I became involved in other things, and then I met my husband not long after that. I got married when I was 19, my husband and I started a family, and the rest is history, as they say.
Once, I wanted to go int the Air Force but I was 29 so I was too old. I worked for the federal government back then and I forgot why I wanted to join the Air Force.
I did not get married until I was 32 and I had personal issues I had been struggling with since I was about 18 as the result of having been brought up in a dysfunctional family although that never interfered with my college or my employment because I have a will of iron. I had boyfriends before I married but I never had a never had a serious relationship and neither did my husband who was 42. We got married both as virgins three weeks after we met and that would have been a recipe for disaster had I not been proactive and found therapists to go to.
We are still married 36 years later but it has not been an easy road. Neither one of our parents really wanted children so we never had children because we were ill-equipped to raise children and we knew it. It was not such a big deal to be childless till I got older but now it is really difficult when I see other couples our age who had children and now have grandchildren. This is not how it is supposed to be but this was our fate. I have to admit I envy people who have children, but it was not meant to be.
Since we have no family,we are lucky to be quite wealthy so at least we will be able to afford to hire a caretaker care for us in older age if we live that long. I am a terrible caretaker and now my husband is starting to have medical problems it is causing a lot of stress for me. Thankfully we have good health insurance because I am still employed and I might be working forever at this rate. I have no plans for the future and nothing to look forward to. I live one day at a time and that is all I can handle, with all the problems we have. If God does not help me I don't know who will because I do everything humanly possible to help myself.