play with you, in Jerusalem you shall find your comfort. Isaiah 66....
That is how you know the same spirit did not inspire the Quran, because Jerusalem is not mentioned once in the Quran....If a man has a love and attachment for a woman for that many centuries, even if she gets a restraining order, or they break up, there is a bind, and he will talk about her, because they were one and she became a part of him through centuries of Divine sacramental, matrimony bind.
So, he didn't inspire the Quran. Many spirits, claiming to be God, Yahweh, Allah.... And I hope and pray they all be redeemed someday.
And the abusive ones who kill children, get help!
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