That is my only reason for sticking around in this life. If I was not an agnostic and thought that there was no afterlife, then I would just give up on this life immediately and take myself out of it right here and now. Even though I am kind towards my family, the fact that they would grieve over my suicide will not change anything.
As an agnostic, your only reason for living is your mild faith in a magical place to live after you die??
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You may need to rethink your position, and your reason for living, for that matter. The two ideas don't mesh.
Yes, eternal life without misery or suffering, I believe, which would have no meaning without knowing what those things are..
This concept of heaven is pretty weak. If you
truly believed that heaven was an eternal state free of suffering, then why even worry about 80 years worth of occasional misfortune? So what if your spouse, parents and children die of cancer in the same year? You're all going to meet up pretty soon in the mildest cloud party of all time, right? Suffering wouldn't even exist now if you truly believed that.
I think you'd get bored with perfection pretty fast.
The Jesus narrative poses a similar problem. If he was an eternal being, God in flesh, then getting crucified isn't really all that bad, is it?
Getting beaten up for a few hours and then hanging from a tree for a little while isn't really much of a sacrifice since he got to immediately go back to where he came from, that celestial sky-party where no one experiences suffering, ever.
I mean, what if I really really wanted crab cakes on Tuesdays, but God decided that Tuesdays in heaven were made for Tuna Salad? I don't care how awesome the venue was, I'd be a little disappointed, something that I shouldn't feel in Heaven.
Here's a follow-up question...
What are the Elysian Fields like?