I have a long time friend that used to like watching those nature shows where they would show animals attacking and killing other animals for their own survival. And although I understood that this is the "way of life", so to speak, I couldn't really understand why my friend liked watching it. And I puzzled about it for a long time. I even wondered if I were the one being 'weak-minded' and unrealistic by not wanting to be a witness to this reality of our existence.
Eventually I came to understand that the truth was far less philosophical. My friend had grown up in a violent abusive household. He, his mother, and sister had regularly been beaten by his father, and he was sexually molested by a cousin and by the family priest. In the world he grew up in the stronger did whatever they wanted to the weaker, and no one ever came to help the weak out or to change anything. People talked about righteousness and fairness and kindness and all that, but they did nothing. Even the family priest was a predator when he was in a position of dominance and no one else was looking. So this was just the reality of the world as my friend experienced and understood it. Why would he have ever thought any different?
Eventually he came to work in various stock brokerage houses where he watched all the same predatory mayhem being played out, but now with money. Money is power in the modern human world and the more of it one has, the more able they are to use it to take money from those who have less. That was the whole game. And my friend understood that if you're a servant of predators, they tend to look elsewhere for someone to pray on. Not that they won't eat you, too, just that they'll choose someone else, first. Needless to say he became a life-long republican because to him, this predatory power-dynamic was as real and inevitable as gravity. It was absolute and unquestionable. And when people grow up being victimized, as he was, they have a tendency to become victimizers as adults, to whatever extent they are able. Because that's how they 'get their power back'. But to my friend's credit he did not become an abuser like his father. But to avoit it, he never married or had children. Because he knew that if he did, he would have become his father. He felt that same rage inside. So instead he'd sit around by himself in the evenings watching nature programs showing animals killing and eating each other. And he'd get a bit of a sick thrill from it. Just as he would get a sick thrill hearing the stories of how some very clever rich guy played the markets and scored millions. Or how the republicans would humiliate those phony ideological democrats on some issue. For him, it was the way of the world, and it's better to be on the side of the winners, instead of the losers, because morality had nothing to do with anything. Morality was just a whitewash we thew on the predatory truth of things.