Thruve
Sheppard for the Die Hard
Spiritually, though I know im on a journey, reading this in reference to an on going storm of mine from the heavens makes me feel wicked, as these verses are described to the wicked O-O
Job 20:13-27
"His bones are full of his youthful vigor, But it lies down with him in the dust. Though evil is sweet in his mouth And he hides it under his tongue, Though he desires it and will not let it go, But holds it in his mouth, Yet his food in his stomach is changed To the venom of cobras within him. He swallows riches, But will vomit them up; God will expel them from his belly. He sucks the poison of cobras; The viper's tongue slays him. He does not look at the streams, The rivers flowing with honey and curds
He returns what he has attained And cannot swallow it; As to the riches of his trading, He cannot even enjoy them, Therefore his prosperity does not endure. In the fullness of his plenty he will be cramped; The hand of everyone who suffers will come against him. When he fills his belly, God will send His fierce anger on him And will rain it on him while he is eating. He may flee from the iron weapon, But the bronze bow will pierce him. It is drawn forth and comes out of his back, Even the glittering point from his gall. Terrors come upon him,Complete darkness is held in reserve for his treasures, And unfanned fire will devour him; It will consume the survivor in his tent. The heavens will reveal his iniquity, And the earth will rise up against him. The increase of his house will depart; His possessions will flow away in the day of His anger"
Please tell me others of you can attest that you've been on this path. I need advice, for this is the current path I am on during this long lasting storm that won't cease. It's not as simple as just letting go, and yet if its more complicated, Im all ears. For me, my desire surely sits in the corners of my mouth, but its the evil, and the sin that lets me know I've attained that desire, and clearly, for me, thats the culprit. The evil and sin of the desire is nothing more than reassurance, and the reason why I eat crumbs when I can is because Im constantly thinking that God cannot condition me to have it without needing the associated sins and evils for reassurance. I don't believe god to be that.. understanding of our humanly ways.
Ill demonstrate, but obviously ill use a different example.
Let's say within your youth you suffered greatly because of your parents financial issues. Naturally, it more than likely became a desire for you to be financially secure. Over your teen years you fight for it, doing fabulous in school, getting into a University, and eventually obtaining a great career to which you financially can support yourself and a large family. You've obtained what you desired. Now, a storm comes along and shakes your world entirely. From the rain You learn of your sins and evil doing in the midst's of the days you dwell'ed upon that to which you clung to for so long. The waves knock you down as you learn you lost the wealth from whatever unforseen reason, lets say your business got sued to the ground for something you couldn't control. You chase the winds that tell you your wealth will be preserved and the law suit will work in your favor. Before the storms over, however, The evil and sin you've done is your reassurance that you still have that to which you've suffered for for so long, and fought for.
Theres two ways I can interpret this.
A)To overcome the desire entirely you have to lose it. You can't lose it if you don't have it. Thats scary to think about.
B) Your suffering counter balances your sins in the eyes of god, since by will it would have been all his doing. The ending results are unknown to me, but im praying its option B with a happy ending.
Option B is whats keeping the desire within my mouth. Go figure -.-
Im wondering if letting go is the ONLY way counter the sins and evil associated with desires, and the aftereffect i would imagine is the same for everyone. The truth about this though, is also scary for me O-O
Heres... the thing though, And this is where the old testament (jobs) leads to a messiah, how does Jesus, and taking a cross, play into it all. Thats what I fear too, because I don't want a cross to carry if it means someone else is going to pay the price. What happens after? Dam dude.. someone please explain from experience lol.. I am so dam close.. but yet so far away..
Need.. halp.. from an experienced christian who carrys a cross.. to which jesus has redeemed and freed.
Job 20:13-27
"His bones are full of his youthful vigor, But it lies down with him in the dust. Though evil is sweet in his mouth And he hides it under his tongue, Though he desires it and will not let it go, But holds it in his mouth, Yet his food in his stomach is changed To the venom of cobras within him. He swallows riches, But will vomit them up; God will expel them from his belly. He sucks the poison of cobras; The viper's tongue slays him. He does not look at the streams, The rivers flowing with honey and curds
He returns what he has attained And cannot swallow it; As to the riches of his trading, He cannot even enjoy them, Therefore his prosperity does not endure. In the fullness of his plenty he will be cramped; The hand of everyone who suffers will come against him. When he fills his belly, God will send His fierce anger on him And will rain it on him while he is eating. He may flee from the iron weapon, But the bronze bow will pierce him. It is drawn forth and comes out of his back, Even the glittering point from his gall. Terrors come upon him,Complete darkness is held in reserve for his treasures, And unfanned fire will devour him; It will consume the survivor in his tent. The heavens will reveal his iniquity, And the earth will rise up against him. The increase of his house will depart; His possessions will flow away in the day of His anger"
Please tell me others of you can attest that you've been on this path. I need advice, for this is the current path I am on during this long lasting storm that won't cease. It's not as simple as just letting go, and yet if its more complicated, Im all ears. For me, my desire surely sits in the corners of my mouth, but its the evil, and the sin that lets me know I've attained that desire, and clearly, for me, thats the culprit. The evil and sin of the desire is nothing more than reassurance, and the reason why I eat crumbs when I can is because Im constantly thinking that God cannot condition me to have it without needing the associated sins and evils for reassurance. I don't believe god to be that.. understanding of our humanly ways.
Ill demonstrate, but obviously ill use a different example.
Let's say within your youth you suffered greatly because of your parents financial issues. Naturally, it more than likely became a desire for you to be financially secure. Over your teen years you fight for it, doing fabulous in school, getting into a University, and eventually obtaining a great career to which you financially can support yourself and a large family. You've obtained what you desired. Now, a storm comes along and shakes your world entirely. From the rain You learn of your sins and evil doing in the midst's of the days you dwell'ed upon that to which you clung to for so long. The waves knock you down as you learn you lost the wealth from whatever unforseen reason, lets say your business got sued to the ground for something you couldn't control. You chase the winds that tell you your wealth will be preserved and the law suit will work in your favor. Before the storms over, however, The evil and sin you've done is your reassurance that you still have that to which you've suffered for for so long, and fought for.
Theres two ways I can interpret this.
A)To overcome the desire entirely you have to lose it. You can't lose it if you don't have it. Thats scary to think about.
B) Your suffering counter balances your sins in the eyes of god, since by will it would have been all his doing. The ending results are unknown to me, but im praying its option B with a happy ending.
Option B is whats keeping the desire within my mouth. Go figure -.-
Im wondering if letting go is the ONLY way counter the sins and evil associated with desires, and the aftereffect i would imagine is the same for everyone. The truth about this though, is also scary for me O-O
Heres... the thing though, And this is where the old testament (jobs) leads to a messiah, how does Jesus, and taking a cross, play into it all. Thats what I fear too, because I don't want a cross to carry if it means someone else is going to pay the price. What happens after? Dam dude.. someone please explain from experience lol.. I am so dam close.. but yet so far away..
Need.. halp.. from an experienced christian who carrys a cross.. to which jesus has redeemed and freed.
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