I'm so sorry to hear things are not going at all well for you. But I confess my feelings are hopelessly mixed -- I'm happy just to see you!
Until a few short days ago, I was afflicted for a few months with a mild depression. Thankfully, it was mild -- and, for now at least, it has passed. It did have the effect though of messing with my creative endeavors -- my blogging and my sketching. Especially my sketching.
It's a coincidence you showed up at this moment. I was just thinking about you yesterday. Wondering how you were getting on, and all. I rather miss our times together.
I expect, though, I will get back to sketching very soon.