Druidus said:
What do you feel when you do this? I feel a deep peace. I see from a tree's point of view, and I feel connected to the world. I grow immensly patient, and content. I haven't yet gotten the bird, because they see to fly away too fast.
I don't understand. What is a "totem animal"?
When I'm with a tree, I feel the deep peace that you mentioned, that feeling of interconnected-ness. I also connect with the personal spirit of the tree. The 'conversation' you might have with a sapling is naturally quite different than that you might have with a mighty oak.
I should've explained what a totem animal is, my apologies! According to various traditions, the phrase might be used as 'power animal' or another phrase. Depending on the individual, one might have one or hundreds of these critters, which are usually a reflection of one's deepest self. They might also represent qualities which one possesses, or which Spirit is trying to remind one of the importance of. For example, a mentor of mine is most closely connected with the bear. Not only does he look like one, people say he gives 'bear hugs,' and make bear puns around him, even if they don't know that he's a shaman. That's because the bear spirit that he
is is so much at the forefront of his being that people who don't know any better still recognize him for what he is.
In esoteric usage, a common way to walk, as a shaman (or any other type of spiritual traveller), is with a totem animal on each side. For example, when I'm doing 'spirit work', I walk with a fox to my right side, a spider on my left, and raven flies above me. This is because these animals (or their qualities, however one wishes to see it) resonate most closely with my soul. That which I am, my power animal, is what I tend to walk
as.
I've found that the most easy way of discovering what your power animal is is simply looking around your room at home. Do you have pictures/ stuffed animals/ or books on a certain animal or type of animal? Normally, that's your subconsious trying to assert to you what you are. There are any number of other ways to 'discover' your animals, but I've found that's one of the easiest.
Also, one of the greatest things I've learned in my travels is that ones' power animal doesn't have to be 'real.' If you feel drawn to a dragon, a pegasus or another creature, trust your instinct! It isn't lying to you!