Working through some stuff

[Deathbydefault]

I wonder if a lack of a sex drive contributes to this. Apparently a lack of Testosterone can lead to depression in Males.
With you being Asexual, I figured it mah be relevant.

It could be a contributing factor, not the main cause.
My psych wont tell me why and my parents remain silent on the matter.
I'm assuming it has something to do with sexual abuse, though I can't be sure.

 

[Aquitaine]

It could be a contributing factor, not the main cause.
My psych wont tell me why and my parents remain silent on the matter.
I'm assuming it has something to do with sexual abuse, though I can't be sure.

If you don't mind me asking, how come, out of all things, sexual abuse comes into mind? You don't have to answer that question though.

 

[Deathbydefault]

If you don't mind me asking, how come, out of all things, sexual abuse comes into mind? You don't have to answer that question though.

I don't mind answering.
It comes to mind because my family abruptly moved from topeka to kansas city.
They did so for no reason, and only the church and my grandfather were informed of it.
It is quite a common story to hear about pedophiles becoming preachers so they can prey on children.
I would have been a perfect target for such because my parents put their religion before family.

This would have happened to me at about age 7 or the summer I turned 7.
I have no memories of my childhood before that age.

 

[Aquitaine]

I don't mind answering.
It comes to mind because my family abruptly moved from topeka to kansas city.
They did so for no reason, and only the church and my grandfather were informed of it.
It is quite a common story to hear about pedophiles becoming preachers so they can prey on children.
I would have been a perfect target for such because my parents put their religion before family.

This would have happened to me at about age 7 or the summer I turned 7.
I have no memories of my childhood before that age.

I see. Thanks for sharing. I wonder how one would go about trying to investigate such a thing.

 

[jeager106]

I, too, have fought depression then P.T.S.D. for a long time and coped by drinking
myself into alcoholism.
I'm in recovery from both disorders now and doing well.
I wish you the very best and totally understand the battle you are waging.
Never forget that life is good.

 

[jeager106]

delvingdowndeep.wordpress.com(I know the name is stupid, all the good ones were taken).
dfigirl
I checked out your site and it's interesting and the name is very appropriate
and is not stupid at all.
Watch your negative self talk and give your self some credit for originality and for
putting the site on line for others to enjoy and learn from.

 

[Revoltingest]

Hi all!

I have been away for a while. I needed a mental break from the anti stuff here.

Now that I am back, I wanted to let peeps know that I am currently working through some heavy mental health stuff (which will hopefully help with physical health). I am dealing with depression, anxiety, binge eating, ADD and significant emotional problems at the moment. I have decided to start a blog for it which I will include here, but I also wanted to start a thread on this topic because when I posted about mental disorders/illnesses on my fb, so many people commented with their stuff that I had NO clue about.

So if you feel comfortable enough to share, I would love to hear about it

delvingdowndeep.wordpress.com (I know the name is stupid, all the good ones were taken).

Welcome back!
Now I have present for you.......
I'll spare you my own tribulations.
(My stuff isn't that interesting.)

 

[Intojoy]

You have PTSD

 

[Shadow Wolf]

Welcome back! And good luck on the mental health issues (I've been struggling to keep myself together lately).

 

[Laika]

Hi all!

I have been away for a while. I needed a mental break from the anti stuff here.

Now that I am back, I wanted to let peeps know that I am currently working through some heavy mental health stuff (which will hopefully help with physical health). I am dealing with depression, anxiety, binge eating, ADD and significant emotional problems at the moment. I have decided to start a blog for it which I will include here, but I also wanted to start a thread on this topic because when I posted about mental disorders/illnesses on my fb, so many people commented with their stuff that I had NO clue about.

So if you feel comfortable enough to share, I would love to hear about it

delvingdowndeep.wordpress.com (I know the name is stupid, all the good ones were taken).

I have had depression for over 7 years. It is almost certianly to do with coming out as bisexual, but my relationship with my parents was problematic from the start and may therefore be psychological abuse. I have nearly fully recovered, but the long cycles of feeling agitated, paranoid and angry mean "recovery" is very unpleasant.

 

[Thana]

Hi all!

I have been away for a while. I needed a mental break from the anti stuff here.

Now that I am back, I wanted to let peeps know that I am currently working through some heavy mental health stuff (which will hopefully help with physical health). I am dealing with depression, anxiety, binge eating, ADD and significant emotional problems at the moment. I have decided to start a blog for it which I will include here, but I also wanted to start a thread on this topic because when I posted about mental disorders/illnesses on my fb, so many people commented with their stuff that I had NO clue about.

So if you feel comfortable enough to share, I would love to hear about it

delvingdowndeep.wordpress.com (I know the name is stupid, all the good ones were taken).

I don't like to talk about it.. or think about it in fact I just kind of pretend there's nothing wrong. But.. I'm pretty sure I have Bi-polar. My mother has it and so do quite a few other people in my family.
But I'm too afraid to find out, even though it's a struggle, I just don't want to know because if I have it.. then I have Bi-polar and that sucks. And if I don't have it.. then I don't know what's wrong with me and that's even scarier.

So yeah... I procrastinate. I'm super good at it.

Anyway, I hope things get better for you and.. I'm glad that you're working on it. You're facing it, and that's really brave... way braver than me.

 

[Shadow Wolf]

I don't like to talk about it.. or think about it in fact I just kind of pretend there's nothing wrong. But.. I'm pretty sure I have Bi-polar. My mother has it and so do quite a few other people in my family.
But I'm too afraid to find out, even though it's a struggle, I just don't want to know because if I have it.. then I have Bi-polar and that sucks. And if I don't have it.. then I don't know what's wrong with me and that's even scarier.

There's nothing to be scared of. If you have it, you have it, and the sooner you get it diagnosed the sooner you can learn more about it and manage the symptoms.

 

[dgirl1986]

I checked out your site and it's interesting and the name is very appropriate
and is not stupid at all.
Watch your negative self talk and give your self some credit for originality and for
putting the site on line for others to enjoy and learn from.

Thank you I usually do not pick up on my negative self talk as it is a natural response from me.

Welcome back!
Now I have present for you.......
I'll spare you my own tribulations.
(My stuff isn't that interesting.)

According to you

 

[dgirl1986]

You have PTSD

I don't know about that. PTSD is pretty intense.

Welcome back! And good luck on the mental health issues (I've been struggling to keep myself together lately).

Thank you Feel free to hit me up if you ever need someone to chat to.

 

[dgirl1986]

I have had depression for over 7 years. It is almost certianly to do with coming out as bisexual, but my relationship with my parents was problematic from the start and may therefore be psychological abuse. I have nearly fully recovered, but the long cycles of feeling agitated, paranoid and angry mean "recovery" is very unpleasant.

I can relate to that. Recovery is certainly unpleasant, but it seems worth the trouble.

 

[dgirl1986]

I don't like to talk about it.. or think about it in fact I just kind of pretend there's nothing wrong. But.. I'm pretty sure I have Bi-polar. My mother has it and so do quite a few other people in my family.
But I'm too afraid to find out, even though it's a struggle, I just don't want to know because if I have it.. then I have Bi-polar and that sucks. And if I don't have it.. then I don't know what's wrong with me and that's even scarier.

So yeah... I procrastinate. I'm super good at it.

Anyway, I hope things get better for you and.. I'm glad that you're working on it. You're facing it, and that's really brave... way braver than me.

Bi-polar is not a dirty word. A diagnosis can be the difference between feeling like a total nutball and not knowing what to do, and having a name for it and knowing how to move forward. It may give you peace of mind to find out.

If I am honest, I willingly faced the easier stuff a few years ago. The stuff I am dealing with now...the only reason I am doing so is because I am going to eat myself to death if I do not.

 

[Revoltingest]

According to you

I'm an expert on how tedious & uninteresting my troubles are.
And the only slightly interesting stuff is TMI (financial).

 

[jeager106]

Bi-polar is not a dirty word. A diagnosis can be the difference between feeling like a total nutball and not knowing what to do, and having a name for it and knowing how to move forward. It may give you peace of mind to find out.

If I am honest, I willingly faced the easier stuff a few years ago. The stuff I am dealing with now...the only reason I am doing so is because I am going to eat myself to death if I do not.

Bi-polar is not a dirty word. A diagnosis can be the difference between feeling like a total nutball and not knowing what to do, and having a name for it and knowing how to move forward. It may give you peace of mind to find out.

If I am honest, I willingly faced the easier stuff a few years ago. The stuff I am dealing with now...the only reason I am doing so is because I am going to eat myself to death if I do not.

I am back in a recovery program for substance abuse (alcohol).
Fortunately I didn't drink for a long period of time this trip around so no with drawl and
I volunteered for the recovery program, was not "ordered" in by any authority
like many in my group are.
I'm doing well as my significant other attends A.A. meetings with me and she is
learning a lot about the plague of addiction.
It's sad in a way to see so many young men and women in recovery from cocaine and
heroine as well as alcohol.
I had no idea hard drugs were so very easy to get and the junk is literally
everywhere.
Honestly the odds of these pour souls staying drug free is abysmal.
Perhaps 10% in recovery from hard drugs make one year clean.
Even that 10% could relapse eventually. Thing is relapse can easily be
a death sentence for these young men and women.
Many, many, addicts, alcohol and drugs, are bi-polar and may never have
been properly diagnosed or may have been misdiagnosed.
I was once told by a counselor that I absolutely could drink like a normal
person and it would be o.k. to have a few drinks with friends.
THAT led to the next decade of insane drinking that nearly killed me.

 

[dgirl1986]

I am back in a recovery program for substance abuse (alcohol).
Fortunately I didn't drink for a long period of time this trip around so no with drawl and
I volunteered for the recovery program, was not "ordered" in by any authority
like many in my group are.
I'm doing well as my significant other attends A.A. meetings with me and she is
learning a lot about the plague of addiction.
It's sad in a way to see so many young men and women in recovery from cocaine and
heroine as well as alcohol.
I had no idea hard drugs were so very easy to get and the junk is literally
everywhere.
Honestly the odds of these pour souls staying drug free is abysmal.
Perhaps 10% in recovery from hard drugs make one year clean.
Even that 10% could relapse eventually. Thing is relapse can easily be
a death sentence for these young men and women.
Many, many, addicts, alcohol and drugs, are bi-polar and may never have
been properly diagnosed or may have been misdiagnosed.
I was once told by a counselor that I absolutely could drink like a normal
person and it would be o.k. to have a few drinks with friends.
THAT led to the next decade of insane drinking that nearly killed me.

Wow... I cannot believe your counselor would be so irresponsible. It makes me so mad when people are misdiagnosed. My friend was in and out of mental health hospitals for years and got 4 incorrect diagnosises (sp?). It is only recently that it has been identified that she ticks the boxes for schizo affective.

I do not think that addiction is treated in the best way. I believe there are studies being conducted on this to identify a better way to treat people and help them stay clean. In my mind, the behaviour of people in this kind of problematic way is a symptom of something else going on at a deeper level. Not so much when people are deep in it, but when people get clean and end up back in it without knowing why other than that driving force.

It reminds me of my struggle with food. The eating is a symptom of a much bigger problem.