YmirGF
Bodhisattva in Recovery
It was my curiosity about the playground of the mind and wondering how far one could go while keeping both feet planted firmly on the ground. I spent decades reasoning through it all. Arrogantly thought I had found "god" more than a few times... after several times one begins to see that "god" is just our projection onto a reality that there is no way to validate. We flatter ourselves thinking we have figured it all out. Then, if one remains honest, one realizes it's not like we are experts on the subject. But, still, many will feel an affinity with something "divine" while remaining ignorant of the reality that "divinity" is an expression of.Thanks for the description. I've seen you talk about those states before.
What triggered you to start getting all those various altered states of consciousness for the first time? Did it just happen to you, or did you actively bring them about?
In the beginning, we only pretend to understand - and the certainty acts as an intellectual coffin, of a sorts. It takes time and considerably more experience to realize we are trying to grasp a slippery marble with our inner hands. As soon as you think you've snatched it; it slips away... and the chase continues...