If you had another faith before your current faith, what was it, what if anything is it that you still like about it? If you've had the same faith all your life, have you ever thought about changing or has it never crossed your mind?
I was vaguely Christian (or theist) at primary school as that was what the school taught. (I don't know if it was any particular denomination honestly). So we had to sign hymns in the school assembly. We had the Harvest festival in the local church (just across the road, under some oak trees where we'd collect the concurs in autumn). The Christmas nativity was part of it as well. My parents has always stopped at local churches to take in the architecture, stained glass and the art side of it as well. I have looked in to Islam, Buddhism, Deism and Atheistic Satanism, but none of them have actually stuck for the most part.
There is a certain part of it I do miss, namely the believe that there is a higher power in the world that will protect us and ensure "good things happen to good people". The promise of unconditional love and an expectation that Christians are happier, more loving, caring people still has an attraction. The "darkness" of rejecting the Christian god and religions has it's perks because there is no-one to tell you "lust", "greed", "envy" etc are all "wrong", but you do miss the warm side of it occasionally. It's unsettling just how much of human behaviour is based on self-interest and narcissism and you sometimes just wish people would be "nice" to each other without having to gain anything from it.
I miss not having a community I could join or place of worship I could go to as you or people who shared
enough of your moral compass that you could go to for moral guidance. The isolation of relying on very unusual sources for moral guidance does set you apart from other people and make it harder for them to understand where you are coming from.