Twilight Hue
Twilight, not bright nor dark, good nor bad.
Well finally an opportunity arose to poke my nose back into the forum and wished to impart some commentary.
Three weeks ago my company cut me loose and am now engauged in otr trucking as a solo driver and discovered just how this particular industry tests ones Zen practice in almost every aspect. For those familier, or have engauged in this profession first hand will tell you this is not something for everyone.
Up to this point i think i just went through just about every emotional and phyiscal nuance thus far.
Im by myself.
I already threatend to quit.
I thought i was going to die in the mountains when i started to slip in snow conditions.
I miss my family dearly.
Im afraid of the elements with an 80,000 thousand pound 70 foot long truck and navigating this thing through just about every kind of situation.
There is a consistant apprehension present weither it is strange places or situations
unknown that plays inside the head.
Speaking of the head you might be surprised what the mind thinks up while out there.
I also have better experiences like the enjoyment of the open road.
Interesting places and people.
Good driving record so far in that my start is 7000 miles accident free with the hopes my profession will lead me to the million mile mark before i retire.
I like Johnny Cash songs.
The smell of diesel.
My truck looks great. It's a black peterbuilt with twin stacks. Nice.
Decent pay for a change. I just doubled my pay from my last job.
All this has made me realise that Zen practice is no good unless it it gets sorely tested in real life outside the zendo and faced with a multitude of situations that puts that practice to the test. Then you will actually know where you stand and weither it's been effective.
My gratitude to those who have taught me and to those compassionate nudges in life shaping up the results to this point.
Thanks to Zen Buddhism I think i can deal with the long distance trucking profession.
Long road to go still..... i suspect at this point there is no real end to this path.
Thanks folks.
Three weeks ago my company cut me loose and am now engauged in otr trucking as a solo driver and discovered just how this particular industry tests ones Zen practice in almost every aspect. For those familier, or have engauged in this profession first hand will tell you this is not something for everyone.
Up to this point i think i just went through just about every emotional and phyiscal nuance thus far.
Im by myself.
I already threatend to quit.
I thought i was going to die in the mountains when i started to slip in snow conditions.
I miss my family dearly.
Im afraid of the elements with an 80,000 thousand pound 70 foot long truck and navigating this thing through just about every kind of situation.
There is a consistant apprehension present weither it is strange places or situations
unknown that plays inside the head.
Speaking of the head you might be surprised what the mind thinks up while out there.
I also have better experiences like the enjoyment of the open road.
Interesting places and people.
Good driving record so far in that my start is 7000 miles accident free with the hopes my profession will lead me to the million mile mark before i retire.
I like Johnny Cash songs.
The smell of diesel.
My truck looks great. It's a black peterbuilt with twin stacks. Nice.
Decent pay for a change. I just doubled my pay from my last job.
All this has made me realise that Zen practice is no good unless it it gets sorely tested in real life outside the zendo and faced with a multitude of situations that puts that practice to the test. Then you will actually know where you stand and weither it's been effective.
My gratitude to those who have taught me and to those compassionate nudges in life shaping up the results to this point.
Thanks to Zen Buddhism I think i can deal with the long distance trucking profession.
Long road to go still..... i suspect at this point there is no real end to this path.
Thanks folks.