Runewolf1973
Hello friend! You sound just like me. I don't have a specific religion, nor do I think I need one. I follow the most ancient form of belief, Animism. This is because I believe that the older the belief is, the more closer it also is to the connection of all things. Animism is about a connection with nature and the energy in all things. There is not really any specific goal to achieve enlightenment, but rather more of a way of living in the world. A realization that we are already enlightened, we only need to search from within. I believe the spirit world is real and exists, but I don't believe in the concept of God. To me, what could be called "God" is existence itself. I worship existence which is the ALL in ALL. You seem to have already discovered that enlightened part of you that drives you to seek out truth. Don't just search for it in books. That truth you seek is already within you and all around you. I know you see "God" already, maybe you don't recognize it. It is existence.
There are many ways and many paths to find that connection with "God". My way might not be right for you, but it is one option among many. You are already on the right path though, that is for certain.